Saturday, May 18

Getting Older

Today is the oldest Son's 21st birthday, and tonight he has allowed his Dad (Me) to take him out for the first legal alcoholic drink. Looking forward to that this evening. Might even go do some karaoke.

Life is Life. I am on vacation this week. Purpose was to move from our house to the new one, but I don't know how much of that will get done. Renting a small Uhaul for the big stuff a couple days. Luckily we are only moving about a half mile. The two other boys finish school about mid week, and will then be able to help.

Still not happy at my job, and still no job offers have come around. Still searching....


Sunday, May 12

Death and Holidays

Today is Mother's Day, and it will be a long one. The Wife has mentioned even earlier this week, with tears, that this is going to be a rough day for her.And with whatnot still going on, I didn't get out to get even a card from the boys for her.... let alone a card for RM. I guess a text message will have to do.

Still working on moving. I'm off in another week, where we will rent a truck for a couple days to get the larger stuff moved between houses. I have no idea when we will be completely moved though. It is taking a longer amount of time to go through things there for the Wife. I'm not allowed to help as I think it should all just go to the trash or Goodwill. We did end up getting the car though, so my middle son is happy. It will be given to him once he has his license.

Still looking for work. Seems there is not much on the market closer to home for me. At least at a pay level I am acceptable with. Have a couple other ideas I am workign on this weekend.

That's all I got for now.


Sunday, March 17

Reasonable Update

After that last post... my MIL has passed. The Wife is Executioner of the estate.

That being said, she has 4 older brothers, and thankfully, there has been no contest of anything. The Wife received the house (deeded to her as rights of survivorship, set up back when my FIL was on his way to bad health). And the house is obviously not part of the "estate", and we decided we wanted to move there from our home. It's only about a 1/2 mile from us, mortgage-free, and larger. Plus it is the Wife's family home. A win-win.... though now I have to deal with clearing it out, then moving.

The rest of the estate is basically stuff that I don't care about. The brothers aren't voicing dissension about anything as of this point, and I don't expect them to, until financial things come up. Everything is pretty cut and dry, except money MIL had loaned out, with promise of repayment, now coming due. I'm sure those people may protest that... but not a point this week.

We have been going through the new home, unpacking and re-organizing the multitude of boxes that MIL and FIL had had in the house as storage. They were always collecting clothes/materials to distribute to the community churches that FIL had overseen. Though Dad had passed a few years ago, MIL had not gotten rid of much... so that falls to us, as we make room to move in. Much of it is clothing, which as we sort through it and organize, will be given to local charities such as the women's crisis center, etc. We are trying to stay away from Goodwill and other donation drop-offs as they make a profit, versus the non-profits. Though I am sure there will be a point that there are things we will have no place other than them to leave them at...or go to the dump.

Needless to say, between these events, and regular work, looking for a job, and just life in general, it has stretched me far and thin (though I haven't lost weight-damn!). I have a lower tolerance for my siblings (aside from other incidents that I may have posted about before... not sure). Reverend Mother I am sure prays every day for me (and the other siblings) but even my contact with her and PT has been limited due to us needing to get stuff done. RM knows this... and she'll read this and get reminded.

SO my days are full. And I am getting tired. Of everything. Too young to retire, and not enough monies to do so anyways.... sigh.


Sunday, February 10

Welcome... to Death

I know it has been awhile since I posted. Life. Well, that's kinda what has been going on until this last week or so.

My MIL went into the hospital about a week and a half ago. I was at work, got a text from The Wife... that she was at the ER with Mom, and she'd update me when she knew more. My first thoughts were, did MIL fall? Hurt herself some other way? I know she is frail (dealing with osteoporosis) but what caused an ER visit?

Later that night I find out she was admitted, and had pneumonia. Ok. I understand our more elderly are more susceptible to it...

Then things got worse. Multiple strokes. Throwing clots. Reduced vocal ability (due to strokes), reduced mobility. Doctors unable to do any surgery to fix anything because of the multitude of other health issues. Thursday the main Dr said call family in to see her. This is The Wife's family... who just lost their dad about 3-4 years ago.

Calla went out. Three of the four brothers flew in/arrived. I took Friday off just to support The Wife. I spent the day sitting in the waiting room, and main lobby of the hospital. I kne the family needed to decide what they felt was best. Their decision came down to getting Mom back to her house, and hospice care there. Yeah, that means, almost no chance of recovery, let's ease your way out. Saturday, equipment arrived, transport was done, and Mom is back home. For however long.

At this point, I have so many bitches and complaints about what is happening/going on,  that I am so worked up. I getg angry thinking about it, so I won't expand.

I'm also emotionally spent. The past week and a half, I have been trying to be the good husband and being the strong support for The Wife. This is her second round with parents at this stage. I was doing good until tonight. I had swung by Mom's (she's only like 1/2 mile from out place) and sat and held her hand awhile. I lost it. Memories of my Dad dying in the hospital... my FIL passing in Hospice... and just it all in general. I literally walked outside and bawled my head off for awhile.

Been a pretty shitty week so far.... no idea what this week will bring....

No peace this week....

Sunday, December 9

A Basic Pre-Christmas Post

Yesterday was the Wife's & the MIL's birthday. MIL did not want to go, but took the Wife and Sons to Olive Garden for dinner. Done with birthday celebrations now until next year at least.

Friday my company did their annual inventory... the one that they have delayed three times over the past few months. Needless to say, I had to have a more active role in the process. In this case, it meant I was one of the ones doing the actual count. Saturday morning was not a good one for me. Ankles, back of legs and lower back were telling me it was more physical than I had done in quite awhile. Even this morning I am still sore. I'm starting to get to that age bracket where I don't "bounce back" the way I used to do.

Not looking forward to Christmas. It is truly going to be a small one. The kids are getting to be where the gifts they want a re quite a bit more costly. For others, I just don't have the time to try to figure out what to get them. Looks like a gift card Christmas as far as I am concerned. I hate the holiday anyways.

Was able to go to Tucson last weekend for a couple nights, just the Wife and I. Spent Friday with the Daughter and Doodad. Came home Saturday late morning as the middle Son had a District Honor Band Concert the wife wanted to attend.

Guess that's about I got to say right now.


Saturday, November 24

I've Been Razzed ...

Thanksgiving Day has come and gone... both of them. How, you wonder, that I say both of them? Well, because I had two of them. Thursday my family went to my MIL's and had Tday dinner. Then on Friday, we went to RM & PT's place for a second dinner. I feel like I have gained a good five pounds or more in the two meals... and haven't been "hungry" as of yet. Though, I did take the Wife and two younger boys out for a late brunch/early lunch today.

So... the razzed comment in the title... While at RM's last night, I teasingly mentioned she hadn't updated her blog since earlier in the month. Without hesitation she came back with something along the lines she had noticed I had posted recently... first time in months. She and I go back and forth about our sporadic posting. I get a kick out of it.... sometimes. That being said, I should try to write more...

Life for me is going decent nowadays. Still at the same job and haven't seen anything recent that is better in any way. This next Thursday the Wife and I are headed to Tucson for a couple nights. The Wife has a class she is on the waiting list for towards credit for her PT license. I'm going because I can. That, and my Doodad lives there. We are staying in a hotel just a few miles from their new home (they recently made their first purchase).

Christmas is nearing and like most years, I have done about zero shopping. I have picked up a couple things for Doodad, but nothing else. Not even for the Wife's bday coming up in a week or so. I guess it's good I got Amazon Prime, and it will put to good use I am sure in the next few weeks.

That's about all I got for now. Headed off to play some Warcraft.


Friday, November 9


I ain't written here in awhile. Mostly because I have my nose buried in my tablet reading a book. Recently that has changed.

I have had to become more aware of things. Mostly those affecting my siblings, rather than my own immediate family.

Normally, I just shrug my shoulders and think 'it's their life, not mine'. But recent events make me wonder....

Not my place to share. So no "big rumor story here", but my heart strings tug. And I don't have a big heart.

I came here to vent, but I can't without sharing.

Send good thoughts.