The Day After ... Part II

I've stewed. I have thought on it. I have slept on it. I am still angry, and somewhat upset about it.

I'm talking about the job I left on March 2nd. I have so many mixed up feelings, I'm not sure about anything, let alone the actions I want to take.

Let's start with the story, as I know it....

Back in August, maybe September, of 2019, I let me superior/manager/higher-up now that this was not a thing I could continue doing, that the physical part of the job was giving me more issues. I already had a work comp injury with my back, and my knees were giving me more problems. Not saying the knees were from the job, just that I physically am older, and not in the prime of my life to keep this up. In our discussion, he asked what were alternatives. I expressed desire to stay with the company, and see if we could hire a younger person, more able to to do the physical work, and maybe we could create a position where I could transition between Parts (physically) and Parts (ordering, and paperwork) with a lead-in to help inventory control. I was told at the time it was not an option as the company could not "create a position" for me. This went all the way through February, when I gave notice I was finally leaving.

March 2nd came, and I left. No second thought about trying to keep me, and I admit, when I gave notice 4 weeks prior, I told them that unless a new position was created, I was not staying.

Clean. Proper. As far as I knew, no bad feelings, except they wished I wasn't leaving.

Fast forward to this last Thursday. Late in the evening, I get a call, through Facebook, from one of the guys I worked with at that location.  I admit, he originally called to show me his mohawk (funny thing) and just BS, because we were friends outside that place of work. Then he tells me, since I left, early March (see above) they have hired 3 (THREE) people in the Parts Dept, to replace what I did alone before.

Yes. It's good to feel they had to do that to replace how good of an employee I was.... but what about when I asked, could we create....? I was told no. Now, THREE people have been hired, full-time, and all I asked was ... was for one. 

I am not responsible for company decisions when I am not there, and I admit, it feels good to know, they had to hire 4 people over all to do what I did before as one person. Kind of ... now you wonder why I asked for help, or more money, and either way still got the job done with less than 5 hours overtime?

I am going back there this week at some point. Going to stop in long enough to say "hi" to the boss, and spend maybe 15 minutes about how he misses me and had to hire more people. I might even ... I lie. I WILL bring up about how I asked for  help of ONE person, and life could have gone on. Then, me and the guys from the Reconditioning dept, are gonna go have a beer.

I will say.... if they offer me $20/hour to come back.... I'll think about it. We could get rid of 3 of thoe people, and run the dept with three of us....

Just saying. If they were smart, they'd offer me the right amount to come back. I think $20/hr is a good starting point.

PeacE

The Day After...Part 1

Yeah. It was horrible. I got no cards. I got no presents. And I had to pay for dinner (with 2 boys, instead of 4 kids) so maybe I got off lucky. We ended up at Outback. Yeah, by the bill, wasn't so lucky, except none of the other kids were with us.

Bitch, bitch bitch. Yeah. But I did have a nice evening. Touched base with the oldest Son. It was good.

At the end of the day, I'm happy as can be, though I do miss a couple of kids.... but LIFE!

I probably messed up this year. I did not send the HFD message to my Step... PT (Preacher Tom for those that don't follow regular). I admit, it was because I did not think to do so. RM sent me a msg at like 9am (thanks for waiting til then) to me... but why is my mother sending a HFD to me? I ain't in no way... I don't get it. Then friends, and other family starts in... I'm like... I ain't yours. Fuck off. It's a damn Daddy thing, and I sure as hell ain't yours, so quit.

This ain't Kentucky or Arkansas.... or worst side of KC City....

Just saying.

Happy I got to see my oldest Son. And spend that time with my Wife and Youngest. Good Time.

Peace

Father's Day 2020

It's June again, and this Hallmark Holiday is upon us again. Though, I will admit I personally would be very surprised if I got any card today. Yesterday, Amazon delivered my present from the kids that I ordered. The Wife had told me to order what I wanted ( a new headset with mic for my gaming needs) as I had been spending time researching best buy for the money. Also got a 2-pack set of straps for the head gear for my CPAP. Exciting, I know.

So what does Father's Day 2020 see going on? For me, hopefully dinner out tonight at a local steakhouse. Invited the oldest Son, but haven't had confirmation he will make it. Daughter and family will be up this coming Friday, but not sooner. Middle Son out of town camping.

Otherwise, AZ Gov. Ducey left it up to the cities of the state to decide if they wanted to require the wearing of masks in public, due to the daily increase of positive testings of Covid. Phoenix now require them for public, as well as many surrounding cities here in the Valley. Across the state I have heard more like 50% of places in requiring or not. Most of the smaller places don't bother, unless it is more of a tourist spot. I asked the Daughter to make me a cloth mask as she had made several a few weeks back. But I won't have it until Friday. A week not being able to go in public? Hardly. I have a couple "sunscreen head/mask" thingys (not sure what to call them) that will work in a bind.

I read just a bit ago a statement the city of Apache Junction (southeast of the Phoenix area) that said: 

"I've stated this is up to the individual. If you feel you are at risk stay home. I also hope that folks don't get upset at businesses that require PPE's as that is their right also. People need to take responsibility for their own lives. I think it is sad that some put their safety in the hands of a Mayor, councilmember or Governor. We must learn to live in the modern world on our own eventually. There are always going to be risks and illnesses out there and we will get through it. Also everyone is essential and every job is essential to providing for a household."

I like it. If you are a father, May you have a Happy Father's Day.

PeacE

Taking It Off

I think I am due for a haircut. Definitely a trim up of the beard. For the past few years I have been clipping my own hair, trimming that black, grey, and white forest down to a quarter-inch. the beard... well, it has changed shapes and styles through that time.Lately (read: the past year and a half) I have been letting the beard just grow. I think I have trimmed up the edges twice in that time, just to keep split ends from getting worse. So, today, I think I'll spend that 45 minutes in the bathroom with the clippers and get the job done. Afterwards, I am sure I will look older, as more grey/white will show than the black/brown.

I'm up a bit early today. Seems I woke around 3:30 this morning, and though I did give it the old college try, I just could not fall back asleep. I'm sure I will be awake until at least 7-8 before being able to nap a couple more hours... and that is if I am lucky.

Father's Day is still coming on Sunday. Middle Son is going camping with a friend. Oldest Son did text me that he was able to change up his work schedule and would be able to do dinner. I had asked him last week about it... trying to combine his birthday dinner (from mid-May) and Fathers Day. The Daughter and family still have no idea when they will be in town next, so am not expecting them. Though, it would be a great surprise!

The Reverend Mother has written several times over the years about how much she misses seeing her kids, or grandkids, and great-grandkids. Over the past 2-3 years, I think I am beginning to understand what she means. I have noticed it a bit more over the past 7 months with the oldest Son not living at home. Though the Daughter has been out of the house years longer. I miss my lil Doodad and I truly wished they lived closer.

Enough of that this morning....

PeacE

Hump Day

Wednesday is here. I could care less. I was out a bit later than I meant last night, which means I had a couple drinks more than I probably should have had. This morning I was sluggish - not hurting mind you, just sluggish. I went back to bed and napped until close to noon. Even now I still feel tired, at almost 2pm. Maybe it wasn't the drinking, but am coming down with something. I don't know.

Dr. saw the youngest yesterday. He is basically done with everything related to his arm break. Waste of my time and insurance for a 5 min appointment they could have called and did one of them video ones.

I think I am off to read for awhile.

PeacE

One Last Look

Here in about twenty minutes the youngest Son and I are headed to the doctor for his last visit for the broken arm. I don't completely understand why there has to be this visit, considering the cast came off about 3 weeks ago, or so. In my uneducated mind, I suppose it is to verify that the "holes" in his arm from the external pins have healed and not gotten infected. Either way, I am sure our portion to pay will be another $75 give or take for this visit. Our costs after insurance is dang near meeting our family deductible this year alone for this incident. The Wife says this should be the year I check about my knee and the possible surgery or replacement. Me, well, me and doctors don't care for each other. Rather, I don't care for them.

Father's Day is this coming weekend. The middle Son is more than likely going camping with a friends' family...so now were are down to three of us being home. Maybe we will still do a dinner out. I don't know.

I did pick up that little evap cooler from Home Depot for $40 the other day. Started it up yesterday. I spent too much on the dumb thing. Using it in the one room, with the door closed (mainly to keep animals out) I noticed maybe a five degree difference overall. This device is more of a "personal evap cooler" you would put at your work desk (or counter - whatever) and have blowing on you all the day. That is about the only major cooling I felt from it. I set it so it blows on the Wife while she is at home on the computer...

Guess that is about all I got today.

PeacE

Random Crap

It has almost been a week, and I still pretty much have nothing to write about. Or is it that I just don't feel like writing? Sometimes it feels more than the other. Other times not so much.

Father's Day is in a week. I have never been much of one for holidays, or any sort, and Hallmark holidays make me angry. For some strange reason, this year this holiday is making me feel weird. I have four kids: Two are pretty much grown and on their own - Two still at home. I contacted the Daughter (lives out of town) and they have no idea when they will next be up in our direction. the oldest Son, lives in town but works many hours, never knows if he will have the time off work, or won't be called in. Believe me, I contacted both this week. When asked why, I told them for Father's day... maybe we could do dinner out. Doesn't look like it is happening. And I feel a bit sad about it all. An Unusual feeling for me.

Thinking of going to Home Depot today to buy an evap cooler. It's one of those little ones that only cools like 45 sq. ft. but would help make a difference in one of our rooms. The Study/office was an add-on to the home (another bedroom) many years ago, is made of block, and is on the west side of the house so catches a lot of the sun in the afternoon/evening. We have a ceiling fan, and an oscillating fan in there, but it still gets mighty warm. The a/c for the house is not much use,  as this was added on to the existing ventilation, and basically has no out put for heating or cooling. Wintertime is nice back in the room (my opinion), The Wife and I kind had the same idea about this cooler last night... and for $40 bucks am willing to try to see if it makes just enough difference....

The middle son has been invited with a friend's family to go camping next weekend. He just graduated HS, so he'll pretty much go. But it made me think that I never took the family camping. Or fishing. Things my father and I loved to do when I was growing up. Most of that reason is because it is AZ and so hot in the summer. Fishing is a pain unless you drive 3/4 the state away and near a lake... otherwise all you do is burn and get heat stroke standing on the lake shore to catch tiny bluegill (if you are lucky). Camping you have to travel up-state to get the elevation to where it is cooler, and then you have to luck out to get a spot. Fires are prohibited most of the summer due to the dry weather. And as we all got older, it got harder and harder to do the physical things needed to get things together, etc.

I guess this week is going to suck. I'm feeling bad about stuff I didn't do with my kids. Feel bad because no one can get together just because. At least the Wife said I could buy my own Father's Day present online (need a new headphone/mic set for my Warcraft game).

PeacE