A Decent Ending ...

 to yesterday. I had the paracentesis done. They removed the maximum amount the doctor's orders allowed (10L) and I received 3 doses of Albumin. Oh, the relief from all that pressure is gone! But, the tech said that there was still at least 2-3 liters left in there, and they will have to0 be that way until my next appointment (July 1st). But I feel so much better for now.

Cardiologist Nurse called yesterday. Scheduled an Angiogram for Thursday. Which means it will be yet another week before they can take to review for the Waiting List. I dislike all this waiting, just to wait more, but I understand the why of it. 

Today is the Grandson's birthday, and regardless of the Riders Convention issue, I am going to his party. I was last given the info that it was to be next week, so let it be next week. I need to stop and get a veggie/fruit tray when we head over. The Wife did some shopping for gifts the other day, so I am just rolling with that.

Up early again. I might as well change the alarm clock to this new time.

And that is all I got today.

PeacE

TGIF!

 I am really happy it is Friday. With the "error" in scheduling this week, and having to push my paracentesis to Friday ... Let's just say I am ready to be popped and drained. I would not be surprised if they take 10L (max allowed to drain per Dr. orders) and there is still a couple left in there. Well, it will have to sit another couple weeks, and I couldn't get an appointment set up before that. My abdomen is just so distended, and the muscles around it are getting sore from all the extra weight and proportions. I cannot wait for 1pm to get here.

Slept good last night again. The smart ring says I only woke twice (bathrooms calls) and I slept just under 7 hours. I woke when the alarm went off, and the Youngest was just outside the bedroom door. Seems he picked today to do the battery thing. HE already had it out, so we went up and of course it is dead. So they couldn't test it. Well, I said we'd be back about 9am and see where it tests. I have a feeling I am buying a battery this morning. I priced them, for his car. I remember back when I was paying around $100 for a battery. Now, the cheapest they carry is $260. Not happy, but what am I to do?

Still no word regarding the Riders Convention, that my Post is hosting supposedly. What a mess up. I admit, I am stressing a little about it. That, and when details do come around, I have so many questions. At least I finally will be able to network a little with some of the chapters, and contacts for their Secretaries, to ask questions of. 

Tomorrow is the 1 year birthday of my grandson, Doc. They are doing a little pool party for him, and we plan on going for a little bit. Their apartment is sorta small, so having a large group of people is cramping it up. I think RM even said she would stop by for a bit. I hope so. RM offered up some shorts she had gotten that may fit me, PLUS she bought some Pickle Crack hot sauce, and a thing of pickle salsa just for me. The hot sauce I have had before but not the pickle salsa. I love pickle de gallo, but sometimes it is hard to find in the valley. I think my regular grocery does not carry that type, but do have that brand of pickles. Maybe it was Sprout's I saw it at ...

Aside from the car battery stuff, and my paracentesis ... I ain't doing nothing today. I know I will be wanting to be still after the draining. 

And that's all I got this morning ...

PeacE

The Disease is Spreading ....

... you know, the one where you wake up earlier than you want. RM and I both thought after one good night, the problem was gone, but no. I have a bit of an excuse for my early morning today though. I was watching some episodes of 'Punisher' and it must have been around 5:30pm, but I slammed into a wall. I could not keep my eyes open. So I went to lay down for maybe an hour nap - don't want to sleep long, so I'll still sleep that night. I woke maybe three times before morning. Once when the Wife came to bed, and twice to go to the bathroom. I looked at the stats on my smart ring app, and it says I slept a total of 9 hrs. 17 min. So maybe it was a bit later when I went to lay down. Either way, I got more sleep, but am up early.

Youngest came to me yesterday, happened to mention he is having some battery issues with his car. It doesn't want to hold a charge. He has had to use the jump starter almost every time lately, and yesterday, even after driving it, then parking, three ours later it was dead again. SO I told him Thursday or Friday morning, if he pulls the battery, we will run up to Autozone and have them charge it (about an hour) and maybe find out if it is defective or what. I don't know if he wants to do it this morning, or tomorrow.

Nothing on the calendar for today, again. I added more appointments to next Wednesday - they forget to have the cardiologist check me out. And he will probably want to do a cardiac catheterization on Thursday (says the nurse I am talking to on the phone). Well, that'll put the council decision off another week, but if it needs to get done, get it done asap. As long as I get my paracentesis tomorrow, I don't mind the other appointments. I am very uncomfortable right now with this pressure. Tomorrow ... 1pm.

I might go to the grocery today to pick up a couple things, and try to make dinner tonight. Trying another new recipe I found that looks fairly quick and easy.

... and I guess that is all I got about now. I have got some time to waste before 11am, and 12pm (meetings) so I'll yap at ya tomorrow.

PeacE

I jinxed It!!

 I wrote yesterday about how nice it was to sleep until the alarm went off. But this morning, here I am awake at 5:20am again. This smart ring says I slept a solid 6 hours, and my numbers were pretty good this morning. I guess I will just keep my regular routine and deal with some early mornings. No sense in trying to readjust my routine for an hour.

I did send over to RM a review of this smart ring and app. I have never really went for these things be it a ring, watch, or whatever. I just don't think that they could give an accurate measurement all the time. This ring proved me wrong. Today is the third day I have worn it and what it does measure, that I check each day, is fairly spot on. And the other measures it does, I would guess those numbers reflect pretty accurately, too. This morning the ring was down to like 42% charge, so I took it off and placed it for charge, but it could probably go for about 4 days before needing one. My phone, not so much. With the app active all the time, my phone is about 40% lower on charge at the end of the day. I guess I may have to start plugging it in during the day ... I did ask RM if she needed the product back, but haven't heard. I imagine her saying no, as the ring is large enough for only one of my fingers, but would be large on hers. She had a second one as well, that she was going to have my Brother use/try, but I don't know if she has has had the chance to talk to him about it and give it to him. Price-wise it isn't bad.

No answer to my dilemma regarding the Riders Convention. Not my problem, except it is dire that I be there. But I really hope it stays on the 27th, as this Saturday is the Grandson's (Doc's) 1st birthday, and the Middle Son is having a come and go pool party things. I am looking forward to seeing him again, even if the beard scares him a bit. He needs to get used to being around me more, so he will not cry when I hold him.

I have a psychologist meeting this morning. The previous ones with this doctor didn't last long - around 15 minutes I guess, so this one will probably be about the same. The scheduling for my paracentesis for today was somehow entered wrong with scheduling, and I had to reschedule it. The best I could get was Friday at 1pm. I'm starting to hit the uncomfortable, disturbing discomfort level the past couple of days. Only two more to go...

I have been struggling for a little while now about accepting a Higher Power. This is a big thing in the AA 12-steps. My memories I have of being off/on church attenders for years, and in my early teens accepted Christ, and followed faithfully. Then after I got out of high school, marries, and 1st kid, I do not know but my relationship with God just went away. I lost faith? I "didn't have time" for Him? I don't know. Either way it has been somewhat hard revisiting, rebuilding, and renewing that relationship. Some parts of me still hold back, and I don't believe that that would  be full acceptance. Stuff for RM to pray about, and me to work on. Kinda funny that these past few days, my AA meetings have talked about acceptance of the Higher Power, and another time it was open-mindedness to the acceptance of God, so I have some things to ponder.

And I think that will be it today. Nothing planned except this one short appointment this morning.

PeacE

Misplaced Thoughts, Gripes, and-Look! Squirrel!!

 Yesterday morning I woke (though early) and made myself look at this week in a positive way. I had nothing going on that should cause any issues for me, so it should be a good week. That lasted about four hours.

I received a text from Banner Hospital (where I go for the paracentesis when I need one) to remind me of the upcoming Wednesday appointment at 9am. Brakes screeched to a halt. I have had the time set for 11am on my calendar for a couple weeks at least. I think when I was canceling a previous appointment, and setting up new ones weeks out, someone moved this one maybe as the 9am slot opened up for me. I don't know, but I need a draining this week. I have a Zoom meeting with a doctor at 9am though, so the call was made to scheduling. This close to Wednesday, I knew it would be hard to get what time I wanted, and in the end, I had to settle on Friday at 1pm. So two extra days and a few hours. It's going to be fun seeing if I can get through the week. I am pretty distended now, and it is starting to get very uncomfortable, ad some pain like when I roll over (shifting the fluid around, etc.). Sigh. But I did also make sure I had appts scheduled for the next three weeks.

A few minutes of breathing to calm down and get back into a positive mindset and the day went on. I did an AA meeting. I was complimented after the meeting, which surprised me. I have been attending meetings with this group for about two months now, and consider it my Home Group. A few of the people know just a little of my medical stuff, as it is part of my sharing experience. Well, one of the 'regulars' commented that I was an amazing person. That I could be feeling the lousiest, hurting the most, whatever, and I am always positive and open at Group. I don't take compliments well, but I swallowed it and said Thank You. I had to spend a few minutes getting my ego back down to normal size... 

Riders meeting last night. Oh boy, the stress started up. Discussed the Riders Dinner plans for July, then voted to go to having the dinners once per quarter rather than monthly. With the same 5-6 people doing it constantly, we are getting burn-out, so this will help on that front until we can truly build up our roster. Our past Director received some information about the bylaws to be voted on this year and shared with the group. I have many questions going on in my head. I did print out the proposed bylaws so I can try to read through it today and write down my questions. There is supposed to be a Riders State Convention on the 27th, at my Post, but there is a huge scheduling conflict already. I reached out to Post leadership about it 0 no answers yet. Seems we need to have a state convention to vote to accept these National bylaws prior to the official vote in late July. Several big changes, most I like, but still. I came home a bit stressed about all this. I am the Secretary, and it will add more to my workload, especially of stuff I *don't* know the procedure or who to report it to. I am sure this will be discussed more later on.

The other parts of the day were good though, and I did sleep well last night, all the way to the alarm this morning! I have been working on a review for a smart ring and app. Today is Day Two wearing it, and I pretty wrapped up my thoughts on the product. Will be submitting it today. Longest review I ever wrote I think.

Today is an open day on the calendar. Probably will do the AA meeting later this morning. At some point this week I need to write up the minutes from last night's meeting, but there is not an extreme rush on it. Friday is a luncheon for my AA group to meet up and in person. I was debating  on going. The only hold back is that it is 'downtown' (Thomas/22nd St area) and if you figure we leave there about 2-3 puts me into rush hour. Now I cannot go as Friday at 1pm is my paracentesis, same as the luncheon. I mentioned it before the meeting yesterday, and I guess one of the guys does the printing for hats, or something to do with them, and he had some freebies to give out to those who show up. Well, I wanted a ballcap, so mentioned it to him. He just ask I text him my address and he would send me one since I couldn't make it. Woot!

Applying for disability and being approved has helped so much, even in just the last month. I have brought my account at Mayo to a currently 0 balance. Started a payment plan for 6 months with the hospital, less than $500/month, to bring that current total to 0, paid off all the smaller medical, dental, etc. for the Wife and I both. And still have a bit leftover. I mentioned to the Wife last night we are just going to build on the leftover each month from my check, save it up for future big medical - like if my transplant doesn't happen until after Jan. 1, when deductibles reset. So doing well on that front.

Welp, the Wife just left for work. I am running out of thoughts for right now. I am sure RM will be checking for my post anytime now. Y'all have a good one!

PeacE

What is Wrong With Me?

 Here we are again. Awake at a 4:45am and unable to go back to sleep. Seems like this is like the fourth or fifth day in a row it has happened. I mean, I do like getting the sleep I do get, compared to the insomnia issues I was having for years, but this is just frustrating. By noon time I am wanting a nap, but don't because I want to sleep well that evening. Doesn't seem to have made a difference, so maybe today I will try like a 30-minute nap and see what happens tonight.

Not racing today to beat RM in getting a post up. She has already ceded the contest. Just some fun because we were both waking earlier than our normal.

The only thing I have on my calendar for today is the Riders meeting this evening. I did complete and send out the Agenda yesterday later in the day. Only one correction was needed, and it wasn't big enough to re-edit and send out, so just corrected it by hand on my 10 copies I printed. Of course I did edit the document, so it is properly marked for record-keeping. Not much on the Agenda, but a couple bigger topics need to be addressed.

I have a Zoom meeting Wednesday morning with the Psychologist, followed by a paracentesis at 11am. I need it. I have been uncomfortable the last two days, and I stick out like a petite woman having triplets. I'll feel so much better when I get drained.

I need to go around to some Goodwill stores. I am looking for an office chair. The one I have now was a Christmas present, and has had the warranty (now expired) used once to get an equivalent replacement. Now the floor here in my office is painted concrete, so rollers are a necessity. From there it is comfort and 'wants'. If I hit a couple stores and not find anything, I may go to Staples (where original chair was from) and see what they have at a reasonable price.

Saturday, my grandson, Doc, turns one! The Middle Son is having a little come and go type party between the pool and his apartment. I signed up to bring a veggie or fruit tray. Need to find a gift that I am able to get before Saturday. Papaw been slacking... Hoping the Daughter and family will be up for it, but not sure. They are in Missouri for a weeding this weekend. Maybe the Oldest Son will show as well. Youngest is riding with us.

Here's a bit of a pisser ... So the party is Saturday starting about noon. I noticed on our VFW Post calendar, the is a VFW Riders State meeting scheduled 1-4pm at my Post. First I ever knew of it. It does say tentative, so not sure what is happening, but if it happening, I need to be there. So much for seeing the family. Sigh. Going to have to reach out for more info I guess. I just messaged the Jr. Vice Commander to ask for any details. There's a problem if this is happening, as our Chapter never received any information about the meeting, let alone it being at our Post. There is so much going regarding the Riders right now, I get frustrated at times trying to sort out, prepare for, etc. these new changes.

Well, I need to go to the Reading Room for a bit. Y'all have a good one!

PeacE

The Race is On ...

 The past couple days or so, it seems RM and I have been waking earlier than our alarms. I'm talking like two hours ahead for me, and at least an hour for RM. Either way, it has seemed like a race to see who is able to get their post for the day up, for the other to read. I might win today. Not that there is any prize, just some 'friendly competition'. After all, you cannot write good, quality, poignant posts if you are just typing away.

Either way, it is Sunday morning, and I woke about 5am. Laid there for about 20 minutes before ceding the wake-up. Will see later how the Wife is doing, if she is going to go to church this morning or not. IF she is, I would like to go, but I am in enough discomfort with the abdomen distended right now, I kind of do not want to go. Thank goodness I set my paracentesis appointments out like three weeks. Who knows how hard it would have been to get one this week. I have a psychologist meeting for Mayo on Wednesday. Next Wednesday is some bloodwork, nurse visit and then appointment with one of the doctors on my team. That should be it then, I hope. Well, at least enough for them to put me on the waiting list. I noticed the other day my MELD is still at 16.

I didn't do much yesterday. The Wife had a dental cleaning around 11am. I think I had mentioned a couple weeks ago, that I had tried to reach out to the dentist's office, but no one answered, and it was locked down when I stopped by there. Well, found out more specific details as to what happened. The office shares a parking lot with a cat hospital. the hospital had been broken into, trashed, etc. Also fairly recently, the dentist office had had someone(s) steal the4 copper wiring/piping from the A/C unit. Insurance covered and repaired that, then it happened again. I guess the insurance isn't going to cover it again, especially so soon after the first time. So the Dentist is working out of another dental office, just a couple miles further from our house, a couple days of the week, to keep what clientele they can as they decide what to do. This other dental office is owned by the Dentist's brother, also a dentist. The Wife said she got the impression from the Dentist that he is going to close the office, and just practice with his brother at this other location. I am not sure I even like this guy. I may shop around for a dentist I won't freak out about (I truly dislike dentists in general - I think it the whole 'poking a needle in me where I cannot see it'). Luckily <knocking on wood> the toothache I have had has not flared up in the past couple weeks, so I might have a little time before I need to get it done.

And the Wife brought lunch home when she finished her appointment. Some Chino Bandito!! Man, I think my 'usual' has gotten spicier! Or maybe it had been awhile since we have had Chino's. I could only eat half. Did the other half for dinner. Still have some hamburgers and hot dogs from the other night. Yeah, the Wife and may not have to cook at all today as well! I do need to get the Agenda done for the Riders meeting tomorrow night, but there isn't much to really put on there so shouldn't take too long.

I think I will kill some time this morning playing a video game. Oh, and here is some music, because of the post title ...

Man, I watched that video (music starts about the 1:40 mark) and the 80's hair styles....

PeacE

Crickets and Flies ...

 Yesterday started off fairly nice. There was a cloud cover that looked like it wanted to try to rain, but this being the Valley, of course it didn't. I planned my morning out the day before - pick-up from Fry's the remainder of items I needed for the Riders Dinner, then head to RM's to visit while PT was out for his Men's group and friend visitation. It was a good visit (as most are) as we sat in her 'office' (spare room) and chatted while she was was watching/checking her work computer for anything that might come along that needs her attention. In the three hours or so we had together, I think we covered several topics. I even learned a little more about RM, believe it or not. PT looked (to me) like he was butt-hurt that I had been there visiting there without him being home. Oh well. Sorry, Charlie! (Remember that commercial?)

So. around one I left there and headed to the Post. Unloaded my food stuff and had an iced tea, then played on my tablet until about four. There was only 4 of us to work the whole dinner last night, but it went on okay. Our numbers of attendees went way down from other dinners, and not sure why. I know the VFW had the Western Convention in Tucson this weekend down in Tucson, but Leadership rarely participates in the dinners we put on (even the Cmdr. who is the Treasurer of our chapter). One lady did buy 6 meals, so that helped put us in a small profit zone. It was crickets chirping from about 5:15 until we wrapped up about 6:30. I ended up taking home the cooked meats at the end. About a dozen burgers, both with and without cheese, and a handful of beef hot dogs. Took home a package of buns for both, 1 (of 2) buckets of potato salad w/mustard, and another I picked up for personal - it's the same thing, but "Southern Style" so I want to see/taste the difference. A paragraph for another day.

The Wife and I had a discussion last night. At the end, I admitted I wanted to think on it for a day at least before offering my thoughts. Unfortunately for you , the reader, I cannot share this here, regardless of anonymity. RM and I touched this topic yesterday in our visit, and we are on the same page, but there have been some developments. RM has powerful prayers, and I know my Son needs it right now. No, no one there is hurt, just other things going on. So, RM, we may have to do a lunch again pretty soon.

This weekend the only thing I have on my "to-do" list is the Agenda for the Riders meeting on Monday evening. Today, the Wife has a dental appointment near noon. Since I have nothing on my calendar, I will probably do my Twice Gifted meeting at 9am, and then my home AA Group at 11am. I'll wrap it up about when the Wife will be headed back home. She might even pick up lunch... what do I want....? I'm thinking Subway. I got burgers at home, so no burger place. Wife had Arby's for lunch yesterday, so that is out. She won't be near Chino Bandito, so that's out. That pretty much leaves subs, and there are more Subways than Jersey Mikes or Jimmy Johns here. I will have to ask her before she leaves.

So, you know the crickets. What about the flies? Well, I want to be a fly on the wall for a particular conversation that is to take place soon. No details! Just wanna be a fly for a bit ....

... and with that, I am out of here. I am feeling a bit of discomfort with the abdomen area today. The belly is distended pretty good, and I don't have the Paracentesis until Wednesday. Might be 10L then - that's the max they can drain per doctors orders. I can do this. Only a handful of days. At least it isn't brutal pain ... that is to come...

PeacE

I'm Free!

 Today I make myself sound busy. Last night I set up a Frys order to be picked up at 8am (stuff for Riders Dinner) and then I am headed out west to ol' Sin City ... I mean, Sun City ... to visit with RM this morning while PT Is not home. From there I'll probably grab lunch somewhere, then head to the Post early.

Riders Dinners. Riders Meetings. I'm starting to get frustrated with the Riders (our chapter). I know we barely started a year ago, but only 7-8 people show to the meetings, even fewer sign-up to help with the dinners - be it picking up or making food, or just to help set-up and clean-up. I think at our next meeting (Monday) I am going to bring up that I am no longer going to "lead" the dinner stuff. I would like to delegate to someone to do that, but no one shows up to meetings. The whole catch-22 ...

It'll be a nice visit this morning with RM. I am not headed there for any reason other than to visit - no exciting news (I wish it were) or anything ... just a visit.

Okay, enough from Negative Nellie. I need to work on being more positive about my outlook in general.

PeacE

Another Free Day ...

 ... sorta. I have nothing on my calendar today. I still need to get buns for tomorrow's dinner. My Brother will be grilling for us (pre-warning RM) but at least his Wife is out of town and not going to be there. I shouldn't speak badly about her, (as RM says, erase, erase, erase).

I did not hear from Mayo yesterday. I got to thinking about this week. Tuesday late afternoon, Mayo did call twice moving up a couple appointments. Are those requirements on their side of getting me on the list? If so, the second one isn't until the 24th, so it may be 2-3 weeks before it goes to the Council. I am in limbo, aside from making the appointments they schedule for me. It's in God's hands though, so whatever will be, will be. I have committed to the transplant fully, and will see it through, if the doctors still say I need it. I'm not anxious or scared, just need these 'stages' (like waiting to get on the list) to be marked so mentally I may prepare for the next hurdle. That make sense?

I think I will wait until tomorrow to get the buns. I want to be sure I will be able to take the call if it comes at whatever point today. If I do it right, I may visit with RM (minus PT) and then go to the store. Will have to check in with her to get times.

... and because I did nothing pretty much yesterday (played video games, watched Season 3 of 'Jack Ryan') I will do it again today as I didn't finish doing nothing yesterday.

PeacE

A Day of Nothing

 As part of my morning routine, I check my calendar for any appointments, events, etc. Today is the first weekday in quite awhile that it is blank. No IOP. No personal session. No appointment at Mayo. It feels a bit weird not having anything I HAVE to do.

Yesterday, at the completion of the IOP session, I received my certificate of completion, which I promptly forwarded to Mayo. This was the last deferment item that I was in control of completing, in order to get on the waiting list. The Transplant Council meets today, and I am hoping my case is up for review. I did receive two separate phone calls from Mayo yesterday afternoon. One was to schedule Bloodwork/Nurse/doctor visit (24th) and a Zoom meeting with the head psychologist (17th), so they did move those appointments up sooner. I am hoping they are able to put me on the list, and just have these two items to be completed then. I just don't know, so I am a bit ... anxious? apprehensive? nervous? ... as I wait to hear what is going on. It could be that it doesn't go to Council today, and instead have to wait until after these appointments. I just don't know. I am going off of what my Team Psyche doctor told me last week about it going to council today. Either way, fingers crossed.

I am a bit groggy this morning. I took one of my sleeping pills last night, and slept through until the alarm went off (7am) and then I rolled over and slept until about 8am. I think it is a side effect of the pill, but it is clearing up pretty fast.

VFW Riders dinner this Friday. I ended up asking my brother to come and help by doing the grilling. I never learned the "art" of it, and don't trust myself. I never made it out to the bread store, so figure I will just pick up the cheap brand at the store. It will cost versus being donated, but at this point I just don't care. The whole Riders chapter is on my crap list right now.

I suppose I should go finish my morning routine and see if RM has something up.

PeacE

It Is Finished ...

 No, not the bible quote, but my IOP I had to attend. After 2 months, 11 hours per week, this step in my journey is over. In some ways I compare it to a video game where I have just finished my 'Apprenticeship' and now may roam the world better equipped in mind and body. I've mentioned before that I really did enjoy this course and I did. I learned more about my triggers, ways to cope with things and over all how to be more self-aware. But that ends today. My Group Lead should have my completion paperwork ready for when session is over today, which I will promptly forward over to Mayo. More on that in a minute.

Last Wednesday during my 'personal' session with the Group Lead, we did the ending self-exam. That gal said she was going to miss me and that I was one of the most fun people they have had in sessions in awhile. They had even allotted me like a couple minutes after each session to share a joke - I need to find a good one for today.

So once I get the completion paperwork, and promptly get it over to Mayo, it concludes my part of the deferments that I am in control of. The psychologist I meet once a month, and last week, said it should go to the Transplant Council this week (they meet on Wednesdays) and I could have an answer this week about making the Waiting List, or if other issues came up that need to be addressed beforehand.

Yesterday I went and did lab work (1 vial of blood) and then headed to Walgreens. I did not "lose it". I did not yell and scream. I explained what happened, and the lady went to check my records on the computer. She says,"Well, the prescription is available for the full amount as of 6/4. I looked at her, and said, "Today's the 8th. Fill it, now. I never got the refill notice from Walgreens, otherwise this would not be happening." I didn't want to wait around there for 30-45 minutes (they are only like 5 minutes from home) so I went home. Come afternoon after I got the text it was ready, I thought I should go up and get it, plus the one for my Wife, but I couldn't. My mind was ... messed up. I didn't feel right driving (that's HUGE coming from me). I thought the Youngest would be out of bed soon, and he could drive us up, hit the drive-thru, and back home in 10 minutes. Only he didn't get up. The Wife texted, asking if I got hers, and briefly in text said no, don't feel good. They are open until 9pm. Get mine too. And she did.

So I took some last night, and am able to already tell a difference from not taking this for a week. I was up three additional times last night to drain the bladder. I'm still waking up, so will as the day goes how my head feels. I do have an Auxiliary meeting tonight.

Alright. So there may be some really good news within the next couple days. I'm off to find a good joke.

PeacE

Some Days ...

 ... it is hard to be positive about things. Now, I have been pretty much a pessimist for years. Always seeing the bad side of things. Well, I have been trying to turn that around these past few weeks, and have mad moderate success. It's a job to change a habit. This week is feeling like a bad one, even with all the good stuff happening.

I didn't make it to Walgreens yesterday. The Wife needed to run into work and finish some reports that are due on Mondays. Seems the other PT was out last week on vacation, and the Wife didn't want to leave a pile of stuff for her to wade through and do. So, I stayed home. I only left to get a pick-up from Fry's for a couple items I needed for my chili. First time I have used the pick-up option, and it was so easy, and convenient, I would pay the nominal fee that they charge for it. I was earlier than the time allotted, and it still took less than 5 minutes. Speaking of, I thought the chili turned out really well. The Wife said it had some spiciness to it (she can't handle that) and I admitted that one of the cans of beans said it had jalapenos in it ... but I didn't notice that until it was open and I was dumping it in. The other can was regular. I blame someone in the store for putting that jalapeno one with the regular... The Youngest even had two bowls! To me that is a good sign. I even have leftovers for today ... or tomorrow.

Have a blood draw for lab work scheduled today at 9am. Afterwards, I am head to Sun City to a day-old bread store that have donated for the Riders before. I am hoping they will donate some hamburger and hot dog buns, that I can pick up Thursday for Friday's dinner. I'm still trying to find someone to grill the meat, and may end up using my brother. He said he would know Tuesday, as he has to work around a sitter (
one of his kids) for his granddaughter. 

Since I am less than a mile away from RM's at that point, I said I may stop by and visit a short while. I do have a 1pm Zoom meeting that I would prefer to do at home, versus from my phone, so probably won't stay overly long. Reminds me I need to get the jar from her salsa and the bag she sent them in back to her. Let's see if I forget or not.

Having gone a whole week without that one prescription has made a difference. I am distended a bit, nay a lot, more than usual. It is a diuretic, and without it, I'm not getting enough fluid out of my system. I have been good about keeping an appointment for paracentesis each week, and calling to cancel if I don't need it, but this week got lost in the shuffle I guess, as I don't have one scheduled for this week. Going to try to make it to next Wednesday. I think it is harder since it has started to warm up so much here, and even though I am on a fluid restriction, I think I tend to drink a bit more water due to the heat. Shrug. If I have time, I'll stop at Walgreens on the way home.

And now it is just after 4:30am. I am awake and bored.

PeacE

Good Cop, Bad Cop

 I imagine that is how it will go at the pharmacy at some point today. One of my prescriptions has gotten messed up between the doctor, the pharmacy, and my insurance ... and a little bit by me. My fault in it is that I should have caught it before ...

What am I talking about? This one prescription is one of diuretics, which means it is a blood pressure pill as well. I started these back in December, I think - maybe January) and it was prescribed for two 100mg tablets a day. This was the 'liver doctor' that took three months to see back int he beginning. Anyways, Mayo decided to increase it to three pills/day. The prescription was sent in to Walgreens and life went on with me taking the dosage amount.

I Should have looked at the label (aside from verifying which med it was) and noticed, it still said 2/day. Two weeks ago, I noticed that oddly enough, I was running out. I filled my weekly pill boxes, and yes, I ran out. I happened to check the label and notice it was the old prescription. Well, I contacted Mayo and explained what was going on, they checked again with the doctor, confirmed it is 3/day. I said I need a new prescription sent over then, as well as one to give me an additional 30 pills so I can 'hold out' until it is time to refill. New prescription went over. My insurance put a hold on it because it hasn't been long enough from the last refill. I ran out about mid-week.

So, today I am taking the Wife with me, and going to Walgreens, to see if they can just get the pills to last me until the refill time and I'll pay out of pocket or whatever. My problem is that I start to get very frustrated and angry that even after things were explained, everyone seems like 'Okay. Well, your refill is due...' The Wife is going to keep me from raising my voice and be the voice of reason. I hope. And I hope to resolve this today. Last night I started feeling weird. It's hard to describe, so I won't waste your time describing it, but I believe it is because I haven't been taking this medication for several days. I cannot verify that. This morning I feel slightly better, but not 100%. Lord, please make this happen....

I am making dinner tonight. I figured I will crockpot a batch of chili. I got most of the fixings Wednesday, but realized last night I forgot something, and also picked up the wrong kind of beans. Sigh. What was I thinking? I picked up pinto beans, when I wanted ranch style/kidney beans. I don't even like pinto beans... So I see a grocery stop today as well.

I ordered some things from amazon a few days ago. A new S-pen for my tablet. A can tip that "spreads out" four legs. Not so much needed for balance and all, but because  the cane I am using currently is a walking can, straight, no hook. So when I sit down, it has to be propped just right to keep it from clattering to the ground. This new end-piece will make it "stand on its own" so that I don't need to worry about it sliding down the floor so much. Also got a new tablet protector case that meets my desires - my old one has been abused so much, several clips have broken, and the tablet falls out of it when carried a certain way. I've had that case since I bought the tablet several years ago. Well, the first two were to be arriving on Friday, the tablet protector on Saturday. Friday I get an email there was a "problem with the delivery" and that they would try again. I'm guessing it was marked to go out, and missed the truck or something like that. No biggee - it'll be here in a couple extra days. The cover arrived yesterday with no problem. No other package. I went online to see if there was more information about this error, but it all just stays the same. So, I figure it must be an error on their part somewhere in the process. Hope it comes Monday. OR better yet, today.

Tomorrow, I shall recount the adventures of today, and hope that there are good things to report ... or at least humorous one.

PeacE

Celebrate Good TImes, Come On!

 Today is a day of celebration! Well, everyday is as it says we should rejoice in the Lord daily, but I'm trying to keep the religious out of the conversation for now.

Today marks nine months of sobriety for me. No relapses. I am turning into a better person with not drinking, as well as all the stuff I am learning how to 're-do' in life: being more empathetic, a better listener, nicer. It's hard for an old asshole like me to make these changes ... but here I am doing it.

Short and sweet today. I have two meetings I want to do today. First the 12 & 12 study with my AA/transplant support group, followed by my regular AA home group. And yes, I'm going to enjoy the short minute where everyone claps and says "Good Job!" on my nine months. Then I am going to the bar and having a shot - just kidding! Probably will be at the Post tonight.

Y'all have a good 'un...

PeacE

School is Almost ...

 ... over. Completed. Finished. The. End. My last day of IOP is Tuesday and in some aspects, that is a terrific thing. Once done I should have my case reviewed by the Council for consideration to add to the Waiting List. Aside from completing the IOP, they wanted another MRI of the abdomen, which I am having done at 5:45pm today. Hopefully rush hour will be easy on us, and we will be going against the rush...will have to see.

I'm up early today because ... well, it's because ... Heck. I don't know why, I just am. Nothing to really share today. I have been over the topic of wrapping up all the deferments, and talking about that, that not much else has been on my mind.

Yesterday I was pretty sore. All in a good way. When I had spent the better part of the afternoon doing errands and a little grocery shopping, it was quite a bit of exertion. After that, the Wife (who was off work that day) said I should have hollered for her to come help unload the bags. I gave her a blank look and asked why? I felt good enough to do it, and without help I did bring it all in in two trips. There were some heavier items: 2-liters, gallon of milk, couple 1-gal jugs of Arizona Tea for Youngest, etc. Oh I started to feel it after I was able to sit down for a minute. Yesterday, my calves, knees and hip were quite vehement about being abused the day before. Today not so bad ... still sore a bit, but overall good.

My crockpot recipe I made Wednesday night went over well, so I have added it to my repertoire. It was a really good four ingredient deal for the crockpot, and it cooked about 3.5 hours. I did make a couple mental adjustments to the recipe for next time, though I don't know when that will be, so I hope I remember it then. Sunday I am making some chili for dinner.

Welp, I think I will get out of here for the day. Y'all have a great Friday!

Oh! Just for you ...

Isn't it ironic that the colors red, white and blue stand for freedom ... unless they are flashing behind you.

PeacE

A Little Bit of Good News ...

 ... goes a long way! This morning I had the Zoom meeting with the psychologist on my team. She was thrilled to see how I have changed - even in just the last 30 days. I let her know my IOP is done Tuesday and that was the last deferment item within my control. Was there anything more the hospital needed to complete (with or without me). The only outstanding item she saw, was another MRI of the Abdomen, which I explained is scheduled for Friday at 5:45pm. She said all she needs is the completion paper to show I completed the IOP, and my case will go to the Council again. There they will determine if I make the list or not, or if they want to add some more procedures/tests for whatever reason. She said if I can get the paper to her Tuesday afternoon, it could go in front of the Council on Wednesday next week. In my head, that feels quick, but everything else IS done. Hoping for good news next week.

Today was busy for me and physically tiring. I had my two Zoom appointments, and did a Zoom AA meeting in between. At 1pm I loaded up to go get stuff done out of the house. Went to the dentist office (less than a mile from my house) to get my appointment set. I had called earlier and got their AI bot answering service. I did notice to call me to schedule an appointment, in the afternoon. No text. No call. And when I pulled into the office, I saw why. Despite the phone recording saying open on Wed, Fri and Sat, but the security gate was down over the doors, and no cars were in the lot. This is at approximately 1:15p. Sigh.

Next on my list was the drugs ... *ahem* ... I mean the prescriptions. I barely made it to the window before their lunch break at Walgreens, and picked up 4 of them. Next was CVS less than a mile on T-bird from Walgreens. They had in the "special order" pills I take to help with the encephalopathy. Picked up - check.

I was a couple miles from my car wash, which was also on the way to the grocery (Frys/Kroger) so I ran the car through. I did a couple new window stickers. One is smaller and has a picture of like an AR-15 with the words "the second protects the first". The other I have had for a couple years, and just never knew where it was for my first new car (which never had stickers/decals on it) but I found it about a month ago whilst going through some older paperwork in my desk. It is from the company of the same name, that does beard products, called 'Live Bearded'. It is a head shot with only the hair silhouette showing of a beard male. Looks cool now.

Got to the grocery and spent too much time walking through the store. But I needed to get a few items for the crockpot dinner I was making tonight, and for the dinner I am making on Sunday. Of course, because I was there in person, I picked some others things we could use, and maybe want somewhat (Sodas, etc.). Got milk. Then headed home. I unloaded the car myself! There were about 10 or so bags, and they weren't exactly light - well, to me. I know I have lost some muscle mass, but today I saw I definitely need to work my arms/chest as they were tired with two loads of multiple plastic bags.

I started dinner. It was a video I had found on social media, and looked good. It has only four ingredients into a crockpot for about 3.5 - 4 hours. It's a winner! Both the Wife and Youngest said it was pretty good! Saving for future dinner reference! 

Now I am ready for bed. I did take the trash out (pick up is tomorrow morning, before I get up). I'm going to try to talk Youngest into putting away the remaining part of supper, put the crockpot thingy in the sink and fill with water - I Will wash tomorrow. Also take out the recycle for us. Our cans are not full, in case he "forgets" or just doesn't do it ... but he BETTER put up the leftovers.

And with that, I am out of here. I wrote this one tonight so RM will have something to read in the morning.

PeacE

*yawn* Hey. Mornin' ...

 ... has come, and I forced my butt out of bed. The Wife is off from work today, so when my alarm went off at 7am, I was going to just 'nap until' it was time for my first appointment today. But no. I argued myself out of bed to get the day started. Have several things I Want to accomplish today.

First up, I have a 9:15am Zoom meeting with the psychologist on my transplant team. It shouldn't last more than 30-45 minutes I think.

At noon I have a 1-on-one with the Group Lead for my IOP. This will be my last personal meeting with her as I finish up the program on Tuesday. That one will last an hour.... she always gets me talking!

Those are the only things on my calendar, but there is more I want to accomplish today. I need to look up a couple crockpot recipes I had saved to try, figure what ingredients we have here at home and go to the store for the ones we don't. I am going to do dinner tonight probably.

Need to pick up prescriptions. I have been out of a couple all this week so far, so "my meds are messed up". I have notice that 3 are ready for pick up. 

I need to schedule a dental appointment regarding this tooth pain. It faded (finally! around 6:30p yesterday, and is only slightly bothering me this morning. Need to get the deep cleanings scheduled as well.

I paid current the balance I had at Mayo Clinic yesterday. Now to start working on my Banner balance and yet leave some monies free to help cover the dental work I need right now.

At some point by Monday I need to get out to the 'one-day' bread store out near RM's. We are doing hot dogs and hamburgers for the Riders meal NEXT Friday and we need buns. We have used this store before and they were ecstatic to help us out and donated what we needed. I am hoping it goes as smoothly as then, as I was not the person that "landed" this place for bread donations. Need to get an email out to the Riders who has signed up for what, and see if anyone will step up.

By tomorrow evening, I need to get the minutes completed and sent from the House/Entertainment committee meeting last night.

So ... busy day for me even though I know probably not all of it will get done. Appointments, dental, medications, then everything else is my priority order. I'll add in I may do an AA meeting today as well. That will be at 11am if I do it. Will see if I am busy at that time and plan accordingly.

I read this morning that my Brother has all five of his grandkids for a couple days. I am debating hooking up and going there to visit them. Everybody loves Uncle Ralph! Some I have not seen in awhile as they live far enough out of town I am not driving 4 hours just to visit someone else's grandkid! Well, depending on the circumstances, but to visit ... no.

The Wife has some things she wants to get done today, like planting some new rose bushes out front. I don't know if we just have some bad soil, they aren't properly cared for (watering, sun exposure), or what, but they newer plants seem to keep dying - no matted the time of year. I know she plants them in fresh potting soil, but other than that, I have no idea what she does, except water them. Maybe she just needs to add some rose plant food. I dunno. 

I am sure the Wife would love to do a lunch date with me today, but I just don't know. I have that appt. at noon for an hour, then I need to get meds, food, running around done before returning home to start on dinner. Sometimes when she gets an occasional day off it is hard to plan anything as she doesn't even know until the day before.

I miss my grandkids. I got to have lunch (Papaw's treat) with the Wife, Middle Son, his partner, and Doc - my only grandSON at this time. It wasn't much, but it was still good - even if the almost one year old wouldn't have anything but a stare for me the whole time. Cried whenever I would reach for him. Sigh. This to shall pass. I think it about time to go to Tucson for a day, or see when they are coming up this way , so I will be able to see the Daughter and family. Doodad is out of school for the summer, and Widget ... some of the antics we hear about her are just wonderful! She's going to end up sassy like her mother.

I am sure there is more I could write about, but I would have to sit and think about what. So on that note (B Flat) I am going to end this for the day with a funny.

 - I used to say "Have a wonderful day!" to everyone I met or interacted with. But now I decided to change it to "Have the day you deserve!". Let Karma sort that stuff out.

PeacE

Only The Gray Ones ...

 ... are the ones I want to get cut. That means a full haircut these days. I have an IOP session this morning, then nothing until evening time for a House Comm. meeting. I did get the Agenda done on Sunday and sent out. Then yesterday, the Chair sends an email out of two more items to be discussed. Seems some calls came in yesterday (after I sent the Agenda). Sigh. I didn't revise. It's all new business so I will just add to the Minutes as such.

IOP - we are down to one week left. The 9th is my last session, and I 'graduate'. Once I get the letter and certificate, I will forward on to Mayo Clinic, and have them review things to be sure all the items that were deferred before are completed. The ones under my control, I have marked off my copy of the list (8-week IOP, AA meetings, vaccinations). The vaccinations they said could actually be done while I am on the waiting list, and I probably should get the meningitis done, but the couple Walgreens near me are out of it, and so is my PCP's office. I am mixed about completing this IOP. I actually have learned quite a bit that has helped me change my outlook on Life, and how to be more self-aware. But I don't want to pay more money to extend the time. Besides, I don't think there is much more they cover that hasn't been done this past 7 weeks.

I am getting a haircut today. I have been saying that for a week now, but when I have the time to do it, I forget to go. I don't schedule my haircuts at a salon, but just use Great Clips services. I plan to do it this afternoon.

I have been having a toothache off and on for the past couple months - since the last appointment I had with the dentist. It isn't his fault. He had me start using a water pik, and I think it did so well, that when I use it between certain teeth, it found the sore spot. So it will flare up for several hours to a day, then fade away for multiple days at a time - always when I need to schedule the deep cleaning he wants to do, and a couple extractions - the one that hurts was a later on down the line one. I had been waiting to hear about the disability getting approved so I can pay for the work being done, and now it is here, I need to get things scheduled. The dentist has some unconventional hours, and are not open until Wednesday (they are open on Saturdays though), so that will be a call first thing tomorrow.

Welp, I guess that's all I have today. I need to call and cancel my paracentesis that is scheduled for Wednesday, and move it to the end of June to keep my "rolling appointment" until I need it.

PeacE

The Morning Went Where?

 This morning went by pretty fast. Of course sleeping in does that. Two or three nights ago I was up most of the night ( I Think I mentioned it earlier) and for at the past couple days I have been trying to make up for some of that sleeplessness. Last night was the night evidently, as I slept through until about 9:30 this morning. I woke at one point and turned off the alarm (7am) and dozed back off, evidently. Spent some cuddle-time with the Wife, and was able to go attend a Zoom meeting with my AA home group.

It's into the early afternoon now, and I suppose we should figure out what to have for lunch. I did snack a little on some pickle de Gallo I picked up yesterday. That stuff is soooo good! Really now big plans today. I friend is having a birthday party, but I don't much feel like going as now. I am not even sure I want to head to the Post for the afternoon/evening.

No major plans this week. Friday I am having another MRI of my abdomen completed. It's at 5:45pm, so will have to deal with rush hour traffic to Mayo, but most of it should be done by the time I am done (probably about an hour). I have a Zoom meeting with the Mayo psychologist on my team. It may last an hour on Wednesday. IOP for the regular three days, and the two Zooms with the counselor and my team lead. This is my last full week of IOP, as I finish the program on the 9th. That's 11 hours extra each week I will regain. Now, how to productively use that...

With IOP finished, and the MRI, that should clear all the deferments that Mayo required me to complete prior to a decision if I make the list. so in about 2-3 weeks, my case should be going to the Council for a decision. I know many have been praying for good health and recovery for me, so as to hopefully NOT have the transplant. I have mixed feelings about that. I think it would be great if I had some healing, but at the same time, I want the transplant (and other related things with it) versus a healing. I don't know. It's a weird thing. I figured see if I make the list, and if I don't, just roll with the punches and the changes to my regime.

And that is all I have for you today. Tomorrow will be iffy about getting a post from me ...

PeacE

Some Time With the Youngest ...

 'Friday is going to be a rather slow day,' I thought to myself this past Wednesday. The only item on my calendar was my 3 hour IOP session (9-12). So, I saw I am pretty well out of snack foods I keep here by the desk in my "Ralph's Snack Basket". The basket I got something like two or three Christmas' past from RM and it was full of snack stuff. The basket is great as it is big enough to hold quite a few snacks (depending on amount/size). So, I asked the Youngest if he would want to go with me on Friday, after my session, to Discount Grocery. I know he is out of soda and snacks as well. I verified with him again yesterday, and he is still going with me. I even threw in that we could grab some fast food somewhere while we are out, for lunch.

So I have some running to do. Walgreens for a prescription, car wash as some bird tagged my hood in a large spread that goes across the hood. And it needs vacuumed. Then Discount Grocery. I am running through the food ads to see if we need to run by some groceries we normally do not use for any special pricing on something we could use. Then back home. I'll be tired by then, from all the walking, so will probably call time out of the house over, and play on the computer (after groceries are put away).

I still need to get a haircut. I'm sitting down this morning and will determine who is getting paid how much, and I can get most medical bills paid off, or to a way lower figure due, with the backpay I received. 

Didn't sleep much last night. By 1:30 I knew I wasn't going to fall asleep soon. I was having some toothache pain keeping me up. So I went into the office and watched reels and some surfing the web, until about 5am, then laid down again. I did get about a two hour nap before the alarm went off. Maybe there is a nap after the shopping this afternoon...

Alrighty then. I think I bored you enough for one day. See ya tomorrow!

PeacE

Sorry, Not Sorry ...

Obviously I never made it back to finish the post yesterday. I did go in for the paracentesis and  liters were drained. I had a Zoom meeting scheduled for 2pm with my Group Lead of my IOP - a personal session each week to see how I am doing overall with everything. We had agree to move it to noon, so I was a bit rushed getting home in time. Things took longer at the hospital because of the amount drained, I had to receive an extra dose of albumin I had not time-factored into the day (about - minutes). So I made my meeting with about 10 minutes to spare.

Tuesday was such a great day for me. Dropped the car off to have the safety recall fixed on it. Something about a sensor in the passenger seat that improperly detects someone sitting there or not when an airbag is deployed. While that was being done, RM picked me up and we went back to her place. I set up my laptop and did my 3-hour IOP, then RM and I went to get my vehicle, followed up with lunch at Red Robin.

All I can say is ... wow. We ended sitting there and chatting after lunch until nearly 3:30pm, and it was such a great conversation! I felt I shared too much about things going on in my life, but I felt I needed to. I usually keep things so close to my chest until after, and on my way home, I realized that RM had also opened up and shared a lot with me about how things are in her life. I don't think we have been so open with each other before and shared so much. It was ... just fantastic! Oh, and the endless side salads were good, too. RM sent me home with a pint of her salsa for the Youngest (which only has about a third in it now) and had even made a quart of chunky for me (which is now gone).

I arrived home and saw that mail had come so I grabbed it. On top of everything is a check. You know how you can tell a Government check - their style of check peeking behind my address. I got excited! I rushed back to mt desk, and the second piece of mail was from SS Disability. I opened that one first to find I have been approved! The check that had come, well, it was for "backpay" from March to current. So an unexpected bonus ... and the amount I am to receive each month is higher than I was at least hoping for! So now I have some income coming in to help with all the medical. I hope to have all my balances current and at/near a zero balance in the next few months. At least right now I can address the ones that are overdue.

That evening, since I had no meetings at the VFW this Tuesday, I attended my TG group, and had a good discussion on 'Have you ever felt in control enough that you didn't need AA'. When my turn came up, I shared that I could NOT do it without AA. Though I went 5 months sober without any additional learning of the program, or the IOP, but I don't think I could stand here and honestly say I could have relapsed at anytime, and now that I am in the program, just the support keeps me going, let alone working on the steps.

Tuesday was awesome! So yesterday, I was in very good spirits when I had my one on one, and shared why. There's a nice big chunk of mental stress and worry off my mind now that the disability is coming in.

Today? Hmmmm. I have my IOP this morning, and nothing planned for the day. I may go get my hair cut, as the sides and back are getting shaggy. I know tomorrow after IOP the Youngest and I are headed to Discount Grocery to get drink, snacks, and any other good deals we find. No major weekend plans. We were invited to a "pool party" for one of the Post members who I consider a good acquaintance, but have not decided if I will go. I am sure the Wife won't go, but I am going to try to get her mind changed, at least to go for a little bit. I want her around more of the people I know and like/trust. Saga to be continued....

And with that, I need to get on with my day. My numbers are good this morning, and I am feeling better with the abdominal pressure off. I think I'll have some tuna salad for lunch today.

PeacE

To Drain, Or Not To Drain ...

 Don't worry everyone ... I have not disappeared just yet. I am headed out the door for a paracentesis (draining) so I'll have to finish this when I get back .... See ya in about three hours.

Memorial Day 2026

 No post today. Spend time with family remembering some gave all for you to be able to.

PeacE

Awww, Crap! I Gotta Work ...

 I need to get the minutes done from my Riders meeting. I have been putting it off most of the week, and today is payday. Technically, I don't need to do it until next week, but sooner did, sooner done.

I didn't go the the Flag Drop today. I'm just not feeling it - the walking around and all in the heat. This afternoon is a friend's granddaughter's birthday party at the Post. Since it is one of my good friends, I need to go and hang out for a bit. She also has to work this evening as the volunteer barmaid, and asked if I would stick around for that. I said I would until I couldn't. To me that sounds like about 8pm.

This friend is my "insider at Disability. We talked yesterday briefly, and it looks like I am approved, but she could not access for how much allowance each month. No letter yesterday. Today I hope.

I need to get things done so this is short this morning.

PeacE

Does The Alarm Even Work?

 I am up early today. Woke at least three times through the night with bladder calls, decided to finally get out of bed, and it was barely 6:30am. I feel well rested, but I haven't heard my alarm go off in days now. Seems I am up before it is time quite a bit. It's only 20 minutes, and I try to be productive still, but every once in awhile, it would be nice to sleep in until it went off.

IOP this morning. Yesterday's was interesting. It was on PAWS (Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome) that deals with symptoms several months (or years) after one quits drinking. Talked about the 'plateau' you hit, and start to backslide. I know she picked that specifically for me, because of our Wednesday session. Here I am at 7 months sober, and though I am not struggling currently, there is always a possibility.

My calendar is free after that. Tomorrow, I have been invited to a friend's granddaughter's birthday party that is being held at the Post. It's sort of invite only, so that is nice. I need to get a card and I'll throw $20 in it. I think she is about 10'ish. Then may stay for the Queen of Hearts drawing. I haven't stayed past 7pm on a Saturday at the Post in several weeks. I should make an 'appearance' for the karaoke crowd.

RM and I set plans for lunch on Tuesday. She took the day off work (not for me) and with the car drop-off, it works out well. Looks like we are going to Red Robin (endless side salads) after my IOP that morning. I was debating bringing my headset when I go to RM's, to make it so passer-bys cannot hear what is being said, but PT is hard enough of hearing, I don't think it will matter, as long as he knows he can't interrupt me with questions during my session. 

Disability. I have a friend on the "inside" regarding my Disability filing. She called me yesterday and asked have I gotten the letter yet. I knew to what she was referring, and said no. She said they sent a letter, and was all she could share. But in her voice, she sounded happy, so I am thinking I got approved the first time through, and those payments will start soon. It'll be nice to have the extra income since I cannot work currently, and to help with the medical bills. Didn't come yesterday... maybe today.

Bio's are okay this morning. BP is a little low, glucose is where it has been resting for a few months. 

Welp, I am outta thoughts this morning.

PeacE

Running Late ...

 ... this morning since I guess my body decided it needed just one more hour of sleep. I did sleep well last night, so that "extra" hour - I dunno, but it just set back my routing for the morning. My IOP starts here shortly.

I texted RM yesterday to "remind" her it's about time for our lunch date again. I say remind in that way, as I know she doesn't forget it, she looks forward to our one-on-one time, as do I. Since my weekends are fairly clear for the foreseeable future, I let her pick the date. I'm supposed to find a place. I wanted to find a place I, at least, have not been to before, but it's kind of hard to find one. I should clarify, hard to find a place where RM doesn't have to drive terribly far from home. I'm not saying she has issues driving (like PT) but I do it to try to make it easier. Best would be for me to pick-up/drop-off at her house, but sometimes that is a bit further. Maybe I'll start giving her the option to meet, or for me to pick her up ... let it be her decision. But still haven't found a place yet. Almost everywhere has a House Salad and Italian dressing so I'm good with whatever we decide.

I had my weekly personal session with my Group Leader yesterday. I yakked for a good 40 minutes. After the beginning "small talk" of how are you feeling and are you still working your goals, it merged into my medical and she was asking quite a few questions about the transplant process, estimated times, etc. Then we brought up my end date. June 9th is my last IOP class. Which, once I send a copy (JPG/GIF/PDF) of my completion certificate, that is the last thing on my deferment list, from what I received back in late March/early April. If Mayo has completed the things on their end, my case will go to the Transplant Council within a week for consideration again. That's when I make the List, or learn of other deferments that may have arisen since the last meeting. Getting closer to the goal!

Overall health today is good. Still kind of waking up. Bio figures are fine. I feel pretty good and ready for my IOP (in 20 minutes). I guess I should get off here and take care of the bathroom issues before the meeting....

PeacE

Morning Libations

 I slept good last night. After the previous two nights, I guess the body decided to correct itself, and I drifted off to sleep within moments of laying down. Only recall waking twice (bathroom calls) yet still woke 30 minutes before my alarm. Sigh. What can one do?

It dawned on me just a few minutes ago, I'm turning into (I don't know how else to say it, so no offense) an "old" person. I get up early (for me), I do my morning routine - you know, bathroom, get dressed, check blood pressure (been running a little low lately - today is 104/60) then check glucose (97 today). 'Turn on' the computer, check my calendar for what today holds. And the routine drops into place. I almost feel like going outside and yelling at someone walking by to "Get off my lawn" except it is way to hot out, and not many walk by the house.

How am I doing medically? I'm holding on - no. That sounds like I'm near death (which I am not). Medications are the paracentesis every now and then are holding my symptoms at bay. I have about 3 weeks to go in my IOP, at which point I believe I have completed everything on the list regarding the deferment. Which means soon my case will go up to the transplant council to determine making the Waiting List. Am I getting 'antsy' about it? Nah. Nothing I can do at this time except finish the IOP and maintain my meetings. Side note: Last night with my transplant support/AA meeting, we had a great topic about "Giving Without Strings" based off the AA Daily Affirmation of the day. Not in the biblical, sermon-type way. Moreso about helping other alcoholics recover, and support.

This weekend is Memorial Day weekend, and though the Post has a few events going on, I am not sure how many I will help with. Saturday they do the 'flag drop' at the cemetery near the Post (placing flags at each Veteran's stone) followed by a breakfast at the Post. Monday they are doing three flag raisings that morning, the final one being at the Post around 10:30am, I probably will make that one. Tuesday is their FOD walk, where the flags are picked back up, bundled, and returned to the Post for next year. This is usually done by the high school ROTC groups (about 4-5 of them this year) but open to any that want to help. Maybe I will check with the Youngest and see if he would like to do the flag drop again. He did go with me a couple years ago, and said he actually enjoyed it. Amazing what giving some time for a good thing is ale to make a person feel! I figure he won't do it this year, but I'll ask.

Well, this morning's drink of choice is Canada Dry ginger ale. No, not feeling nausea, just out of other soda and I wanted some carbonation. It'll be tea afterwards I am sure. Side thought: too much tea causing the sleeplessness? Too much caffeine? Nah.

One thing on the calendar for today, and it isn't until 2pm, so I got time to pick up a prescription this morning after 9am. I should work on the minutes from the Riders meeting, but I am pushing that off today. 

Okay, I'm outta here....

PeacE

Another Birthday ...

 ... is here, and this one is for the Oldest Son, Ralphd00d IV. Today he turns 28, and has turned into a wonderful young man. From holding you in my arms, to you joining me on the Annual Santa Runs, we have been blessed to have such good times. 

Slow day today. I have a personal session for the IOP (that usually lasts about 10 minutes) and a Riders meeting tonight. That's my whole day basically.

Nothing to ramble on about this morning. Rough time falling asleep last night, and wasn't able to drift off until near 4am. Up at 7am, a bit tired, but otherwise awake and moving. Now typing, not so much. I was texting with RM, and the errors have begun. What a Monday.

As I gaze into the misty future, I see a possible nap today.

PeacE

If I Think Real Hard ...

 ... it will come. Maybe. Sometimes coming up with a post title is hard.

It is Sunday, and I am up at the usual time. For a short bit, while getting dressed, I was going through things I need to get done today. After a few minutes of this, I realized it was Sunday and not Monday, so it kind of messed with my 'just made' plans. But wait! Sunday is more open to get things done. Only, the things I was going over was my appointments and the VFW Riders meeting in the evening. Oh crud! I forgot to do the Agenda - I better do it right away before the meeting. Wait! It's Sunday, I have time to complete it. Sigh.

Guess what I get to do today? Yeah, the Agenda for the Riders meeting. Shouldn't take too long - I don't think we have much going on.

'The wheels on the bus go 'round and 'round' but the ones on my office chair, not so much these days. The chair I currently have is a nice one from Staples a few years ago. But in this older house, the concrete-painted floor of the office has "roughened" up the surface from use, so the plastic wheels just pretty much got destroyed over time. Considering how heavy I was, it is not surprising. Unfortunately, I think it is past the warranty date (which I find isn't where it is supposed to be) but I don't think they would cover use/abuse. Maybe I'll take the Wife and hit a couple Goodwills nearby and see if they have a roller office chair that is good. I could look for shorts too, of the style I like, preferably in my "new" waist size.

The Wife and I went to dinner last night at Garcia's - one of our favorite Mexican restaurants. I had the El Magnifico Sampler platter (Chimi, burrito, chile rellano, taco refried beans, and rice. Don't forget the chips and salsa! I ate way more than I should have, but I'm just calling it a "cheat day". I still have the beans, rice, chimi and burrito to eat for today.

Tomorrow is the birthday of my Oldest Son, and he turns 28. I have asked if he wanted anything for his birthday, but have never gotten a response, so I have no clue. I don't know if the Wife has gotten anything for him. I'll text him tomorrow, as we rarely see him. He works night as a Night-Time Operation Mgr. at Home Depot.

Well, I guess I should wrap this up and get stuff done.

PeacE

Saturday ...

 ... and it feels like a regular weekday to me. The only exception is the Wife is at home. Nothing on my calendar for this weekend, so no idea what will be going on.

I went up to Safelite yesterday, and within 30 minutes, the car was fixed. The Manager was the only one that dealt with me. The whole ordeal would have ended just fine, if he had just apologized, fixed it, and sent me on my way. But no, he opened his mouth. Before he looked at it, the cause was a "false positive" as they take of a picture of the calibration results for the file, and mine should all was working fine. I shrugged, I mean I know stuff happens. After he brought the car back out, the excuse was a "broken cord" that after the picture, and they were replacing the mirror panel, etc., that he has a bunch of new trainees, and he must have been busy with one of the others when this tech did my car. I still didn't care, even though I know stuff happens sometimes. He made a comment along the lines of 'I wish you would have contacted me first instead of writing a bad review'. I looked him straight in the eye, 'I didn't write a review for you yet. I filled out a survey about my visit. The 2-star review you are getting now is a bonus as it was going to be 1-star, but you fixed it. 

So it seems some of the IOP sessions are paying off. I went through some things that we covered under Anger, and did not straight out attack Safelite angerly like I normally would have back in the day. 

... and that is all I have today.

PeacE

Oh Squeaky Wheel...

 ... how wonderful when you work properly! I had emailed Safelite yesterday regarding the Pre-Collision System malfunction with my car. Briefly, when I was in last week for a replacement windshield, evidently they did/didn't do something that was supposed to be done to the camera in such a way the only thing it works for is the speed limit. And it is irritating having the notice on the vid screen, with no way to remove it except to fix the darn thing. Well, they called me yesterday, I had to explain what PCS means (they use the term ADA) and he told me to schedule an appointment, and explain what is going on to the counter help, and it should be taken care of. I'm scheduled for 1pm, right after my IOP this morning.

Other than that, I have nothing on the calendar today. Oh! I do need to swing by CVS and see if they have my prescription in. They were to have it last week, but I never got the call it was in, and I kept forgetting to go by there. I'll do that on my way home...

Feeling almost back to normal after the paracentesis. A day or two afterwards I fell like the body is re-adjusting from the fluid drained, as I get some nausea, and feel somewhat fatigued without doing anything. Today I almost feel normal - well, normal to me.

I expect to be finishing yesterday's session material today. Seems yesterday, one of the new people (just joined this week) went off on a tangent, and off topic for a good 5 minutes. Then someone else replies to what she is talking about, and the back and forth of it all... Our group led should have gotten them back on topic faster, but not my job. I've learned in life that no matter where you are, it seems there are always people that set off my 'spidey-sense'. There are a couple new people in session (just starting) that I have this about. I've been good about not saying anything, no matter how much I want to. What use would it do? They are already having issues similar to what I went through already, so I can relate that way, but their attitude just floors me. I guess it comes down to how they were raised. We all have our opinion about that issue these days....Sigh.

Anyways, that's my boring life for the day basically.

PeacE

They Abused Me ....

 ... at the hospital yesterday. I went in for a paracentesis (draining of ascites from the abdomen) like I have for several months now. This is the second time (in a row even!) I have been able to go three weeks before needing to be drained. Not bad considering it used to be weekly. Either way, there was a "new girl" at the hospital that does the actual catheter insertion. This is a 2-shot process: 1). numbing shot, and 2). second shot to insert the catheter. Well, for some reason, as she was starting the second insertion, I felt a hard jab. I said something, and for some reason, the numbness hadn't set in yet. It is usually quite fast this whole start-up procedure. So she had to do another jab with some more 'numbness', then the second step wasn't bad, until they get to the abdominal wall, then a quick push and ...voila! Drained 6.7 liters yesterday (around 15 pounds).

Afterwards, like usual, I was "drained" (pun intended). I don't know what it is about getting this draining done that I always feel this way for a day or so afterwards. I think it may be the body telling me to slow down for a bit so it can readjust after the draining so the organs can 'resettle' after being under pressure. I truly don't know, but that us my guess.

IOP this morning. I had my hour session yesterday with our Group Leader, and we talked for a good hour. Not so much about problems I am having, but how am I doing with the adjustments and self-awareness of applying some of the things I have learned in class. I like this gal. We joke around and she even has me sharing a joke or two each class session at the end. I forget how that came to be... I think I wanted to share a funny one-liner, and now everyone wants a joke to end the meeting with laughter. But finding a funny, clean joke is hard, even with the internet. It is either sexual, racial, or not funny.

No plans the rest of the day. Don't really feel like going to the Post today. I did email Safelite yesterday, and voiced my problem with two possible solutions for them. Hope t hear back from them today, but I have a feeling I will have to get it in to a dealer to fix. Maybe they add it on when I go in in a couple weeks....

Welp, I think I shared enough. Go out and make your own stories!

PeacE

I Never Liked the Stair Climber ....

 ... but here I am doing steps, as in the 12 Steps of AA. At this point in time, I am currently settling in on Step Four: Make a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. Basically, where I 'make a list' of those that I have wronged due to my alcoholism. It is somewhat daunting. In some ways I could generalize that would include every body that I knew during those years. So that won't work. I do not have a Sponsor, and maybe they could explain it better to me, though I am reading the AA Book, I haven't made much progress, but I am sure there is a section that covers more detail for this step. Maybe I should skip ahead a bit, as it is built on chapters of things, not a linear story. I may be on this step for awhile, which is fine so I may do it right.

I am going to my paracentesis this morning for a draining. I weighed in this morning at 252 lbs, and I am guessing about 14 lbs of that is fluid...unless I have been eating good enough I put a few back on. So I am thinking 6-7 liters for the drain today. Find out soon enough. I have an hour session with my Group Lead for the IOP this afternoon. Other than that, I am free. The Wife is 'flexed' off today, but sort of 'on-call still. Maybe we can break for a quick bite together, or even bring the Youngest out to lunch - though he usually declines going out to eat with us.

I need to contact Safelite today to see what they want to do about the PCS in my car. I have not been able to get the malfunction warning off still. I spoke to a Post member last night that works in the repairs for a dealership, and even though he doesn't do this kind of work, but based on what I told him about the situation and what I have tried, he suggest taking it to the dealer for them to re-calibrate the system. Just hooking it up to the computer though is about $150 estimated, plus if they do any work. So I am going to reach out to Safelite to see if they are going to  fix it for me, or give me money to go the dealer. I do have an appointment later this month for a recall issue, maybe I could get them to squeeze in this calibration as well....

Welp, I should close this up for the day. I need to leave in about 30 minutes for the Para.

PeacE

I'm Waiting ....

 at 11:30pm for the pill I just took to kick in. This pill is my 'sleep aid' when I have problems sleeping (like tonight). I give about 15 more minutes until it starts, so I'll ramble on about stuff until then.

Tuesday. I have my IOP this morning. Walgreens has a prescription pick up ready for me for one of the ones I have been out of for two days now. I had a blood draw at Mayo on Monday morning. Drove 25 minutes, for a 3-minute procedure, and drove 20 minutes back home. I don't get it sometimes....

Auxiliary meeting is tonight at the Post. The agenda and last month's minutes were sent earlier this evening so I have yet to read them. Will do that after the IOP.

Dentist wants me to get a 'deep cleaning' done. Can do top and bottom on one side, then a couple weeks later the other side. I guess they numb you up real good, and go to town on descaling plaque. Well, me might be moving an extraction before that now. The past couple days, my back molar has started ringing it's pain alert - especially caused by the water pik (the dentist told me to get one) every night when I use it there. Hence the reason I am up right now. They are not open until Wednesday, unless it is an emergency, which I don't think is bad enough to qualify even though it is quite bad.

I think I will do the draining this Wednesday as well. Been feeling quite a bit of pressure and the abdomen  has filled out. I weighed myself tonight, and if I am at the 237 I was at 3 weeks ago, then I have about 6-7 liters to be drained. I have been eating better, so that could be a lower number amount to be drained. <shrug>.

Okay, I am headed to bed to be knocked out.

PeacE

Mother's Day

 Today is Mother's Day, and I have not yet reached out to RM to tell her 'Happy Mother's Day'. I have always asked that people wait to text/call me at least until after 8am, and I try to respect that for others as well. I probably should have gotten a card, and 'snail mailed' it, but I didn't. I always have the hardest time shopping for RM. I think it is because I feel I never can find a gift to surprise her with, that she would use. As she likes to point out, she really doesn't NEED anything.... maybe I took that too literally.

Our Youngest has shown some good initiative this year. I am able to post it, because I am sure the Wife does not read this blog.... He helped out last week doing some of the yardwork. He spent part of the day yesterday helping do things around the house. He also took me aside at one point, and asked about dinner plans for today. I told him no chance of a restaurant, so I was open to ideas. He wants to make his potato soup (so yummy!) for dinner for the Wife. I told him I thought that was a wonderful idea! And, he actually went out Friday to the store to find a gift for her. I just hope all the kids remember to call/text their Mom.

I am not doing anything today. I know, it is mother's that are supposed to enjoy doing nothing today... but I really have no plans. I have blood draw to do tomorrow morning at Mayo (close to an hour drive time, just for a blood draw that doesn't take but 5-10 minutes).

Welp, I'm tired of typing today already. 

PeacE

Starting To Get Frustrated ...

 ... at Safelite Auto Glass. True, they had the cheapest price I could find for the replacement. True, they got it completed earlier than the estimated time. True, they messed up my Pre-Collision System (PCS) somehow. I received four emails from them: 1) car is being worked on; 2) windshield has been re-calibrated successfully; 3) Notice that the PCS system may malfunction due to their reset when  replacing the windshield, and to turn all features back on to fix the warning; 4) my receipt. Well yesterday before going out shopping I sat in the car for a good half hour, manually turning back on things like lane assist, etc. Then I went and set it so the PCS was "ON". No change. I shut it off and restarted a couple times, with no change. What is the big deal about the PCS? Well, for starters, it wipes my digital display in the dash, and though I can send it away, it's only for a few seconds and it returns and sits there telling me to see dealer.

So this morning I spent some time looking up some DIY to try to fix the issue. I did get a couple ideas that I will try tomorrow when I have the time to get my hands dirty. One deals with removing the battery cables and let sit for three hours, or hold the two disconnected cable ends metal to metal for about 15 secs. It drain the "juice from the system and when hooked back up, resets the system. I can easily deal putting the stations on preset, and my favorite phone numbers. The second option is to check the fuses. No idea how many for the PCS system (or components) so pretty much have to test most of them. If that doesn't work, then it a call to Safelite. In one video I watched, the place forgot to actually connect one of the connectors back up, up in the compartment by your windshield mirror. I may check that too.

Did my IOP this morning. We have been working through "Anger" this week, and I learned a few things about how to be self-aware of it better, and solutions. Lately, I haven't been angry that often (irritated, yes, angry, no) so haven't had a chance to try any coping mechanisms, or thought processing. It was good to learn of the triggers for Anger, and a better definition of Anger and the Causes of.

Tonight is the Riders Dinner at the Post. I went out yesterday afternoon to Sam's Club and was disappointed with my location. I mainly needed some produce (shredded lettuce, tomatoes, onions, jalapenos) and their produce section was very small. No tomatoes at all, so I ended up with cans of diced tomatoes. Got the big jar of jalapenos for any that want to add. Chips, big bag o0f cheese for queso, and a couple other things. Spent too much (just over $60) so I will be asking reimbursement this time around. Then I had to go to Fry's for the rest, plus some stuff for home. I think I got it all, and went to the Post. I dropped off most of the stuff, including the cheese I wanted to bring home to make the queso before I go... So now I need to go earlier and start that up.

Sigh. And to top it off, my diuretics are kicking in full swing today - more than usual. Like every 30-45 mins doing a trip to the bathroom. I know, prolly TMI...

PeacE

I'm Tired Already ...

 ... thinking about what I need to get done today. I have my IOP this morning. After that I need to head to Sam's Club for some of the dinner items for the Riders Dinner tomorrow. I may have to stop at the regular grocery to make sure I have everything. I only signed up for chips and queso, but am getting all the veggies/cheese for toppings. After I think I have everything (because you know, even with a list I will miss something) I'll run most of it out to the Post and put in the fridge. I have mixed feelings about the Dinner. At the House Comm. meeting on Tuesday, the Jr Vice was saying he wants to invite Motero Life, a motorcycle group that supports Vets, etc. The  last event they came, bringing about 100 + people, and we just have not done a dinner for that many people. I am not sure we will have enough food. I guess earlier out is earlier done.

Not much for the rest of the week: IOP tomorrow morning, then the day is clear. I'll be at the Post early to help get set up for the Dinner. Saturday is an Aux Dist/Dept President training. It is in Mesa from like 10a-12p... or maybe it is 1p. It is open to any one that wants to attend, and I am debating. I think the training is more about leadership and reports, but at the different levels and who are responsible for them. But what do I know. I am not sure I am going, yet.

Well, I feel my body saying it is time to go to the Reading Room, so I'll talk atcha later ...

PeacE

Another "Nothing" Day

 It's Wednesday, and I cancelled the paracentesis I had previously scheduled for this morning. I do have some fluid build up, but it isn't overly uncomfortable yet. I think I'll go next week, that'll be another three weeks I went without draining. For the most part, the medications are handling my symptoms well. Encephalology has 'cleared' somewhat, though I still am having short-term memory issues, and at times, lose track/focus. With all the weight loss, the knees/hips/back feel slightly less pain, butt still requires me to use a cane for walking.

Yesterday ended well. I had my IOP in the morning, followed by a trip to Safelite for a windshield replacement. Afterwards, my car now tells me it has pre-collision 'something-or-other' and SEE DEALER. It won't shut off the message or the dash light. I figured maybe a few starts and stops would take care of it (like new air sensors with tires). After I got home, and had time to check my emails, I saw one from Safelite that explained the new issue - that if the settings for certain anti-collision features had been turned off, they will need to be reset, as the 'camera in the windshield' they had to reset the factory defaults when they calibrated it. They could have told me in person.... I headed to the VFW for the House/Entertainment meeting, and we finished early enough, I rushed home to get into the Zoom meeting for my AA/Support Liver group. I was only 5 minutes late, but the weekly meeting is done.

With the Para cancelled this morning, I do not have anything until 2pm with my group leader for a short personal check-in. I should work on the minutes from the meeting, but I don't think so today.

... and now I am off to do something...

The Weekend is Over ...

 ... and I am back to the routine. Well, for the most part. This morning I have to run out to Mayo for a psych consult. Shouldn't be longer than an hour, and then back home. I think I am clear until my 1pm zoom meeting with the counselor from my IOP. I know that will last all of 15 minutes. She just wants to make sure I am reaching goals, and doing well. I haven't checked my calendar yet this morning, so I am running off of memory for now.

Weekend was fine. Did some grocery shopping on Saturday. Yesterday we went to church. I met a couple of guys (Andy and Mike, if I remember correctly) that are in the men's bible study group that PT is in. They were happy to put a face with a name for me, because evidently PT has them praying for the transplant. In fact, I was a bit miffed at church. People there I have known for years were coming up to me and saying things like, " Glad to see you able to get up and about", or "Hope everything goes okay". I looked at the Wife and asked her "Does everyone here know about this?". She just kinda shrugged her shoulders. Well, what's done is done.

Picked up some Chino Bandito for lunch. It was perfect for the day. It just tasted so good, that even the Wife was commenting that it really hit the spot. I spent the afternoon playing around on the computer mostly.

Oh, I need to call the DMV today. Seems the registration for the Youngest's car (still in my name) came last week with the new sticker. Well Saturday, I received another one. I need to compare the two, and if they have different sticker numbers, or something, I should call to make sure the correct one is one the vehicle. I also need to get ahold of National Archives. I have ordered a copy of my Dad's DD-214 twice now. They said it was completed and sent, allow 5-7 business days. First time I waited a month, then ordered it again. It has now been almost another month, and the second order they said was completed 4/13. I *KNOW* the address to deliver to was correct, as I made sure of it the second time.

Welp, I need to get my meds down the hatch, and get ready for my appointment this morning. Y'all have a good 'un.

PeacE

Oh My, It Got Busy!

 Today is a "busy day for me. I have a 7:20am with my PCP for the next couple shots in the Hep series vaccine. Followed by my regular 3 hr IOP session at 9am. Then a zoom consult with one of the Psych docs at Mayo at 1:45pm. And lastly an event at the Post tonight I thought I would go check out. So today is short and sweet.

And I got nothing. 

My morning numbers are good (BP and Glucose). I think the PCP is going to do an A1C test this morning, but not sure since Mayo is doing my monthly blood work. I did do a drug test a bit ago, and the results came back negative (of course) though I could not tell from the report if the THC was out of my system yet. They need it cleared out prior to the transplant for sure.

Alright, I am out of here I guess....

PeacE

Another Spin of the Earth ...

 ... I don't think I have anything for you avid readers today. My drivel is dried up. My whining and complaining is done (psych!). Nothing much has been happening the past couple days. IOP session this morning, then nothing really planned for the day. I need to get back up to Walgreens for the next 2 prescriptions they now have filled (literally, 30 minutes after I left there the last time).

May starts tomorrow. We have a couple birthdays this month, though they are ones I generally don't get anything for (Oldest Son and SIL). I have a couple psyche consults with Mayo early in the month. IOP goes on all month pretty much. In yesterday's personal session, we determined I'm at about the halfway mark. So there was a 32-question assessment I had to do, which we compared to my intake results. Most of the intake results were "No Difficulty" but a few changed to "a little" this time round. I believe it is because I have learned to look for certain signs. I'm talking in dealing with anger issues, or personal communication, or whatnot. Because I am working on those (and other) factors, I tend to think there is more to learn - to know about how to improve even more than I have. Even though I am required by Mayo to complete this course, I find myself enjoying it, and never would have the insights I do now.

Welp, the Wife just left for work, so I need to call everyone over to party!

PeacE

*Yawn* Oh, It's Monday ...

 ... and I am awake at 5:30am this morning. I'd explain why, but I don't think the Wife would be happy about about me sharing. Either way, I am wide awake and figured I might as well get up and be productive. Heh. Like that'll happen.

The Youngest is needing to get his car through emissions for registration. He has never been before, so doesn't have any clue. I should just send him up there and let him figure it out, but I said I would go with and "teach him the ropes". Thankfully the Emission Check is only about a half mile up the road, and if extremely busy, we could always come back a little later.

I have a personal session today with a counselor I have slotted for an hour, but we usually are done in about 15 minutes. She just checks I am working on goals (positive ones).

Welp, I ain't got anything else on my mind to share right now....

PeacE

Sunday Down Time

 I'm up at the usual time today. Slept pretty good last night, but still have the yawns going this morning. Today holds no major plans for me. The day is actually clear on my calendar! This week doesn't hold much, just time-consuming things: IOP on Tues, Thurs, Fri at 3 hours a session. then I allow an hour each for personal session - one on  Mondays, the other on Wednesdays. No VFW meetings this week, but I do need to work on the Agenda for the House/Entertainment committee.

Yesterday was nice. I had District 3 meetings in the morning, but made it home around 1:30pm. I even checked in with the Wife if they had had lunch (no) so I stopped at Whataburger and brought lunch home. Killed the afternoon playing some games or surfing the web. Around 6pm the Youngest and I went to meet our Guild leader from Warcraft, who is in town working and flying out today. He had ate supper with the work crew, so we just went to a Denny's, I ordered a full-size nachos appetizer and drinks. We visited for a good hour and a half before he was ready to head back to his room.

If there is one thing I truly dislike, is driving in an area where a major event is going on. For those familiar with the Valley, State Farm stadium is in Glendale, around the 101 Loop and Glendale Avenue. The Denny's we were at is on Camelback and 99th Avenue (about 3 miles south of the stadium, and on the other side of the Loop 101). Leaving Denny's, I could not make a left to get back to the 101, so figured I would go a mile up 99th Ave and turn to the freeway. Nope. No Right Turns. Same at Bethany Home, and Glendale Aves. Finally at Northern Ave I was able to turn right. But as I went to get on the Freeway entrance ramp, traffic was at a near standstill. After about 20 minutes (and 5 exits) I finally got off and used side-streets to get back to his hotel. Seems there was a Monster Truck Jam going on at the stadium. Who knew there were that many rednecks out here that love to watch this stuff.

So a clear schedule leaves me wondering what I will do today. Probably end up playing some Warcraft, maybe a movie, maybe I can talk the Wife into getting Chino Bandito and bringing it home for lunch. Welp, I am off to have some breakfast (oh yay. Raisin Bran).

PeacE

Up Early Today ...

 ... and actually on purpose. Today we have a longer than usual District 3 meeting(s) for the VFW. Mostly longer because of elections. I am up early so I can get through my morning medical routine (done) and to arrive at the Post round 8-8:30am.

Post stuff will take up most of the morning, then the Youngest and I are meeting our Guild Leader from Warcraft. He is in town from out of state for work, and we plan to meet up for dinner near where he is staying. It's nice sometimes to be able to put a face and a name together of online friends.

This is heading into the last week of April, and that means some Mayo appointments coming up in early May. I have a Psych consult by Zoom, an in person psych visit (different person) and a blood draw all pretty much the first week. I should check my results from last week, and see if they found any trace of THC still in my system....

With that, I am outta here.

PeacE

Brain Fog Attack!!!

 This morning was the final IOP group session I have this week. I'm around the 2 week mark of the 8 week program. Normally I tend to like doing group sessions. The Group Lead has some great guides about Stress, anxiety, coping mechanisms, etc. and usually I request a copy of that lesson. That way, I can get more details from the reading, than just the memory of someone reading it aloud, and only able to get notes done about main points. Some of them have self-assessments, and I will go back after the program and go through them, twice, to compare what I remember about my drinking days, and comparing them to how I feel now. Anyways, no more group until Tuesday.

My point about Group today (see, I am easily led off topic by my own thoughts-SQUIRREL!) is that I just could not get into the study today. The 'Brain Fog' I get from the encephalopathy was stronger today, and I could not stay focused. Instead, while the discussions were going on, I paid some bills, got some snail mail ready and stamped to go. Made sure refills for about four medications were to be refilled (hopefully by Monday or Tuesday). The only errand I have to get out of the house for today is drop the mail off at the Post Office (mine is just a 1/2 mile up the road). I haven't decided about going to the Post as usual. I know I am going to be there a good portion of the day tomorrow for our District meetings/elections. This past year the President for the District Aux, is the Secretary for our Post Aux. I went over the Agenda for tomorrow, and seeing the positions to be voted on - there is a n Asst. Secretary listed as well. If she is elected President again, or Secretary, I am sure she is going to ask me to help there as well. Will find out tomorrow.

That reminds me I need to update my email signature line.

I did get the Riders meeting minutes finished yesterday and sent out. Also two applications for membership. Finally! Some new members that actually show up to meetings and events, and help volunteer on Dinner nights.

Just checked - the Mail has not been delivered yet today, so I am going to just put the outgoing in the box. Now I don't have to leave home at all. I think I will spend the afternoon playing some Warcraft.

PeacE