Another Late Night

 Last night, I had attended a couple VFW committee meetings (one I am a Secretary for) and when they ran longer than I expected, I figured I would stop at the pub for a couple beers before heading home. Of course, I had my tablet with me, and got so involved in reading the current book, time slipped by me and it was after 1am before I actually headed home. And I could not sleep. Around 6am I did lay down in bed, and after about an hour, I managed to fall asleep, but only got about 3 hours of sleep before I knew I had to get up.

Tonight I amin bed before 10pm, feeling tired from the previous lack of sleep the night before, but it is a no-go. The tinnitus in my head is loud tonight, and just won't let me drop off. I got up about 11pm, took a couple acetaminophen and an edible, to see if they will kick in the next hour and let me sleep. Fingers crossed.

I was expecting a call from a friend this morning. He had plans to drop his car off at the dealership to get his a/c fixed before summer gets here, then we were to go have lunch at Chino Banditos (takee-outee) one of my fave places. I guess he drove over there, texted me (I was still asleep at the time). I did wake and see his text about 45 minutes later, so sent back I was free, and what time did he want to go (still before noon). Instead I guess while he was waiting to hear back from me, he spoke to his Dad on the phone, and they went out to lunch instead. No worries. But he called tonight saying the car should be ready around noon tomorrow, and could I give him a ride, so here's to hoping for some sleep so I won't be groggy tomorrow. I doubt we will do lunch, as I do want to get over and get a haircut, and some other errands done.

That's about all I got right now.

PeacE

More Boring Stuff...

 There are many things I want to say in today's post, but the bottom line is.... I am not sure how to say them.

I spoke little over a week ago, about the bathroom assault that took place. Tinnitus is my friend evidently, as it has been a constant since the event. Some days are better than others, but even alcohol cannot stop it. I find myself losing a trin of thought at times. Other times, I find myself losing balance. There is no definite thing I can adjust to, it just happens. Pretty much like life in general.....

It *was* Saturday, when the day started. I met up with RM for some breakfast at a restaurant we all generally love. Black Bear Diner usually does not disappoint. I truly had a good time catching up with RM, even though we had briefly talked on Friday, when I swung by my Brother's home (a whole 'nother story).As always, loved catching up on small talk, though most of ours were situated around my other siblings, and, yes, sigh, PT. But no matter how our conversation went, RM and I could laugh and have a good time. I really should do these breakfast/lunches more often, but then, what would we have to talk about? Know what I mean Vern?

Next weekend, our Anniversary weekend, we are headed to Tucson (again). The newest granddaughter is being baptized/christened/dedicated whatever it is called, at the church the Daughter and SIL attend. Of course we will stand in support, even if I don't know what for. I'm more worried about the SIL's parents (his dad is a jackass). Sheesh... I said it already.

I got many other things rolling through my mind right now. Most of which, I do not want to share, until I know more, but overall, I'm not sure it will make you or I a better person. Years ago, I left behind a portion of me, that needed to stay in the past, and had no future with my family, or me. Due to recent events, that persona has come a-knocking....

My mental health isn't as good as it should be. But I have a wonderful Wife, whom I share these details with, and she helps get the worst of it away. And I have a few, very good, close friends I am able to talk with, that help as well.

Right now, I'm trying my best to NOT be that person again.

I just want the ringing in my head to stop.....f'ing tinnitus.

PeacE