So I met my doc today. He's the son of the one I saw 15-20 years ago. Weird how that worked out....
Anyways, things went pretty much how I expected. Weight, smoking, drinking - all key issues we discussed.
No prostrate gland check, no finger in the ass... never had to drop my drawers. We did some talking about that, too. Since I don't have family history, and no 'obvious' problems with that area, they normally don't routine check until about 45 (6 years yet WOO!).
Weight was something we talked about alot. I got much of it to lose. At weigh-in, I was surprised at the number. I had thought I was doing better than normal the past 3-4 weeks....but obviously, if I was, I was way behind what I thought.
Need less to say, my blogs may be a bit hormonal.... or, if you prefer, me moaning like a whore cuz I can't eat what I wanna, and get tired of the healthy shit I should be eating.
Blood was drawn. And an X-ray to follow for my chest on Monday. Then I wait to hear from the doc with results.
In the meantime, my wife will be doing her best to feed me right, and still have the kids eat what we are, and keeping me outta the bar!
PeacE
Friday, October 8
Today is the Big Day
I don't think I have ever looked forward to being told that I am fat, an alcoholic, and you can fix those things - but yer still ugly. Okay, well 2 out of 3 aren't bad.
This morning I am off to my doctor for that dreaded visit. I feel I am prepared: Freshly showered and sanitized appropriately; Insurance info; Kindle to read while waiting; oh, and a sample package of Isagenix. My Sis sells those, and is trying to get me to ask the doctor about if I should use them as a supplement in dieting. Though I cannot afford it, and have no interest in it. Figure I would at least ask for her.
So, as I sit here, wayyyy to early, and my sphincter tightens up... Nothing else exciting is happening. The daughter will be planning on being back up from college tonight for her HS homecoming. We have dinner out tomorrow for her birthday.
Oh, here's some regular messed up news for me.... the van had it's engine light come on yesterday. So Monday I will be taking it in to have something else checked and fixed. The Wife mentioned the brakes were starting to make noise too. Maybe it is all related?
So Tuesday was a crazy day. Had one hell of a hail storm come through my area. Bad enough I was worried about windows and vehicles, but everything made it through ok. Tons of rain, that we are not used to here in the desert. The hail shredded the foliage on the trees out front and covered the ground well enough, like fresh snow cover. About 4 inches deep against the house....
Okay, maybe I will update later after the dr, and after my cry session.
PeacE
This morning I am off to my doctor for that dreaded visit. I feel I am prepared: Freshly showered and sanitized appropriately; Insurance info; Kindle to read while waiting; oh, and a sample package of Isagenix. My Sis sells those, and is trying to get me to ask the doctor about if I should use them as a supplement in dieting. Though I cannot afford it, and have no interest in it. Figure I would at least ask for her.
So, as I sit here, wayyyy to early, and my sphincter tightens up... Nothing else exciting is happening. The daughter will be planning on being back up from college tonight for her HS homecoming. We have dinner out tomorrow for her birthday.
Oh, here's some regular messed up news for me.... the van had it's engine light come on yesterday. So Monday I will be taking it in to have something else checked and fixed. The Wife mentioned the brakes were starting to make noise too. Maybe it is all related?
So Tuesday was a crazy day. Had one hell of a hail storm come through my area. Bad enough I was worried about windows and vehicles, but everything made it through ok. Tons of rain, that we are not used to here in the desert. The hail shredded the foliage on the trees out front and covered the ground well enough, like fresh snow cover. About 4 inches deep against the house....
Okay, maybe I will update later after the dr, and after my cry session.
PeacE
Tuesday, October 5
Nerves of Aluminum
Yesterday was a nice day in our desert Valley. Had just a touch of rainstorm come through, so temperatures were lower than 100... maybe into the 80's even. My son's concert was nice, and my daughter made it up from college for the the end of it. We picked up some pizzas and had a nice family time at home last night. Today, she heads back after her orthodontist appointment, but will be back Friday afternoon.
I made that phone call yesterday. The one to schedule a visit with my doctor. It has been so long since I was seen by him, my regular doc I mean. So long in fact, he is now in practice with his son. So long, that they said my charts were in long-term storage (pre-computer storage even). So, obviously I will be a new patient for them. Or rather, for his son, my new doctor.
I am nervous already. I think like everyone I dread to hear things I won't like. No one likes to hear just how bad their health is, or the possibly extreme changes to fix what may be wrong. Well, unless you have like a seemingly life-changing event like a heart attack and 4-way bypass surgery - or like my Sis, a bone marrow transplant - or any transplant for that matter.
I don't want to hear I am overweight - though I know I am. I don't want to hear I need to diet and exercise. That I need to stop eating large amounts of the wrong types of foods/drinks - not stop altogether. Moderation is probably the largest part of it all.
I don't want to hear that I need more 'strenuous' exercise. I use that "S" word, because walking further than from my car to the bar door is exercise for me. Yes, I hurt walking longer distances... the knees and lower back ache, and usually the hip as well. All could be factored because of my weight. Lose the weight, maybe they won't hurt, or as much.... or we could find out what more specifically is wrong (ie. arthritis, bad joints, etc.) and treat better.
Quit smoking. Heh. I smoke less now than I did 10 years ago. Yes, that is good. Stopping altogether would be better, true. I know I will hear that one as well.
So what we have so far? Weight, no smoking, more exercise. Oh, this sort of goes with the weight thing to, but no (or alot less) drinking alcohol. That's 4 major things, and I haven't even spoken or seen the doc yet. Four things I don't want to hear about, but know I am going to have to hear. Know that I am going to have to change if I want the next visit not possibly be by ambulance at the hospital.
(sigh)
What else do I worry about in regards to this doctor visit? Family Medical History. I need to be checked for Diabetes. It runs pretty wide-spread in both branches of my family tree above me, and even next to me. Easily treated... maybe by pill, or even at worst, injections. Minor things in this day and age, unless I don't treat it - if I have it.
What else? Well, it may be minor, but I have this patch of skin something-or-other on one of my knees. Looks like psoriasis, and has been there for several years, and actually grown in size over that time. I have tried over the counter stuff for it, with little or no results. Could this a possible cause of that knee hurting? It is the one that aches more.... psoriatic arthritis I have read about. Or however it is spelled. I need to have it looked at.
What other worries? Everything I can't explain away fearlessly or easily. Blood work - what if something drastic is found? I am not worried about things like HIV, but yet that small thought lingers. What about other blood-related/carried stuff?
Has all the drinking I have done over the years totally fucked my liver, and is it still working ok? What about my prostrate? Oh boy. I mean, I haven't felt any problems there, and it still seems to be working fine regularly and sexually. Do I need to have a colonoscopy done to to check for polyps? I mean, that department seems to be working fine too... least, I ain't noticing anything wrong. And would I notice something wrong excluding, say, major bloody discharge or pain?
Yeah, I am nervous. Am I worrying about too much being found wrong, or whatnot. Probably - more than likely. Does that help me feel any better. No. It's only Tuesday. Appointment is Friday morning. Half the stuff I probably won't know right away - bloodwork can take some time.
Four more days to worry. Four more days I am not drinking, though I want to more now because I worry. Yeah, alcoholic talking there. Doing my best (and I will do it) to not drink so can have the best blood sample to provide with no BAC (Blood Alcohol Content - for those not knowing) to worry about as well.
Are you going to be here Friday afternoon? After I get out of the appointment, and home to update? OR are you going to wait til Monday, and read about what plans were made over the weekend to start fixing what the doc says needs work? Ooooo..... suspense and possible excitement, huh?
PeacE
I made that phone call yesterday. The one to schedule a visit with my doctor. It has been so long since I was seen by him, my regular doc I mean. So long in fact, he is now in practice with his son. So long, that they said my charts were in long-term storage (pre-computer storage even). So, obviously I will be a new patient for them. Or rather, for his son, my new doctor.
I am nervous already. I think like everyone I dread to hear things I won't like. No one likes to hear just how bad their health is, or the possibly extreme changes to fix what may be wrong. Well, unless you have like a seemingly life-changing event like a heart attack and 4-way bypass surgery - or like my Sis, a bone marrow transplant - or any transplant for that matter.
I don't want to hear I am overweight - though I know I am. I don't want to hear I need to diet and exercise. That I need to stop eating large amounts of the wrong types of foods/drinks - not stop altogether. Moderation is probably the largest part of it all.
I don't want to hear that I need more 'strenuous' exercise. I use that "S" word, because walking further than from my car to the bar door is exercise for me. Yes, I hurt walking longer distances... the knees and lower back ache, and usually the hip as well. All could be factored because of my weight. Lose the weight, maybe they won't hurt, or as much.... or we could find out what more specifically is wrong (ie. arthritis, bad joints, etc.) and treat better.
Quit smoking. Heh. I smoke less now than I did 10 years ago. Yes, that is good. Stopping altogether would be better, true. I know I will hear that one as well.
So what we have so far? Weight, no smoking, more exercise. Oh, this sort of goes with the weight thing to, but no (or alot less) drinking alcohol. That's 4 major things, and I haven't even spoken or seen the doc yet. Four things I don't want to hear about, but know I am going to have to hear. Know that I am going to have to change if I want the next visit not possibly be by ambulance at the hospital.
(sigh)
What else do I worry about in regards to this doctor visit? Family Medical History. I need to be checked for Diabetes. It runs pretty wide-spread in both branches of my family tree above me, and even next to me. Easily treated... maybe by pill, or even at worst, injections. Minor things in this day and age, unless I don't treat it - if I have it.
What else? Well, it may be minor, but I have this patch of skin something-or-other on one of my knees. Looks like psoriasis, and has been there for several years, and actually grown in size over that time. I have tried over the counter stuff for it, with little or no results. Could this a possible cause of that knee hurting? It is the one that aches more.... psoriatic arthritis I have read about. Or however it is spelled. I need to have it looked at.
What other worries? Everything I can't explain away fearlessly or easily. Blood work - what if something drastic is found? I am not worried about things like HIV, but yet that small thought lingers. What about other blood-related/carried stuff?
Has all the drinking I have done over the years totally fucked my liver, and is it still working ok? What about my prostrate? Oh boy. I mean, I haven't felt any problems there, and it still seems to be working fine regularly and sexually. Do I need to have a colonoscopy done to to check for polyps? I mean, that department seems to be working fine too... least, I ain't noticing anything wrong. And would I notice something wrong excluding, say, major bloody discharge or pain?
Yeah, I am nervous. Am I worrying about too much being found wrong, or whatnot. Probably - more than likely. Does that help me feel any better. No. It's only Tuesday. Appointment is Friday morning. Half the stuff I probably won't know right away - bloodwork can take some time.
Four more days to worry. Four more days I am not drinking, though I want to more now because I worry. Yeah, alcoholic talking there. Doing my best (and I will do it) to not drink so can have the best blood sample to provide with no BAC (Blood Alcohol Content - for those not knowing) to worry about as well.
Are you going to be here Friday afternoon? After I get out of the appointment, and home to update? OR are you going to wait til Monday, and read about what plans were made over the weekend to start fixing what the doc says needs work? Ooooo..... suspense and possible excitement, huh?
PeacE
Monday, October 4
Some Monday BOOBAGE!!!
What a great weekend that just ended! We got a new"used" washer on Saturday, even if I felt like I had to drive 400 miles to get it. Sunday was just a great Family day. Church in the morning (yes, I went, and as you can see ... I didn't burn up in a flash of flame), then movie and McDonald's for dinner. Was overall a great time!
Oldest son has a band concert tonight. He is not aware of it, but his sister is trying to make it back into town early enough to see him perform. She is coming up as she has an ortho appointment in the morning. Then she will return to school, until Friday, when she comes home for her Homecoming. Saturday, we plan on taking her out for her birthday dinner finally.
I get to do something that feels really out of the norm for me. I am calling my doc today to set an appointment for a regular physical. For some reason, everyone ganged up on me and sort of "ragged" on me to do it. I just don't want to because, we all know he is going to say, quit drinking, quit smoking, eat healthier, exercise more....(sigh). But I like the way I do those things! Maybe it just is starting to sink in a bit though, that if I keep on them, maybe I won't have that time for my kids. I dunno. Either way, I am calling today. Prolly be a couple weeks before I can get in though.
So, nothing else exciting going on. I have been lax these many weeks, so here's some boobs for ya....
PeacE
Oldest son has a band concert tonight. He is not aware of it, but his sister is trying to make it back into town early enough to see him perform. She is coming up as she has an ortho appointment in the morning. Then she will return to school, until Friday, when she comes home for her Homecoming. Saturday, we plan on taking her out for her birthday dinner finally.
I get to do something that feels really out of the norm for me. I am calling my doc today to set an appointment for a regular physical. For some reason, everyone ganged up on me and sort of "ragged" on me to do it. I just don't want to because, we all know he is going to say, quit drinking, quit smoking, eat healthier, exercise more....(sigh). But I like the way I do those things! Maybe it just is starting to sink in a bit though, that if I keep on them, maybe I won't have that time for my kids. I dunno. Either way, I am calling today. Prolly be a couple weeks before I can get in though.
So, nothing else exciting going on. I have been lax these many weeks, so here's some boobs for ya....
PeacE
Saturday, October 2
I Need an Off Button
So, Thursday I went out to the pub, did some karaoke, and didn't stay out too late. Though Friday I ended up sleeping most of the day in short naps. I just could not stay awake for longer than an hour it seemed. So Friday night, I head to bed about 9'ish, and am up about 1am and can't get back to sleep....
It was kind of nice being up that early, I guess. I noticed some new shows on TV that seem interesting, and have been trying to catch the pilot shows of them to see if actually any good. With Hulu.com, I am able to enjoy quite a few online, and find some additional links for those they don't carry.
Here are a few of the ones I am watching this season: "Blue Bloods" - a cop series with Tom Selleck. "Outsourced" - has new actors, about a novelty company outsourced to India. It's pretty funny. "S#@% My Dad Says" with William Shatner. I been cracking up at this one. "Fringe" season 3. "Outlaw" with Jimmy Smits. "Warehouse 13" another season. "No Ordinary Family" "Undercovers" and I am sure I am missing one or two others. Surprisingly, quite a few once I list them. Whereas last season I hardly watched anything.
So it's 4-something in the morning, I am caught up pretty much on my tv shows. I guess I am off to play some WoW.
PeacE
It was kind of nice being up that early, I guess. I noticed some new shows on TV that seem interesting, and have been trying to catch the pilot shows of them to see if actually any good. With Hulu.com, I am able to enjoy quite a few online, and find some additional links for those they don't carry.
Here are a few of the ones I am watching this season: "Blue Bloods" - a cop series with Tom Selleck. "Outsourced" - has new actors, about a novelty company outsourced to India. It's pretty funny. "S#@% My Dad Says" with William Shatner. I been cracking up at this one. "Fringe" season 3. "Outlaw" with Jimmy Smits. "Warehouse 13" another season. "No Ordinary Family" "Undercovers" and I am sure I am missing one or two others. Surprisingly, quite a few once I list them. Whereas last season I hardly watched anything.
So it's 4-something in the morning, I am caught up pretty much on my tv shows. I guess I am off to play some WoW.
PeacE
Thursday, September 30
Is This Thing On?
Good morning everyone. I finally found my way back to here, though nothing of any excitement has happened to interest anyone.
I am pretty much back to normal. I get some pain flares once in awhile, but, yeah. Pretty much back to my normal, lazy self.
Except this morning. I had been hoping the past several days that I was over the early morning waking up stuff. This morning makes me thin k different. Here it is 4am, and guess where I am? Giving you an update you will never forget! LOL!
No, this morning I think I am up early do to my dream. I don't tend to remember any in the morning for the most part anyways. This morning though, I recall waking several times during the night, usually falling back into the "same" dream. And when I woke up a half hour ago, I was stiff all over, as if I had been cramped in a position with a majority of my muscle throughout the body tightened up. I also awoke, ready to jump and run through the house for my family.
I don't know what brought it on. I have heard say that dreams are just bits and pieces of random thoughts, memories and experiences from the previous day, floating and colliding in your sub-conscience, but hell, I don't think anyone knows for sure. And I can't think once of anything having to do with tornadoes, or funnels popped in my head yesterday. But I sure as hell dreamed of being in a bad situation with one... actually more than one situation, as it seemed I would awake, then drop back in for another one. I know that last one I was dreaming of being all tensed up and curled up, hanging on for dear life to some thing embedded in concrete, inside a garage, as a tornado of the Type 5 (OMFG size) ripped by in the yard. Yeah... what the hell brought THAT kinna dream on?
So I am sitting here recapping for you, and drinking some Hawaiian Punch Red, trying to work out some stiff muscles.
Some people in my life have been known to have "prophetic" dreams and bits of their dream have come true. I sure as hell hope I don't have that capability. In fact, I don't know why, but I scanned the major weather websites this morn too, just checking if maybe some big storm hit somewhere last night. Everything that I went through, never saw a word about any tornadoes. Whew!
In other exciting news...oh wait, I ain't got none. Have a good day!
PeacE
I am pretty much back to normal. I get some pain flares once in awhile, but, yeah. Pretty much back to my normal, lazy self.
Except this morning. I had been hoping the past several days that I was over the early morning waking up stuff. This morning makes me thin k different. Here it is 4am, and guess where I am? Giving you an update you will never forget! LOL!
No, this morning I think I am up early do to my dream. I don't tend to remember any in the morning for the most part anyways. This morning though, I recall waking several times during the night, usually falling back into the "same" dream. And when I woke up a half hour ago, I was stiff all over, as if I had been cramped in a position with a majority of my muscle throughout the body tightened up. I also awoke, ready to jump and run through the house for my family.
I don't know what brought it on. I have heard say that dreams are just bits and pieces of random thoughts, memories and experiences from the previous day, floating and colliding in your sub-conscience, but hell, I don't think anyone knows for sure. And I can't think once of anything having to do with tornadoes, or funnels popped in my head yesterday. But I sure as hell dreamed of being in a bad situation with one... actually more than one situation, as it seemed I would awake, then drop back in for another one. I know that last one I was dreaming of being all tensed up and curled up, hanging on for dear life to some thing embedded in concrete, inside a garage, as a tornado of the Type 5 (OMFG size) ripped by in the yard. Yeah... what the hell brought THAT kinna dream on?
So I am sitting here recapping for you, and drinking some Hawaiian Punch Red, trying to work out some stiff muscles.
Some people in my life have been known to have "prophetic" dreams and bits of their dream have come true. I sure as hell hope I don't have that capability. In fact, I don't know why, but I scanned the major weather websites this morn too, just checking if maybe some big storm hit somewhere last night. Everything that I went through, never saw a word about any tornadoes. Whew!
In other exciting news...oh wait, I ain't got none. Have a good day!
PeacE
Monday, September 27
Recuperating
Whew! I am worn out. Truth of the matter, is I am just fat and lazy. Oh, and let's not forget out of shape. Yesterday we had traveled down to Tucson as my daughter was having her first Honor Choir concert at the UofA. Actually, in a way, it was nice to get out of the valley, though, there wasn't much change in temperature (a few degrees). Anyhow, the concert was nice, and though I felt we had to walk quite a bit (no more than maybe 4 blocks either way) it was a nice evening. We made it back home just short of midnight.
But being that I am fat, lazy, and out of shape, that walking is making me pay the price today. The legs and back are letting me know that they are not used to that kind of activity, or at least that much of it at one time. So actually, that bit is tolerable. What is really driving me nuts today are my allergies. I just cannot get my nose to quit running - and I am not even going to talk about the constant sneezing. I don't want to take any allergy meds though, because I know then I will require a 3-4 hour nap. The meds always kick me in the ass and knock me out - and they are just over the counter.
My daughter's birthday is tomorrow. She'll be turning 19 this year. I am sure when I take the time to really let that sink in, I will feel a bit old. Anyway, we had taken her down some gifts last night as well. She is coming back up for her HS Homecoming game the 8th, and we are planning to go out to a nice dinner the 9th for her birthday. I even was nice and invited her boyfriend, who I actually do get along with pretty decent. Well, for at least as social as I am.
Well, that is about as far as I can plan for today. I really don't feel like doing much since I am muscle sore. I may just end up watching a couple movies and playing some Warcraft. Then again, I may end up taking some meds and passing out. I downloaded several free e-books to my kindle over the past few days, so I got lots of reading to do as well.
Decisions. Decisions.
PeacE
But being that I am fat, lazy, and out of shape, that walking is making me pay the price today. The legs and back are letting me know that they are not used to that kind of activity, or at least that much of it at one time. So actually, that bit is tolerable. What is really driving me nuts today are my allergies. I just cannot get my nose to quit running - and I am not even going to talk about the constant sneezing. I don't want to take any allergy meds though, because I know then I will require a 3-4 hour nap. The meds always kick me in the ass and knock me out - and they are just over the counter.
My daughter's birthday is tomorrow. She'll be turning 19 this year. I am sure when I take the time to really let that sink in, I will feel a bit old. Anyway, we had taken her down some gifts last night as well. She is coming back up for her HS Homecoming game the 8th, and we are planning to go out to a nice dinner the 9th for her birthday. I even was nice and invited her boyfriend, who I actually do get along with pretty decent. Well, for at least as social as I am.
Well, that is about as far as I can plan for today. I really don't feel like doing much since I am muscle sore. I may just end up watching a couple movies and playing some Warcraft. Then again, I may end up taking some meds and passing out. I downloaded several free e-books to my kindle over the past few days, so I got lots of reading to do as well.
Decisions. Decisions.
PeacE
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