Friday, December 31

Closing of the Year

 New Year's Eve is upon us, and like many people, we are going out to celebrate it (somewhat). We were invited to a friend's house for the evening to 'hang out', eat food, drink beer (or whatever) and set off some fireworks around the midnight hour. I've known this couple for a few years now, and have been to several get togethers with them, so it should be fun. The Wife is driving so I can partake without having to limit the intake. Oldest Son was thinking of going also, but I haven't heard from him as of yet. I suppose I should call and see if he is planning to go still. We offered him a ride as well, so he would not have to worry about it.

The Company has not contacted me for any new projects this week. I don't know if there just aren't any, or because the holidays and people in the office needing off. Not all offices are open again, just some of them. They did email that they are sending out an employee questionnaire regarding our opinion of the company and how it is working. I did one last year as well, and it resulted in being able to stay working remote from home, and the company worked at bettering the process of working remote. We will see what they question this year. I think they will allow remote working still - it is cheaper overall for them in my opinion.

As usual, I do not set any resolutions for the new year. I don't set goals. I have thoughts, but that is about it. Years ago, we would write down goals, aspirations, resolutions, and seal them in an envelope to open the next year and see where we ended up. But that was depressing, as many of us did not follow through on them. I know people think 'new year, fresh start' but I think anyone is able to start when they want, if they want. One goal I had set this past year was to read 150 books. In past years, I have always made the goal I set, and this year was no different. My final number was 213. I had lowered my goal from last year, as I expected to be working more this year, and I did work more. But somehow I was still able to get all that reading done.

I think this weekend I should go through my list of authors and see if any of them have added to a series they may have wrote, or have new books out I should look into. That'll keep me busy most of a day. I do try to keep a lookout for the authors when I quarterly check on new books coming out soon, and think I am able to catch most that way. Find out when I sit down and research them.

Welp, I guess that is about all I got to say here, at the end of 2021. Hope the few that read here enjoy your holiday.

PeacE

Saturday, December 25

Christmas Round-Up

 It's almost 10:30 and I am just completely worn out from the days activities. The family met up finally around 2, and we had some lunchmeat sandwiches with chips and a veggie tray. Then it was on to some games the Wife had decided to do. I had to do a quick trip back to our house to get the stocking ball she had made (and forgotten) and also grab the summer sausages I bought for the boys (because I forgot them). After said games were played, the opening of gifts came. I was surprised by a few of the gifts I got (that I hadn't bought myself) and everyone seemed happy for those we gave. Having that time together and letting the siblings catch-up, tease, and love on one another was the best part.

We finished up and then headed to RM's for more gift opening and dinner. It was nice getting a couple new T-shirts with snarky phrases, and a Washington football shirt. RM always knows I like jerky and summer sausage, so I got a bit more of those, along with some Little Debbie oatmeal cookies that I love. Throw in a few other candies and snack mixes, and my stocking was complete. Dinner was cooked ham we could eat on the plate, or make sandwiches, potato chips, potato salad, mashed potatoes, and corn. I probably forgot something. Dessert for me was some blueberry cheesecake with a lemon flavored cake-like bottom, and a slice of a turtle pie I think it was called. Everything was good!

by a little after 9, I was getting tired so forced the Youngest and the Wife to pack up and left. RM sent home quite a bit of the leftovers, aside from what she split off to the two older Sons. I think by this time next week I am going to be tired of ham, and other lunchmeats, and potatoes. So now I am kinda kicking back with my new slippers on. I put up the gifts I have received, except for a couple that need to go back to the car. I got a lot of pickles and snacks this year, which is always a good buy for me. I enjoy them whilst working. 

Been a damn good day.

PeacE

Christmas Day 2021

 It is mid-morning here at the D00d's house. The Wife is finishing up Christmas stuff - in particular the saran wrapped stocking ball we started for all the kids a couple years back. It is so much easier than having to do individual stockings, and they all get pretty competitive when playing the game to unwrap it all. We have discovered we have "lost" a couple gifts, or stocking ball items, that were picked up earlier in the year, and we just cannot remember where they were put at the time. I am sure it is someplace out of the way of normal day activity, but we cannot figure out where.

The car should start being loaded up with gifts in the next hour, and probably around noon we will head to the Son's apartment with gifts and food to began our day of togetherness. Daughter's family should be up around 1 I believe. Then after that is done, we will head to RM's for the last of gifting and a ham supper with sides of potato salad, corn and mashed potatoes. At least that is what I heard from the boys. There will be dessert, but I am not sure what will be left as we are the last family to do dinner. I'm hoping for some blueberry cheesecake or the turtle pie...but will have to wait and see.

Yesterday was good as I met up with some friends for pre-holiday drinking. The family was invited to a NYE party next week, and we may be doing that.

I guess I should get my things done before we start loading things. No one likes Dad to use the restroom at their homes, so best I take care of that now.

PeacE

Friday, December 24

The Eve of Destruction

There is a distinct possibility I will be able to actually get to bed at a decent hour tonight. I am sure I have mentioned the Wife's penchant for doing all the wrapping on Christmas Eve, resulting in me not being able to get into bed until the wee hours of the morning. Well, I did do some wrapping the other day. The Wife did some more wrapping last night. So, in my thinking, there shouldn't be much left. With the kids being older now, there are fewer gifts (and more expensive). I might be able to come home from the pub and go straight to bed.

Which brings up my other dilemma: What to do today? I was thinking head to the bar this afternoon, get some reading in. I have read 209 books this year, with the goal being 150. I am sure I can finish one, maybe two more this next week. Be the largest amount I've read in a year, based on the last six years goals.

I think we are pretty much set for tomorrow. The Wife picked up some deli meats and bread last night, that we will take over the the Son's apartment where we are doing our family Christmas around 1pm. Figured something light as we are doing a ham dinner at RM's sometime near 6'ish.

Welp, outta ideas to write about.

PeacE

Thursday, December 23

Holiday Spirit

 It's only the 23rd, and I am starting to feel the Holiday Spirit. Well, my version of it. I never have cared for Christmas and its marketing scheme brought on by businesses. I hate the crowds at stores when I am trying to buy something needed, not wanted and not to be given away. I hate the number of idiot drivers on the road, out to do their "shopping". Of course, here in AZ it is snowbird season, which doesn't help that last point at all. I'm grumpy and irritable more than usual. I'm Scrooge. Bah Humbug.

I got some wrapping done yesterday. I worked on it for like three hours and managed maybe 15 presents. Very ugly, wrapped presents. I re-learned/remembered why I don't do the wrapping. I can't cut straight lines. I tend to use 4x the amount of tape, as I put pieces on to cover the gaps because I can't cut straight. I don't care what the wrapping paper color is, a scrap is a scrap and if it fits, I'm using it. I also don't have the patience for it. Not today anyways. I guess the Wife is going to be up late tomorrow night.

Talked to the Daughter and discussed times for Christmas planning. I need to contact RM to push back dinner a bit. I know it is sometimes a hassle to try to accommodate in-laws and regular families. Especially when that other side of the family is a controlling geriatric, that you *have* to meet their demands. Sigh. Spineless sheep. 

Bah humbuG

Wednesday, December 22

F the Worm - Being Early Bird Sucks

 5:11am.

That's how late I made it sleeping in after not falling asleep until after at least 2am. These past couple nights have been pretty rough, but I have been able to make do with at least an hour nap around mid-day. Today probably won't be much different. Part of it may be the 'illness' I have been feeling. A few short days ago, I notice that with my usual morning blast of the horn (blowing my nose) There seemed to be a bit abnormal amount of green-yellow snot. A sure sign that I have at least in some small part, a bit of a sinus infection. No big deal as I tend to get small ones throughout the year due to my allergies. I made sure I took my allergy med daily, and after a couple days noticed the discharge was clear again. But now I was having "drainage" issues. Down the back of the throat, tickling enough to cough. Two days ago, my abdomen was sore from the coughing. Yesterday I felt a bit better, but still coughing. LAst night, I noticed it had dropped to my chest.

So now the sinus infection has dropped, and is trying to start up a case of bronchitis. Over the years, this has happened several times, and usually I catch it, as I started to day on a decongestant, added with some Vicks rubbed on the chest. Hopefully a day of this and it will clear up (like normal). I would hate it to ruin what little good I feel for the holiday season.

Speaking of that, I guess this morning will be spent wrapping gifts. I tried (really!) to start it yesterday, but as I started looking into the multitude of shopping bags the Wife has, I realized I had no clue who got what, was it actually for one of the kids, was it for some one else? I gave up. Last night I explained it to the Wife and she had already split the gifts amongst the kids, and labeled which bag was to whom, and all were from us. The Youngest had already picked out what he was getting his siblings and had those in his room to wrap himself. Definitely makes this easier, and I think I can knock it all out within a couple hours over the next couple days.

No word from the Company for a project. I am not surprised with this holiday week and all. Hopefully by the first part of next week something will come along.

A bit after 6am now, guess I should get the Vicks on now that I just took the pills for the morning.

PeacE

Tuesday, December 21

Getting Things Done?

 Well, my work project ended yesterday as I had predicted. Since I was up early due to my sleeping issues, I was able to max out the time working at least. Now it is sit back and wait to see when the next project comes. I know the offices are closed Friday, and I think they were closing Thursday as well, so I might not hear anything until next week. Almost fine for me, with it being this close to Christmas, it frees me up to do some other things.

I told the Wife last night we are doing things differently this year. In past years, she would do the majority of the wrapping of presents, and since she is a procrastinator, it always went undone until the 24th. Then it would last until 2-3 in the morning, because she had to have each child that lived at home come in and wrap presents for their siblings. With only one child at home, I said he and I could at least wrap several each day, which would lighten the load and leave her only the things she doesn't want us to wrap (aka our own gifts). The Wife actually agreed, so in a couple hours I'll wake the teen and we can get a couple hours in today.

The Middle and Youngest went to RM's house yesterday early afternoon for some Christmas baking with Grandma. They must have had a good time, as they didn't return back here until 6:30. Daughter checked in about the time her family was to be here for unwrapping of gifts, and was informed (again) it was at their leisure, so they would not have to rush their own family time that morning. My guess is noon'ish before they make it up. Then we have the afternoon for Family, followed by early evening and dinner with RM and PT. Makes for a long day, and though we have been doing similar with small variation over the years, it is very tiring.

Hoping I will be feeling a bit better by then. Yesterday, I was having bouts of nausea, but not bad enough to be sick. Also, I am hoping it was bad allergies, but the nasal draining and coughing from it, have my stomach area muscles hurting today. So far the drainage isn't bad today, and haven't felt sick, but it is still early. 

Welp, I guess I should get on with the day, and see what I might do.

PeacE

Monday, December 20

Before the Sun's Rising

 I'm up at the ass-crack of dawn, I guess one would say. I've gotten maybe 2-3 hours worth of interrupted sleep, finally gave up about 5:50am. No idea as to why sleep isn't coming, as we were all up around 9:30 yesterday morning, and I didn't have a nap. I know I felt tired when I went to bed about 10 last night, but played that toss 'n turn game most of the night.

So I'm up early, and cruising some of my regular sites. She wrote this morning about her sudden wake up at 2am yesterday, and how she might think something happened to myself or Stuman since we were out on the Santa Run. But it wasn't us. Well, at least not I. The Oldest Son and I were driven home by The Wife, and I don't recall when exactly we arrived at the domicile. I woke to having two santa bags, each with the hair and beard wigs in them - I think they are Stuman's and his friend that went with. I also found out I had an extra pack of cigarettes that appeared from somewhere. I didn't buy any, I do know that. Overall the Run was fun, and even the Wife had a good time out with the ladies.

Now I am just killing time, waiting to be able to start work. This project I cannot start before 7am daily, and I believe based on what was "left" to finish up on Friday, it may be ending this morning. If it does, hopefully they can get me into a new one by tomorrow. I could use the extra time off today to try and take a nap.

PeacE

Saturday, December 18

Getting the Mrs Out

 Tonight is the 3rd Annual Santa Run, and with the headcount we worked on last night, we have 16 guys planning on going. We are planning on picking up the Oldest Son around 6:30pm and then it is off until the wee hours drinking and comrading around with a bunch of guys, dressed as Santa. Of course, with my body build and beard length, I make the Santa look more correct than the others - I may be biased.

The Wife is doing the girl thing, where they copied our idea and are going out as a group dressed as Mrs Claus. Thankfully they are not doing the same bar hops as we are, except for a couple stops, The Wife is one of the designated drivers for their group. I think there are only like 7 or so going...if that. She knows a couple of the guys in my group, and a couple ladies in hers, so she will be meeting many people tonight. Especially at the first stop, as it is my regular hangout.

Middle Son came and 'kidnapped' Youngest for a few hours. After he dropped him back off I was verifying times with him about Monday. Middle is taking Youngest to RM's for some Christmas baking stuff - RM's tradition she likes to keep. Then I made a side note I would see him the following Saturday, and he looks at me blankly. 'Christmas?' I say, and he groans. 'I still need to do all my shopping yet.' I laughed. Then I told him I need nothing, so don't waste time trying to get me anything. He will probably end up giving me a 2-liter of Mtn Dew or something... which is just fine.

Welp, a few hours left until I need to don the suit.

PeacE

Friday, December 17

Title in Progress

 Friday has arrived, and I should be working, but I am taking a quick break. I Haven't felt like writing here most of the week, mainly because not much has been happening. Last Sunday, my Santa gig for the VFW went well. The lack of information (what time to be there, etc) was a bit frustrating. I showed up early, in costume, to find out that they didn't want Santa until the last 45 minutes of the allotted time. So I changed and sat in the bar area for three hours (drinking water) before dressing back up and doing the event. I thought the kids loved me. Had a couple parents come tell me that I was the best Santa they had seen in years. All said and done, it was a good day.

Work has been good this week. I have been plodding on this project, which looks to go into most of next week as well.

Tomorrow is the third annual Santa Run. Oldest Son and I will be going (we are originals of the event). I think I mentioned before, spouses, etc are doing a Mrs. Clause run as well. The Wife is going on that. I guess the girls are going to a few different bars, but at least two are on the guys trip as well. The previous two years, I had enjoyed and gotten excited as this time of year came. This year, I don't know. It feels more like going to work then having a good time out with friends doing something fun, unexpected, and that brings some happiness to others. At least I get a night hanging out with the Oldest Son.

I still need to get a couple more presents to finish up the Christmas shopping. Hoping to do it this weekend, and be done with it all. Geez, only one week to Christmas already? Sigh.

PeacE

Sunday, December 12

Down From the North Pole

 Today is the VFW Post Children's Christmas party, and my third and last Santa Gig for the year. In theory, it is my first, as the other two were cancelled. Either way, I am up early today to prep for the party. I have already used my new beard iron and straightened out the funny kinks in the beard, and applied the first coat of white paint. While it is drying, I am getting all of the outfit together, before looking to apply a second coat, or touch-ups to the beard and facial hair. I'm sure there will be pictures later, as I know several will be taken. We are doing Santa pictures for the kids after all.

Friday I was re-assigned to a new project for work, but had mentioned I had a prior commitment and may not make it that day. The Oldest Son needed to get his car in for some stuff (engine light was on, and another previous issue about it 'stuttering' sometimes). He had asked for me to pick him up that morning so he would not have to sit in the the lobby for at least three hours while they worked on things. My new project meeting wasn't to start until 11am, so I said sure. We went out for breakfast, did some shopping, and had a nice time catching up since I don't see him often.

My project meeting time got changed to 2pm, and he got the call that his car was ready about 12-1230. I dropped him back off, returned home, and started getting ready for the meeting. Suddenly I get a call from the Oldest Son, he had returned to the car shop. About a half mile down the road, engine light came back on and the rpm readings were fluctuating like they shouldn't. He said he would just nap in one of the chairs since he knew I had a meeting coming up. I read through the project protocol (about 10 minutes) and said 'Screw it' and drove over to pick him up. I did tell work I had a prior commitment.... and I emailed the leads about it. Then we went over to one of my watering holes and had a beer while waiting on the new repairs needed. He was back at his car by 4pm'ish, and out more than I think he should have been, but hopefully it is said and done. And I got to spend more time with him. In fact, he has some vacation time in January he needs to burn that we have set some plans for.

Well, this hair paint dries stiff, and in trying to kind of comb it out so not so stiff, it leaves a chalky residue. I couldn't find any hair spray paint, which I which I think would have worked better. I didn't wand to have to mess with real dye, as the bleaching process, etc. The Wife is supposed to don her bought Mrs Claus outfit and go with me today, but as I laid out my suit last night, she didn't say anything, and I truly think she has not even opened the package it came in yet. Sigh. Have that argument in about half an hour.....

Saturday is our 3rd Annual Santa Run, and we have about 14 guys going this year (including oldest Son). Doing things a little different than last year, but overall should still be fun. Some of the wives and SO's are goin as Mrs Clause' (Wife included) and stopping at the same places we do, though staggered in time. I am not big on that idea. I think they should pick their own places to go, so as to not ruin the surprise on faces when 14 Santa's walk in.. and vice versa for them. But no one will listen to me.

Either way, feels like this coat is almost dry so I need to go see what mroe needs to be done.

PeacE

Wednesday, December 8

Wednesday Shenanigans

 Sunday night was bad. I was lucky if I got a total of two hours of sleep. But I did start work as early as possible that morning. Monday evening I was dragging from lack of sleep, and went out for a bit, had a few beers, knowing I would sleep good that night. I did, and Tuesday morning found me at work later than I wanted, but still made it there. Thank goodness for a flexible time schedule. Project is expected to end this week, but it is rumored there is another one I will be switched to at that time. We will see ...

Today marks The Wife's birthday. She has finally caught up to my age (again). I asked her last night about when and where she would like to do a bday dinner. I have no answer, so who knows if we are going out tonight or not. Trying to get the kids all together is hard, and I don't see it happening at this time.

Oldest Son is looking to spend some time at the house with me tomorrow. Seems he is taking his car into the shop for a couple fix-its, and asked for a ride to/from so he won't have to sit in the lobby there. I'll have to work, but he can sit and chat while I am working. Or he may just go lay down and sleep through it all.

Guess that's it for now. I should start working now.

PeacE

Sunday, December 5

Resting Up

 Sunday has come around again, and this one finds me resting up for this next week. The Wife and I went out for a brunch yesterday, went to run an errand, and ended up shopping for a couple hours. We did complete much of our holiday gift shopping, yet I still need to go out for a couple more things. I also got the car washed and then spent part of the evening up at the VFW for some beer and karaoke.

Tomorrow it is back to work. This project (from what I was told) was to be about a week and half long, which means by the end of the week, it should be finishing up. Hoping they will be able to get into another quickly - I know for a fact that there are at least 4 other projects going on right now as well.

I do believe The Wife and I have finally figured out birthday and holiday shopping, in regards to/from each other, or from kids. While out yesterday, I saw her pick up an item and add it to the cart, I asked who that was for. She says, 'Me, it's from Youngest Son for my birthday this week'. Later on, I added an item, and said it was for me at Christmas from Youngest. She did finally give me at least one idea that I'll take Youngest out to select whatever design/color he likes for her.

Anyways, got nothing of importance to say today, and feel like I will just be ramblin' on ...

PeacE

Friday, December 3

About Time!

 I started working on Wednesday finally. So today's writ will be fairly short, as I need to get started here in a few. Aside from sleeping issues, getting up early enough to get to work early has been difficult. I like to start at 6 and be done by 2, but this week it has been 9-5 ... that nine weeks off made me enjoy sleeping in a little more.

My second Santa gig was to be tomorrow. Yesterday it got cancelled due to the possible government shut-down that may occur today. Regardless if it does/does not happen, it has been cancelled. That leaves my third gig next weekend. Which as of right now is still on.

Guess I should get to work... it's about that time.

PeacE

Monday, November 29

Will This Be A Work Week?

 Late in the afternoon on Friday, I received an email from the Company informing me there is a project to start on Tuesday this week. Of course I immediately replied back that I was ready and available. I also informed them I would need resets on access to programs since it has been many weeks (nine in fact) since I last had access, and they lock person(s) out after three weeks of them not logging in to said programs. I was told I would be contacted prior to the start day with the needed information regarding the project and other access.

Today, I was hoping to have that info and access so I could be sure there were no additional issues regarding logging in to their system from remote. Every time I had that email notification on my phone, I would quickly check my email account. Each time it was some junk mail, or offers from places I have bought stuff. Finally around 2:30pm I received three separate emails giving me access to the HR site where one can manage their information, and complete tasks to make sure they are legal and have accepted terms and conditions for the company on file. I completed that in 10 minutes.

Now I am waiting for the important stuff: new temp passwords for the remote login and other assorted accesses needed. With most of this contact coming from the east coast and it being after 5pm there now, I hope it is here in the morning a couple hours ahead of the scheduled meeting (11am my time). Joy.

Other than that, nothing is going on here. Waiting on work. Who would have thought they would have an employee eager to work, and not give them anything....sigh.

PeacE

Friday, November 26

Black Friday 2021

Let me feel like a Lib-tard, or Donkey-crat, or whatever... but isn't Black Friday racist? I don't care, because it is just another normal Friday for me.

Oh my! Yesterday was such a wonderful day. We arrived down in Tucson around 9:45am, and I got dressed up for Doodad.



I know you can't read the shirt well, but it says "Papaw's the name, Dress-up is the game". It was one of two shirts the Daughter had made for my birthday. It included the outfit of the boa, hat and a tutu the Wife made. Here's a better shot...


Doodad was surprised to see Papaw dressed up for her, so she ran off to and changed into one of her princess dress-ups. Then she pretty much ignored me most of the day because she had her uncle Youngest there to play outside with. We got settled in and I started on making my dessert. The older boys showed up and meal prepping began. By 1'ish we were sitting down to one of the biggest meals I have ever sat down to. SIL had done a wonderful job smoking a turkey, and deep-frying one as well. And the ladies, well, all the extra dishes they put out there were terrific. A couple hours after the meal, and other shenanigans, we had dessert, which is always good. Doodad "inhaled" the Cherry Delight I made - so I was surprised. Afterwards, everyone pitched in with clean-up and putting/splitting the food away. The Boys decided to start a game, and it was near time for us to leave. We left Youngest there, where the two older ones brought him home later.

Though Doodad didn't want much to do with her Papaw, it was still a good day. We had left about 8pm, and around 11pm we got a call from the Daughter. Doodad had been sleeping when we were leaving, and no one could wake her up (Uncle Youngest had done a good job wearing her out). She woke crying because we were gone and she didn't get to tell us bye, so they called. Then it was lights for me.

Today nothing new is planned. Going to the VFW later on, do some reading, and probably stay for karaoke. The Wife had to work. She is adjusting to the new job, and says she really likes it. I guess my biggest decision right now is: smoked turkey, or deep-fried turkey for my sandwich for lunch?

PeacE

Wednesday, November 24

Grumpy Hump Day

 The Company is trying to kill me with anxiety attacks. Monday they sent an email stating a project was FINALLY ready to start up this week. They were expecting Tuesday or Wednesday to be the start date, and those selected for the project would be notified. Within five minutes of receiving that email, I responded that I was available for the project and ready to start immediately. Tuesday I get an email stating that "with this being a holiday week, project plans have been changing minute by minute; however, there will be no projects this week". WTF? This is like the third time they have sent out notice of a new project, then the next day, say no, no new project. I'm at like week nine of not working now. Yet they left me with hope, as "there should be several projects ready to start next week". We will see.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and it will be a nice one. All my children are getting together at the Daughter's in Tucson for the meal. I was hoping Oldest Son would be able to make it, and he has confirmed he will be there. Oldest and the Wife were going over the list of items Daughter said would be needed for the dishes and whatnot, plus we were to bring any dessert we wanted. SIL is making his chocolate pumpkin pie. Oldest Son is bringing an apple pie, and he specifically requested I make my Cherry Delight. I rarely make it - maybe once a year, if that. Not that it is difficult, I just usually don't make it.

So I got "our list" from the Wife of what we needed to get/bring. I wanted to get out and do the shopping for supplies on Monday, but didn't get around to it. So yesterday I waited until the Youngest got home from school and asked if he wanted to go with. Surprisingly he said yes, and we were off. Took us three grocery stores to get everything needed for the dessert. The list of things we filled at the first store. Hard to believe that graham cracker pie crusts were in such high demand this holiday! Either way it was nice to hang out one on one with Youngest, and all supplies are ready for our trip tomorrow.

I guess after tomorrow all thoughts turn to Christmas. I know I am waiting a couple (few) more packages to arrive. I know there are a couple more gifts that need to be bought yet, but I have no idea what to get that person(s). Then there are the plans and times to be places for Christmas day. I am sure within my immediate family we will be talking about that tomorrow.

Well, I guess I have rambled enough. Been sitting here for fifteen minutes ruminating on a mish-mash of stuff in my head, and none of it worth writing about.

PeacE

Monday, November 22

Maybe a Week of Changes?

 The Wife has just recently left, to start her first day of being employed again. It has been just over a year since she last "worked" (thanks Covid) but when I asked if she was feeling overly nervous, she had replied not too much. First Day job jitters, I'm sure many of us have had them. I know I wish I was starting a project for work today ... but enough bitching about what ain't happening.

As we get nearer to the family-gathering-type holidays, I find myself in a dilemma. The Wife has no family that live fairly close, or that we are over close in relationship. That leaves my family. Several years ago, at one said family gathering, I had finally had enough and spoke out against my sister and BIL. They have always had a way of speaking down about everyone, and making comments at my children about things they should not. My Daughter had already decided to not have anything to do with them, and I verbally told them that neither was the rest of my family.

I have tried to mend some of the relationship between my sister and I, but once it seems to get on the mend, she repeats her mistake of talking down about my wife/kids, or makes accusations of me. Frankly, I am done with it. However, this past August she dragged my Mother into our "fight". I won't go into details, but in short, I told RM that I pretty much was done with all of them, as she consistently took my sister's side of things, and I was done with everyone, including her.

Harsh to say to one's mother. But I (still) feel that I am in the right on this topic. I did tell the Wife, and all my kids that if they want to talk/spend time/whatever with RM, I was not stopping them. I was the one mad at her after all. And I know the Wife has spoken/texted with her, and I am sure some of the kids have as well.

Anyways, so this morning I get a text from RM asking about the (previously always done) Thanksgiving dinner with her and PT on Friday evening. I'm a bit shocked. Though RM has texted a few times (health updates on PT) I have never responded. So, being invited for dinner is new to me considering my anger about things right now. Asking if I or anyone in my family was coming for dinner. I don't know if anyone knows about it. The Wife has to work. Older two Sons probably will be working. I just don't know.

Be nice and go? Try not to say anything so no arguing? Feel miserable because this is still an issue for me? Or don't go, and let the Wife decide if she wants to go with the Youngest?

I don't know. And then there is Christmas coming up ....

Ain't no PeacE here today ...

Saturday, November 20

Another Messed Up Week

 So nothing exciting happened this week. No emails for getting assigned to a project with the Company. No other offers from other places I have emailed my resume. The Wife is starting a new job this Monday, at a different facility from the one she left, yet owned by the same umbrella corporation. Plus she is getting more money. Distance is about the same as before, but instead of fighting the traffic morning and evening, it will be a bit of an easier travel.

My first Santa gig got cancelled. It was supposed to have been this morning, traveling with the Posts' MCA group. Last week it was around 7-8 families where we would drop off gifts for the kids, a turkey, plus other fixings for Turkey Day or Christmas. Also two Fire Stations, where we would drop off a large number of small plush animals (they use at scenes to help comfort kids). But as of Friday night, all the families had backed out (no reason given) and he was down to one fire station and one family (that didn't have kids). So it will be a couple weeks until the next one.

Instead, I was able to attend the State Marching Competition where the Youngest was performing. They ended up 7th of 8, but this is their first year in a new division. They were in a smaller one before. I thought for the first year, being one of the smaller bands in this division, they did well!

Went out to dinner after picking Youngest up from the school, and though it is barely 8pm, feels like 11pm or later. The Wife and I are both yawning and trying to not go to bed early.

PeacE

Sunday, November 14

The Morning Ritual

 Four in the morning is not the most pleasant of times to wake up, and not be able to fall asleep. Yet, that is what happened this morning. At least I got six hours of sleep (so far). Spent an hour playing Warcraft. Spent the next two watching a new show "Mayor of Kingstown" (which is looking pretty interesting) that is directed by the same guy as the "Yellowstone" series I have been enjoying. Both shows started up here this last week, and spinoff of the Yellowstone is called "1883" is supposed to air tonight as well. Yeah, guess I will be adding yet more TV shows to be watched, even while trying to catch up on some others.

Not sure what I will be doing today. I may go lay and try yo nap some more this morning, but not sure. May go to the bar this afternoon, but not sure. At this point, I have no clue how to entertain myself today. Yesterday was hard enough to get through without going bonkers.

PeacE

Thursday, November 11

Unbridled Boredom

 An email was written and sent on Monday from myself to the Company. While typing it up, I had to change words frequently, as I was doing my best to place an inquiry, without sounding like I was berating their ineptitude. Well, at least what I feel is their ineptitude. When every two weeks, or so, you are told 'Projects are lining up fast and starting soon' and then 6 weeks later one is still having to inquire about said projects...sigh. Frustrating is a good way to describe this mess, at least from my side of things. Either way, I did get a response to this week's email to HR - and here is the direct quote:

"Yes, apologies that things have been so slow lately. I’m really hopeful projects will be picking up quite soon."

At least I got a response, one would think. I think I should start looking around for another job. This month and a half (plus) between projects is not good for me, nor the bank account. I did have a tentative job offer from a friend, but it is still a couple months off, and I still need to consider the conditions of the position.

In the meantime, I am getting pretty bored. One can only sit around and watch so many movies, or television programs. My reading is over the top - I have finished 186 books of my goal of 150 this year. Computer games are just not keeping me entertained like they used too. All because I don't have the work going on to break up the monotony. 

And up at 5:30am today, to repeat the cycle. Yee haw.

PeacE

Monday, November 8

Still Waiting ....

 It is going on six weeks now, since I last was on a project for the Company. Every two weeks I get an email from them stating "Many projects getting ready to start" but yet, here I sit waiting for them to give me a start time. I think this morning I shall write my contact there, and ask again what is going on. I understand delays come up to start projects sometimes, while finalizing details with the client, parameters, etc, but this is getting to be a bit much for me. I need to get back to work. I have sent out my resume to to a couple other places that do similar work, and have not heard anything from them. One I know was looking only for college graduates (which I am not) so that may be a wash eother way - even with my experience.

Otherwise Life has been ... well, Life. I feel like I spend most of my days watching TV show episodes of series on Netflix, or Paramount. Either that or I end up at the bar in the mid-afternoon. I do like to have my beer when I am reading.

First Santa gig is in a couple weeks, with a second one a couple weeks after that. First year doing this sort of thing, and though I sort of am looking forward to it, I am getting a bit leery. I think it is like 'job jitters' people get before an interview type thing.

I was able to get four hours sleep last night, and up now eating some breakfast the Middle Son dropped off this morning. Wife is back in bed catching a couple more hours (wish I was, too).

PeacE

Tuesday, November 2

Eastbound and Down (Sorta) and Poorer

 Well, made it back from Las Vegas yesterday, just in time to be picked up by the Wife and rushed off to the Youngest's Marching Band event. They were the last band, so it was near 8pm before they got on the field. There are nine high schools in our district, and they are the biggest band. It had been at least three weeks, if not longer, since I had last seen/heard the band, and last night they rocked it! I actually got the little shiver with goosebumps at one point of the performance. They did make State Semi-Finals, which is this coming Saturday - in Gilbert, which is literally the other side of the Valley and like a good 1.5 hour drive. Sigh. Fucking rich people's schools always get the big events. Which they would change it up and switch sides of the Valley to do this on. Another bitch, another time.

Vegas was alright. The Wife and I had made a trip there about 20 years ago, and stayed on the Strip at the Mirage. This time I stayed at the South Point - about 5 miles south of the Mirage, and most of the main hotels on the strip. SP was pretty cool. There were several restaurants/eateries of different variety all over the casino, so there really was no need to leave the place - unless you had something specific you wanted to do/eat/see. I did leave Saturday and toured Madame Toussad's Wax Museum, had White Castle's for lunch, and did a little walking around the Venetian and the grand canal shops. For me, it was quite a bit of walking, and I estimated I did about 5K that day. Most of the days were spent at the main casino where we stayed. I drank a bit, but no where near as much as I regularly. I just didn't feel like being that intoxicated in a large crowd and that far from my room. Did I mention I hate crowds before? I would "find my spot" at one of the bars and spend most of my day (when not in my room) playing video poker and drinking so no one would bug me. The friends and I would meet up every now and then and hang out talking, watching games on Sunday, and a meal here and there. Was nice to hang out with friends, and having a mini-vacation. Of course I came back with less money than I went with - but still did not spend all I took. I was happy about that.

Still haven't heard much from the Company. Last was last week with the 'availability' questionnaire, and the "several projects coming very soon" comment. Think it may be time to start looking at similar other places and see if I can split time between companies and projects. The Wife has not heard more from any employers recently either - that I know of anyways. Gonna be a weird Christmas, especially I have not started shopping because no one knows what they want. Ask the kids and I get " I don't know"...buttheads (said in an affectionate way of course - this time).

Middle Son went with us to the marching band thing last night, so was able to catch up a little with him. We see him more than the Oldest Son or even the Daughter. He was supposed to be by this morning as well, but haven't heard him yet. It may still be a little early for him on his day off.

Guess I should get off this post and get on to the emails and other catch-up stuff from the weekend.

PeacE

Friday, October 29

Vegas, Baby!

 This morning I leave for Las Vegas for a four days. A little "Guy's Only" trip to celebrate a friend's retirement from the Army. What a weekend to go, though, with Halloween on Sunday - wonder how many 'weirdos' we will see?

Leaving today, I miss the chance to go to my alumni Homecoming game tonight, and a get-together some fellow bandmates from my years were putting together for tomorrow. I also miss the Youngest's Homecoming game, a band competition on Saturday (at my alma mater of all places) and should be back in time on Monday evening for the District exhibition of all the HS marching bands.

I am all packed and ready to go. Have a little spare cash for food/drink - I don't gamble really. 

Guess that is all I got until I get back.

PeacE

Monday, October 25

All Cramped Up

 I spent most of the weekend drinking. I know, my last post spoke of it being a sober Saturday night, and it truly was a non-alcoholic event. I drank water. I drank soda, I drank, I drank, I drank. For some reason, the past two days had my body craving anything cold and liquid. Sunday morning when I woke (around 10am) I woke feeling bloated, yet craving more cold liquid. I went through more soda than I should have (oh, the calories and sugar!) and I could not chill water fast enough to keep up with my thirst. I even brought it to the Wife's attention, and she could not figure out anything as to why I would suddenly go through this 'thirsty' phase.

So we finally made it bed last night around midnight, after me binge-watching almost the entire season 16 of NCIS. This morning I woke to lower leg cramps, and a distinct lack of that thirsty feeling. One would think all the water I drank would have eased the chances of leg cramps - but maybe I 'washed' out the vitamin(s) that help prevent them. I don't know, but I am sitting here with a chilled, flavored water next to me already this morning. I may try to go lay back down for an hour or two in a bit, since I don't have any work to do yet.

Middle Son stopped by this morning, and is running the Youngest off to school. I think I just heard them leave, and the Wife crawl back into bed. I'm gonna check my email (for work hopefully) then I am back to bed for a bit, too.

PeacE

Sunday, October 24

Another Boring, and Sober, Saturday Night

 Another long, boring week has come to an end. Friday did end with an email from the Company though, with a brief 'questionnaire' to fill out regarding one's current availability for Projects. OF course, I had mine done within five minutes of receiving the link. I am so ready to get back to work. I went out that night to the VFW as my usual routine. By the end of the night, I might have another Santa gig for a nearby American Legion. They are supposed to call me and give me details of what they would want of me, before I commit to anything.

Saturday was spent not doing much. Middle Son came over to help out with mowing of the lawn, and helping move some heavier items around front for the bulk trash pick up that is due soon. Youngest Son helped out doing the trimming around front. I went up to the 99 Cent store to stock up on 2-liters of Mountain Dew and Pepsi, as they almost always have them there for $1. No Mtn Dew.... so got extra Pepsi, and a couple Shasta Lemon-Lime. They Wife had me get some packages of pasta. I threw in a few other minor items for lunches for me, and a couple snack items. So I'm stocked with stuff for the next couple weeks. Found some Tampico iced tea up there too! The Wife had found a Peach flavor one a few days back, and thought it was that store, and sure enough it was. I grabbed her a couple more quarts, and they had one lemon left, so I grabbed it to try (I hate peach tea). It's not bad! I like many of the other Tampico drinks available by the gallon at most stores, but ad never seen the tea.

Sat around most of the afternoon binging on episodes of 'Blue Bloods'. With supper the Wife and I watched the final episode of "Bull", and I headed to bed. That was about 9pm. Just after 12 I am awake again. Damn bladder. But I knew once I got up to go that sleep wasn't going to be coming back for awhile. So here I am at the computer, trying to find something to make me sleepy enough to go lay down and try to sleep again.

I'm leaving Friday for Las Vegas. A fried has retired from his many years of service in the Army, and is doing a Guys Only retirement party/ get-together. There are about 10 of us in total going, and 4 that are riding up from the Valley together. We are staying at a nice Casino further south on the strip, where one friend's family has been going for years, and gets many comps. The NPRC Rodeo championships are there that weekend, too, so rooms were a bit higher priced, but will still save some money on food and drinks thanks to connections. I know I won't lose much gambling, as I am not into it. I might end up in an Uber up the street to Madame Toussad's or something. I think I might have mentioned all that before some time. Coming home Monday. The Youngest has a Homecoming game, Competition on Saturday, and the district exposition on Monday evening, so I will miss two of the events.

The Wife may be returning to the workforce soon. She had a couple phone interviews last week, one which had her do a physical one as well. Unfortunately, that one turned her down. Have not heard from the other one. I have no idea how many other places she might have applied at, or have places in mind yet. But it is a start.

Nothing more to clear out of my head today.

PeacE

Monday, October 18

Memory and Memories

 If one were to ask the Wife, I have the worst memory of anyone she knows. Unless it comes down to stupid trivia facts no one wants to know, then I can't forget anything. And it is true. She'll tell me one thing one day, and the next, I won't recall being told at all. And that is when I am sober! Sure, I have memories and stories of things that have had happened. I am able to look at pictures and remember. Someone can start telling a story, and I'll remember that have heard it before.

Sometimes there are memories you don't want to remember. I logged into FB this morning, and one of it's "features" is of 'Memories of this Day' which is nothing more than posts you have made a year(s) previous on this day. Mine brought up the passing of one of my best friends. Yes, I have thought about him much over the past seven years, and it was always the good memories - I think the only bad one of is of his passing. So yay, happy Monday to me.

Not much in the mood for writing more today.

PeacE

Friday, October 15

Wasting Time

 Another week has come and gone. I am still waiting to hear from the Company about any work. I did receive an email from them around Wednesday, basically telling me I was terminated in the system. It is an automatic feature if one has not received a payslip within a two week period. Basically, after three weeks, you get terminated in the system, which cuts off access tot he virtual desktop we work from. This can be changed once you are assigned to a project, etc, etc. It happened once to me before, as I was just starting into a project and it cost a day of working while they figured out what happened.

The Daughter had a car accident the other day. Fortunately no one was hurt. Seems the brakes had locked up and failed to stop the vehicle. There was some front end damage, hood sort of crushed up, and definitely radiator damage. The car was a 2000, and more than likely is totaled. The other person is not hurt, and I have no idea what damage(s) to their vehicle was. The fault goes to my Daughter, and I don't even know if the police were called or if they just settled it between the two of them. Either way, their plan to purchase a newer vehicle just got stepped up quite a bit. Daughter had mentioned, she had been telling Doodad reasonings for why she has to be buckled in the car, over the past several weeks. One of the first things Doodad said after the accident, was something along the lines of 'And that's why I wear my seatbelt!'

I'm a little sore this morning. I came up with the brilliant plan to do something together as a family while the Youngest was on school break. So we went and played putt-putt golf. It had been ages since I had played, and I thought he might like it. The three of went up to the Castles 'n Coasters near out house (small amusement park at the local mall area) and payed $13 per person to play one round of golf. When did it get so expensive?? I thin when I was in high school it was like $2/round. Anyways, we played. It was fun watching Youngest get the idea of how to swing the club, force, angle, etc as the game went on. Afterwards we went to the only regular buffet I know in town, Golden Corral. On the ay home, I asked Youngest if he had "fun". Yeah, I guess I did was his reply. I'll chalk that up as one for Dad with a good idea. Maybe another time I will get out the golf clubs, and we go to a course to hit a bucket of balls to let him really swing.

Oldest Son texted me earlier this week, letting me know he has requested the day off for when we do the Santa Run. I told him I hope he doesn't have an early shift the day after it! I guess I am playing Santa for my brother's Army unit in early December. I have been tentatively asked to help out the VFW's motorcycle club for a Christmas run they do, delivering presents to certain kids at their homes. But I have not heard anything new for sure as of yet. Found out Tuesday they asked someone else to play Santa at the Post Christmas party. Wasn't sure how to feel about that one, so not too worried. I'd rather a couple hours in the suit than the whole night.

Welp, I guess I should get off here and try to get something done today.

PeacE

Tuesday, October 12

What to Do ....

 Here it is Tuesday, and again I am waiting to hear from the Company. Maybe today will be the day.

Youngest Son is off school this week (fall break). No special plans to do anything.

Been up since about 3:45 this morning. Not sure why, just am. So that means I spent the past 2+ hours sitting here watching Youtube videos, of stupid stuff. Why? Because I just didn't feel like watching a 45 minute Netflix show, yet I spent 2 hours watching shorter dumb videos. Sigh. And I am still not tired.

Nothing on the agenda today until later today. I have got a meeting to go to for the Aux.

This was pretty short.

PeacE

Friday, October 8

Another Two Weeks Wasted

 I spent some time this morning, working on the wording in an email I was sending to the Company. It has once again been two weeks since I have heard from the recruiters there, and at the time, it was along the lines of "We have many new projects coming together and will notify you when one is available". I hate being told bullshit, but what can I do about it? I could quit,  try to find other work, or maybe similar with another company. With the Wife still out of work, I need to have a more consistent work period, and this work two weeks, off three, is not a good one.

So I spent time wording a sensible email to the recruiters, and once again, brought to their attention that they are wasting a valuable resource (me) in just having me sitting here to the side waiting for something to come along. Last time I did this, lo and behold, I had an email the next day assigning me to a project. So will try this tactic again. Maybe if nothing by mid-week next I'll try it again. Maybe the squeaky wheel theory will help. It obviously won't hinder it any.

This brings us to today. Friday. Karaoke at the VFW tonight, and my brother is planning on being there. Seeing how it is just afternoon now, I will probably head that way in a couple hours. I have been up there several days this week, not working and all. I like the quietness and being able to read, plus enjoy a beer, at lower prices than at the regular pub.

No plans for the weekend that I am aware of. Yee haw.

PeacE

Thursday, October 7

It's Poker Night!

 As it happens every Thursday evening, the VFW has Poker Night tonight. It's not a bad little thing, and gets some of the younger members in to play. I think it is like a $5 buy-in, with 1 extra buy-in at $5 before the break, and 1-$10 buy-in after break. Or something like that. I don't know, because, well, I don't play. But I always tell the Wife it is Poker Night, so I can get out of the house. She doesn't directly ask me how I play/played, and I don't offer.

I have never been much of a gambler, and I have no idea where that comes from. Maybe my younger years, I don't know. The Wife and I were given a trip to Las Vegas several years (like 15 years or more) from the company I worked for at the time. They had booked us a room at the Mirage for Fri-Sun, paid for the airline flight, and gave me $500 for "spending cash". By the time we were leaving Vegas, we had spent the $500, and I pulled $40 out to pay for parking when we got back to Phoenix. That $500 paid all our meals, the Star Trek exhibit at the Hilton, and a few penny and nickel slots. Had to do the slots just to say I pulled a handle on one in Vegas. Oh, and we did Madame Tussaud's Wax Museum, too!

There are several casinos around the Valley. I have only been to one of them and that was more than 20 years ago - when it was the only one, and wayyyyy out on the east side of town. Since then I think they have added like 6 or more around the metropolitan area. I just have no desire to play slots. I consider myself 'decent' at poker, but really am not good with blackjack. Craps - I've tried it, but just not my thing either. I don't mind doing a little roulette. I think I pretty much have tried most gambling things a casino would have over the years with 12-hour turn-arounds to Laughlin. Just not my thing.

The Wife and I tried a new breakfast place today. It is a little more East of us than I like to drive for food, but she insisted. Was called the Original Breakfast House, and the food was okay. Staff was great, and the prices per serving size seemed good. I guess they had been there for years (I never heard of them, but that doesn't mean much) and had a California surf/Hawaii theme going on. Lots of people going in/out and on a weekday morning around 9am. 

Anyways, I'm tired of ramblin' on about nothing.

PeacE

Sunday, October 3

It Was Worth It

 Yesterday, we took a drive up north. The Youngest had a band competition in Prescott in the eary evening, the school's first this year, and we had decided to attend. The Oldest and Middle Sons also joined us for the afternoon, which was fun. It was nice to hear them snickering back and forth in the back seat as we drove north, and I had a chance to talk to both for awhile before the the even started. The Oldest one is hard to get time with, due to his work schedule and his other commitments. We got back late in the evening, but the time together was fun. The Band only made 2nd place, which I thought was not bad for the first competition in two years.

And because Prescot is built in a small valley, everything is built on a "hill", meaning that the high school the event was at, had lots if ups & downs in the parking lot, to the football field. Event he bleachers, slabs of concrete versus regular metal seating, were small, that sitting down I felt like my knees were at my throat. Getting up and sitting down were fun, with my knees problems. Today I feel the exertions in my leg muscles, around the abdomen, and in the lower back.

Headed up to the pub here in about an hour. I need to return a Kindle a friend had handed me a couple days ago, asking for me to load him up a couple books if I could find them for him. He is bartending today, and the Redskins are playing at 10am. Might as well hang up there for the game and do some reading as well.

PeacE

Thursday, September 30

Ho-Um Thursday

 Here we are into day four of this week, and still no work has come along. The past couple days I have been going down to the VFW and spent the afternoons reading, and having a couple beers.

Heading out in a bit to have lunch with my Brother. I offered to buy and so of course he is willing to go. Not sure how much fun it will be, since I am going to be bringing up some stuff he probably won't want to hear. He has a lot of people looking at him to do some good things at the VFW, but he has to straighten up his act a bit. I'm not going into detail here.

The Middle Son is over this morning helping the Wife get some moving of things done. Why aren't I helping? Because the things they are moving, there is no way I could manage picking up and twisting/shifting, etc around like she wants, with my back the way it is. Wife just came back to check what time I would be leaving for my lunch, and I told her she should send the Son home to rest, as he has to work tonight yet. Instead, she is taking him out to lunch for the help he has given. 

Not much else going on, since I ain't working. Just plodding along ....

PeacE

Monday, September 27

Monday Morning Musings

 Of course, the phone makes the noise of notification at 5am this morning. It is a distinctive one I set up so I know when I have an email, versus just a text, or other kind of notification. I was hoping for one early today, but when I opened one eye to check it, the email was not the one I was hoping to receive. It was "junk" mail. The one I was hoping for was from the Company, saying they had a new project I had been assigned to, and here are the details when we are starting.

I laid there a moment, thinking I should roll over and nap until the alarm goes off, but the bladder was pretty insistent I get up. So I did, and once that problem was taken care of, went ahead and decided to stay up for the day since I was on my feet. I deleted the junk email, and wrote one up and sent it off to the Company, reminding them I am now available for my next project. Hope to hear something later today.

I am in the process of downloading a game this morning. There is this 'platform' (?) called Steam, that you can purchase games through, and the Daughter had recommended a couple that looked interesting. I picked the $4.99 one and is working on being transferred to my computer as we speak. It is large enough in size it should take about an hour - I have slow d/l speeds. Daughter mentioned she plays it with a Playstation controller, on her PC. I knew one could do that, but have you seen those controllers? There are buttons all over, and two joysticks to have to use... I just never had the dexterity? hand control? patience? to learn to coordinate all of them just to play a game. But I have a feeling later on this morning I will be asking her recommendations for the type of controller to get, and if not too expensive, order one. After all, I am sure there will be other games I may use it for, or worst case, I give it to one of the Sons and they will find use for it.

After completing the last book I read, I reached my goal of reading 150 books this year. I had lowered the goal from 175 (last year) since I was hoping to be working more hours this year (didn't happen). I thought about raising the goal, but decided not to. I still will try to get as many books in as I can, but I reached a goal setting from almost 10 months ago, and though I may make new ones, I'll leave that marker set. Next year is next year. In fact, I need to go over and write up a review for yet another I have finished.

I didn't include it in the last post, but the new car has finally lit up it's first warning light. Low tire pressure. It happened when we were leaving the restaurant on Saturday in Tucson, and stayed on the trip back to the Daughter's house. I checked the tires (looked at) to see if any looked low, and concluded that though a couple looked possibly low, it was hard to tell in the dark with a flashlight, and the way I was parked. We visited about another hour or so, and I checked again before we got on the road to home with no difference. About a third of the way home, the light went off, and I thought it may have happened since it was about 70 degrees there (they were getting a little rain) and that was the coolest I had driven the car in (I bought it in April, when temps were in the 90's already). Now yesterday was a rainy day here in town, and I don't recall what the temps were, and I did not get in the car to check if the light came back on or not. I will check it today. If so, will hit Discount Tire and have them do an air check (since I ain't working today anyways).

Well, enough gabbing this morning. I need to get stuff done - or at least pretend that is what I am doing.

PeacE

Sunday, September 26

Day Tripping

 Today, rather now, yesterday, was our trip down to Tucson. We arrived just before noon, and had fun talking, visiting and playing with the Daughter and family. Doodad was a bit less energetic (from what the Wife told me of her day trip a couple weeks earlier) but she was still so full of energy. I remember a younger me having more energy than I do now, and still can't imagine having as much energy that Doodad has. I am sure I was just as bad when I was her age.

The Daughter is turning Thursday this week, so we also took down some birthday presents we had gotten for her. And since we had the chance, we took the family and a favorite Niece out to dinner to celebrate her day. Nice place called Guadalajara Mexican, and it seemed to specialize in southern Mexican cuisine. Many dishes I had never heard of, so I got to try a new one.... and it was different! I had a Molcajete Ultimo, which is 4 jumbo shrimp, steak, and chicken breast all packed into a molcajete with bell peppers, onions and queso fresco simmering in a molcajete sauce. In short, it was that all literally boiling in a bowl-shaped lava-looking rock - and I mean boiling! Add a side plate with beans and rice, some flour tortillas - and whew! It was good. Another thing that was cool, is when they do the chips/salsa before your meal, the 'salsa lady' comes around to your table with a cart, and asks if you want salsa, or guacamole, and then prepares it right in front of you. On recommendation from the SIL, we tried a medium salsa, and it was awesome!

Most times we go down, the Daughter and Wife spend much of the time together talking crafts and whatever. This time around the Daughter put me on the spot more, wanting to know more about what is going with me. So was uncomfortable a bit. I usually don't have the kids asking me about my health, or work, or about other things that are bothering me right now. Today she did, and it actually felt good to fill her in, and to let her know that she is not responsible for anything I do/say for my benefit, and she could make her own decisions regarding things.

So was a very good day trip, and we made it home around 11pm. Doodad was sad we had to go home, and said we could sleep there. When asked where we would sleep, Papaw had to sleep on the couch and Mamaw would sleep in her bed with her. I always get the shit end of that deal, I guess. But it was funny. Am looking forward to spending Thanksgiving with them this year, and hope the Boys will be able to within their work schedules.

The Wife was sound asleep within 20 minutes of us getting home, but I find I cannot drop off to slumberland. I am just physically and mentally tired, but things just won't shut down for me tonight. So I am back to trying to bore myself (writing here) and see what happens. May have to watch some dumb videos or something.

PeacE

Friday, September 24

End of Week Gifts

 Friday, being considered the 'end of the work week' for many, myself included, has come and brought gifts. Not that I like all of them...

My back is feeling much better today. So the exercises and TENS treatments are working as they should. Wish the body would do that and quit trying to fall apart.

Work project ended. I knew when I logged off yesterday, that we were going to be reaching the end at some point today. I did not expect it to be an hour before I logged on today. But it was. So now waiting for re-assignment.

The Youngest has a football game they are performing at tonight so I decided I would go and check out how much they have done this year so far. I am sure there are going to be many other times I see him perform in competitions, etc.

Tomorrow we are day-tripping down to Tucson to visit the Daughter and family. I set it up yesterday. I just want to get out of town. The temps are much cooler there, but I want to get out of the area of town I am in for a day and just "GO". At least turn it into something fun, being able to see Doodad and all as well.

Guess sitting here ain't gonna get nothing done - not that I have anything to really do today.

PeacE

Wednesday, September 22

Let's Take It Easy - Ouch!

 As I drifted off to sleep last night, I had the thought that today would go pretty smooth. Then I did something, in my sleep I am thinking. Around 4am, I am not sure if it was my bladder that woke, or my back, as I went to roll over. That sharp little stab of pain in the lumbar region, that tells me I have moved in some fashion, in some unregular way, somehow, and started a disc slipping, or something. It repeatedly reminded me it was there, as I did shuffle off to get the bladder to shut up at least.

I returned to bed, and did a couple leg sifting exercises I was taught at the PT's for my work comp injury. It felt like it helped a little. Then I stretched out on my back and just tried to relax. It wasn't long before I was able to fall back to sleep, though most of the morning I would wake when shifting/rolling....so didn't get much of a "good sleep".

So sitting here, trying not to shift or twist in my desk chair, for the next several hours trying to work is going to be fun. I already started the acetaminophen, and at the expense of my liver, would love to just add some Jack Daniels throughout the day to 'numb the day'. But duty calls. I am sure if I get to where I need to log off and lay down, or whatever, the 'bosses' would understand. I just hate having to do that.

Guess I should get back to actually working, and off this break.

PeacE

Monday, September 20

Disliking My 'Fellow Man'

 It's Monday night, and for football fans, all that means is that there is a game on and the weekend is extended for three hours usually when one is off work for the day. Of course that all depends on what shift you work, and travel time, etc. Details, details. I got a text about 4 this afternoon that three of my good buddies were meeting up at one of the pubs, one friend who had a vested interest in tonight's game - he is a Detroit fan. It did not end up well for him, but that's for another conversation. Anyways, I went up, had some fun with friends, and called it an early night, thinking I would just hit the McD's on my home for some grub.

It's just after 10'ish, so the McD's was not swamped, and as I pulled in from the street, I have to turn, and go in front of another local business, to get to McD's. I see what appears to be a homeless person, laying on the sidewalk in front of this place of business. I stop, put down the window, and ask... "Are you okay?'. He was laying on his back, legs out in the driving area of the parking lot. There was another man there, looking just as desolate, and he says to me, "HE's fine". And so I roll on through to McD's drive-thru.

It bothered me. Another person answered for him, and I never saw him lift a hand or head to register any of that short convo. As I went through the ordering process, I ordered a couple extra sandwiches. Yes, they were the cheaper ones, which is what I was ordering anyways. And I got my Sweet Tea. I didn't think to order another drink - bad on me.

As I completed the drive-thru process, and received my food/drink, I looked over to the front of that business. This guy is STILL laying out the same way, and the other person that answered before is long gone. I don't know why, but I got pissed. I rolled up again in front of him, yelled out asking if he was okay. Did I need to call for help (an ambulance) or the police. He slowly raised himself up, and only asked, "Do you have something to drink?". I only had my one, sweet, iced tea.... which I had not had a drink of yet. My mind rebelled against me, as I said "Yes, and here you go.". HE got up and took the drink. I asked if he was hungry, knowing I bought a couple extra items, and I handed them out as well. I asked again if all was ok, or did I still need to call an ambulance or ER services. He said no, and I drove away, to head home.

That all sounds like I did a "good deed" in helping someone that appears homeless, hungry, etc. Unfortunately, in my town, like many across the nation, this is appearing more and more, and most of them, at least in my area, avid drug users. In all honesty, if this guy had looked like one (believe me when I say I know what they look like - past history) I would not have done this much.

But what really infuriates me, is the first time I stopped by, prior to getting in the drive-thru, I am not "Blocking" traffic behind me in the parking lot. Yet another little POS looking car has the audacity to not only pull up behind me, lay on his horn, then make a big show about backing up and pulling around me... to get to the drive-thru - not caring about what was happening, and that driver could obviously see the same I was seeing. So this dickwad makes it into the queue before I do, and I flipped him the finger the whole time I could, knowing that he couldn't see it behind my headlights, since I was the car behind him. He gets his order, and starts to pull ahead ... then stops. Literally three feet from the pickup - I assume he is 'checking his order'. So I lay on my horn. HE promptly gives me a finger, which I see through the back window, the he proceeds to open his door.

I'm thinking, this MF'er wants confrontation? I'm ready. I'm already angry at his lack of social conscience, let him. I shout out my window to him, "Get back in your Piece of shit and fucking move. You ain't worth any of my time." He looks back again, climbs in his car, and drives away, again passing the guy laying halfway out in the parking lot.

I gave up my drink, and half the dinner I picked up, to help someone. Did he play me? Was he really that dehydrated and hungry? Was it a plea for some sucker to get him stuff? I don't know. I felt I did what a human should.

I know many homeless, and the 'pretends'  that do the cup hold-outs, etc, at intersections, and what not, are not always what they seem to be. Caught many at the closest gas station counting the money they collected, then whipping out their new iPhones and calling for a ride and talking about how much the y made that day. I hate that. Makes me so angry. Which is why in a case like this that someone just fucking ignoring a human, laying half off the sidewalk and into the parking lot, they just drive past them.....

I hate people. I am not a good people person. I never will be, especially if this is the way human ity os becoming.

Angry. Angry. Angry.

PeacE

Saturday, September 18

Headed to Bed

 It's Saturday night, and I am at home getting ready to head to bed around 11:30pm. I did go out for a bit - but it was to take the Wife and Youngest out to dinner. Decided on Garcia's (Mexican). I ordered my regular, a large sampler-type  meal, and noticed I could only eat a portion of it. So my self-imposed serving limitations is working, and I am getting used tot he smaller portions - I can't eat as much as I used to.

Finished work on Friday, looking to see what was still "out there" to be completed. It looks like at least another day. Last time I 'guess-timated' they ended up adding in more work. I am NOT complaining. We have already hit the estimated project length of time. Still have not heard if I will continue on to the next portion, or be re-assigned to a new project or what. See what Monday brings.

Nothing exciting planned around here for the rest of the weekend. Guess I am headed to bed.

PeacE

Thursday, September 16

Dang Bladder

 Another early morning thanks to the wonderful way my bladder works. I guess in a way, it is a good thing it wakes me, since I try to drink so much water each day. I would just prefer it being able to wait until regular waking hours. Tonight I think it made it about 6 hours. Cut back on my water intake? I dunno...

Work has been going good. This project has exceeded in time length better than the past 3-4 projects I have been on. From what I am guesstimating, today may clear up the remaining portion of stuff we are going through. Or it may not. Sometimes they surprise us by adding more when we are not online. Either way, still waiting to hear if I will be kept on this project longer or not. It has pretty much met the "expected length of time" they gave me for the project.

Been doing quite a bit of reading lately, and have almost met the goal I set for the year. I admit it was a little lower than last year's goal, only because I was under the impression I would be working more hours than what has actually happened. I have had a chance to read more ARCs this year, which means getting more reviews done, which helps get more ARCs. My only problem is there are so many ARCs available, and I worry about picking one I will have to do a bad review for. I have been able to stick with ones that I'm pretty confident I will enjoy so far.

Welp, I think I am off to find something to bore me back to sleep. Alarm is set for before 5, and here it is 20 mins til 3.

PeacE

Wednesday, September 15

Little Things That Irritate

The time had finally arrived to purchase the Youngest Son his first cell phone. With students actually returning to the physical classroom, plus all the extra-curricular groups being active again, he really needed a way to reach out to us for pick-up times, etc. That way, if they are late getting back from an event, he can call so we are not just sitting in the school parking lot for who knows how long. So we removed a tablet from our service plan - or rather, changed that slot into a phone, and purchased a phone for him. The Middle Son decided to upgrade his phone at the time as well, so they got ordered together.

I don't understand the practices of some companies. FedEx for example. They were the delivery company for the phones, and according to Verizon (our current provider) the phones should have arrived yesterday. But for some reason, FedEx sent the phones, from the pick-up in California, and sent them to their main facility in Tennessee, then back out to Arizona. So the package didn't arrive "on time" it was a day late. 

That was a bit irritating, considering that the Wife was told that someone would have to be here to sign for the package (which she didn't sign anything when they finally got here). But that is FedEx.

The boys got together this afternoon and were setting up the new phones, giving contacts to the Younger, etc. After an hour or so, they come to me... seems Verizon did not include a charger with either phone, only a USB-C to USB-C cord... no charger. WTF? Irritating!! Luckily we have chargers that will work for them, and not have to order and wait extra days to arrive (thanks FedEx).

Well, I guess that is enough ranting for now.

PeacE

Monday, September 13

In Need of Sleep

 I found myself up at the ungodly hour of 5am to get started on work for the day. I have lost the ease I used to have at rising at that hour. When I left the last company, just before Covid hit and we "had to quarantine" ourselves to our homes in March of 2020, Getting up and out the door by 5am was not a big deal. I have gotten too comfortable with sleeping in a bit since then. Sigh. But I sure like getting done with my workday by 1pm, and being able to do whatever I want - even if it turns out I need to be in bed by 9-10pm.

Either way, with all the rest I had gotten this weekend, I found myself having a hard time getting to sleep last night. The Wife had issues as well (and she is making up for it by lounging/napping in bed still this morning (it's almost 8:30am). I finally got up about 1am, and messed around until about 3, then laid done. I did get a couple naps in before the alarm went off. But I am yawning while working, with 4 1/2 hours to go yet. Sigh.

Thinking of asking the Wife to run to a new place near us - a salad drive-thru place. Supposedly she had them before, and said they are quite large in size and are good. Some good food - well, healthier than burgers anyways. No leftovers for me since we went out to eat last night. Sigh. No idea what we will do.

Middle Son came over early this morning (but not before I started work) and we visited while I worked a bit. I like when he comes by just to "say hi".

PeacE

Sunday, September 12

Issues

 The past eleven days have been stressful for me. Things that needed to change in my life were brought before me, and needed to be addressed. Several of those things have been taken care of, others are in process, and a very few I am still deciding on how I will handle to get the result that is best for me. Yes, it sounds selfish, and in truth, it is. But I don't care. If it is what I feel is needed to be changed, then so be it.

I turned 50 on Labor Day. That weekend was a nice one. Saturday I had gotten together with a few close friends and had a few drinks at the pub. I didn't stay late, though, I admit to having a couple more beers than I should have.... but it was a birthday celebration! Sunday I spent at home, recuperating mostly. A good portion of Monday was spent just being idle around the house. Monday evening I was able to get all four kids, with their families/SO's all to dinner at Texas Roadhouse and had a wonderful evening meal. Yeah, Birthday Boy had to pay for it all, but it was the gift I really wanted, was the time for all of us to be together.

Started a work project (yea!) just before that weekend. It is still currently going on, and I will return to it again tomorrow morning. This one has been a bit different than most I have been involved on before, but at least it helps advance my skills a bit more. I am hoping to be kept on it past the First Level, so I get he pay grade increases as we move each step closer to the finish. I won't know probably until later this week.

Since mid August I have been having health issues. From that ER visit, where the docs could find nothing wrong about my abdominal pain, I have had pain in other places. Most have receded over a few days, but will flare up every now and then. Due to this I have been a 'good boy' and cut back on my alcohol intake, and am working on drinking more water - at the pub, and at home. Weight has been a problem for me a long time, and I have now been cutting back on portions, as well as types of food I eat. Some of that pain has been in my gall bladder area off and on, so have been trying to have a healthier diet to help prevent issues that may arise there. Plus side is it helps me lose weight. Yesterday, I actually took in my belt a notch, so something is working.

Not much to add for now. I am not going to bore you with other changes I have made I felt were necessary.

Just got home from a nice dinner out with The Wife and Youngest at Chili's. I tried their Caribbean Salad, which had citrus, pineapple, and cranberries on lettuce with a honey-lime balsamic dressing, and it was actually very good and filling. Lately I have been getting signed up on the apps/rewards programs for the restaurants we go to, and tonight got a free drink, and a free desert (for my bday) off the tab. Even the Wife agrees, if it is only an appetizer somewhere, it's something for free.

PeacE 

Wednesday, September 1

False Starts

 So, about a half hour before the scheduled time for the start-up meeting for the new work project, I get an email from the Team manager. Seems they were some issues and that they had to delay the start of the project. Everything was pushed back one day. I did receive later in the day, the expected email containing information specific to this project, so as of now, I am guessing we are on schedule with no hiccups today. I actually woke up early today and will be logging in shortly after writing here, to verify I have the access(es) to programs and chat channels needed, and go over any additional information provided there.

Still dealing with some back pain. Though it is decreasing daily, just not as fast as I would like. Same with the right knee. I think if the knee pain would go first, the back pain would go away faster. I think much of the back pain is from change of gait due to this knee hurting.

I posted on social media for Saturday afternoon, to gather those that may want to, for my birthday. I did a select invitation, so it would not be to everyone on my "friends list" as some people I just don't want there. Why am I still friends with them? No clue for some, others are family members that I just don't want there. RM already mentioned that they would probably not show, not because it is at a pub, but it is a little far for them, and they don't know many of my friends. I get that. Right now only a small handful have replied that they may/may not make it. No worries. If no one shows, I still have my tablet to read books on. It looks like Monday evening I will be able to get all the kids together for my bday dinner. Only the Oldest Son has not confirmed as of yet.

Well, I should get other things started to get the day going.

PeacE

Tuesday, August 31

The Dog Days of August Are Ending

 Today marks the end of August, but not of the monsoon season here in AZ. That typically runs until the end of September. And this week partially proves why. It is cooling down, but we do expect some rain (residuals from the tropical storm Nora) supposedly today into tomorrow. Which makes for humid weather and upper 80's for the temps. Back up to the low 100's by the weekend. Ugh!

I am officially back to work today. I had emailed Sunday evening to the company (again) asking what is the status of projects coming in, and basically said that they are wasting my talents making sit on the sidelines waiting for projects. Amazingly, I received notification that a project "suddenly" became available for me. This one is to last 2-3 weeks (finally a longer one) and according to what they emailed me, I was requested by the Team Manager specifically. Hmmmm.... are they ass-kissing me after my snippy email? I don't know, but still am happy to get back to work. The 'start-up' meeting is in a couple hours.

Pain. Yeah, I still have it. Today feels better than previously. Seems each day it wants to recede a little bit more. At this rate, it will be another week or more before I am back to what I would consider normal for myself. Better than nothing I suppose.

I feel like I want a Mtn Dew this morning, but don't feel like getting dressed enough to drive up to the store. Wonder if I can talk the Wife into doing it for me....

PeacE

Sunday, August 29

Where Are All The Good Drugs?

 The past two weeks have been pure 'pain in my ass', as you would know if you read the past few posts I've put up. After the wasted (and expensive) trip to the ER, it seems like painful issue after painful issue has been happening to my body, with no relief seeming to be in sight. I have been trying to stay off my feet, to hopefully let this knee issue resolve itself. Because with the knee hurting, it has thrown off my gait, which has now messed with my back, complicating the previous work comp injury, so my spinal disc has started to slip, rubbing the nerve. I thought Friday I had rested up off the knee enough, but evidently was on it too much last night. Today was bad enough I was taking acetaminophen every four hours, with seemingly no results. Wish I had something stronger, or even some muscle relaxers like the Doc gave me when I had the injury. They helped at night to get to sleep.

Well, life has been pretty dull other than dealing with these pain issues. Heard from the Company mid-week, after I had emailed inquiring if there were any projects I could be assigned to. Supposedly, there were "several projects coming up at the end of the week" and I was "at the top of the list to get assigned" but of course, here it is early Sunday morning, and I have not heard a word since. Hoping to get that email early Monday morning (since the 'Assigners' are on East Coast time) that they have something. If not, another email will go out when I rise from bed.

Well, RM would be proud. With all the issues I been having, I have decreased my alcohol intake by quite a margin. Not drinking as much, or as often, which is nice on the pocketbook of course. I went near a week after the ER with no drinking at all, then eased back into it. I think I am still trying to be sure the original issue wasn't related to the drinking, and I truly don't believe it was.

The big 5-0 birthday is coming up soon... just over a week away. Looks like I may get all my kids together on Labor Day to have supper out to celebrate. Still waiting to hear from Oldest Son to confirm, but he had sent me his work schedule and he was off in the evening. Hope that don't change. Haven't thought much about any gift I would want from anyone. I'll have a night out at some of the pubs I hang at, and get some free drinks from those folks. I know RM had said she had something for me, and she knows how I am not big about gifts, so I am curious about it would be. I'm guessing the Wife will get me some snacks I like. If I can get all my kids together for dinner, I think that would be the best gift I want. Was able to do it last year, so hoping it will work out this year as well.

The Daughter is turning 30 late in the month as well. I have been looking for a good 'gag gift' to tease her, but haven't found the right thing yet. Need to soon or it won't have shipping time to get here. Hard to believe my oldest is nearing 30 already... the Youngest is 15. Sigh. Time marches on ....

Alright, enough ramblin' on this morning.

PeacE

Wednesday, August 25

'Round 'n 'Round it Goes, When Will it Stop....?

 Tuesday late afternoon, the knee was feeling a bit better. I decided to go hang out with some friends for a bit. We went to a pub I hadn't been to in a few days - not our regular place, but near it. We had only been there about an hour, when I figured out how I hurt the knee.

I had headed to the restroom (desire was string after 3 pitchers of water - yes, I was not drinking any alcohol) and pushed open the men's room door. At this locale, the restroom door is a hard open, and has what I call a stiff spring on the door, meaning the spring-action that shuts the door automatically, is too tight, and requires more force to open/close, and it shuts harder than average. Well, as I pushed it open, balanced as I was on my legs and cane, the door came swinging shut before I was fully through the door. By bumping my side, it threw me a little off balance, causing me to twist the right leg (at the knee) just a little. This time it twinged with pain, that I did a no-no. I recalled being at this pub the night before I noticed all this new knee pain. That evening, though I now knew to expect this when opening the door, it still happened twice more. I'm pretty sure this is how I hurt the knee. So, in a way, that is good to know.

Wednesday goes fine. Still resting and off the legs/feet as much as possible to help speed up the knee recovery. No side pains, or anything else to note. We decided to go to a local pizza place for dinner as 25% of all meals bought were being donated to the HS Band where the Youngest is attending (and is in the band). AS I went to get into my vehicle to leave, I felt like I had literally sat on my testicles. Quickly I jumped out of the seat, and kind of grabbed the 'boys' and was thinking to myself 'WTH?' I slowly lowered myself back into the seat, and still just felt the discomfort, as you guys know, of being knocked in the nards. It faded as we drove and had dinner. Though when we went to leave the pizza place, it flared again as I sat in my seat, though I was being cautious about how I lowered myself into the car.

Once we got home, I shifted out of my clothes into some gym shorts to go sit in front of the computer. As I lowered into the office chair, again that pain, though now I am also feeling some back pain near the spine on the left side. I go to bed, and certain movements shifting from side to side, getting into/out of bed, etc, caused these pains to flare. So like most morons, I google my symptoms. I read probably about twenty entries from cancer to clogged veins, but never had the same symptoms, until I get to the very bottom of one page. Lower back pain, and pain in the groin/lower abdomen - caused more than likely from the spinal nerve being pinched in the lumbar section. 

My work comp injury from about 4-5 years ago - slippage of the L4 or L5 disc, causing distress to the spinal nerve. My knee hurting and causing me to "change" my gait, causing muscles to work differently, thus causing my back pain. Great. Things just seem to multiply around me these past two weeks. My guess is if I can "heal" up the knee pain, stay off of it, etc, things should shift back into the normal range for me. Hopefully before my birthday coming up.

Sigh. Feels like a lot to wish for....

PeacE

Tuesday, August 24

The Fun of Self-Diagnosis

 Well, there really isn't any fun in it at all. Trying to guess why your toe hurts and how it is connected to the hair-loss you have on the back of your head, is somehow comical, but mostly it is weird ... and scary. But that is what I talked about with the Wife tonight. I brought up how my 'good' knee has been pretty painful the past few days, though being off of it has helped a little. I also mentioned the lower back pain that has been starting up, an actual flaring up of my work comp injury. I'm pretty sure it has to do with my knee. Having the knee hurt as mush, I've adjusted my step/gait, and I am confident that that is what is causing my back to flare from making muscle adjustments it is not used to, and it is shifting my spine a bit. Which is also close to where I am feeling some "pulling" when laying on my right side ... all could be muscle related. So what am I going to do about it? Rest. Stay off my feet for the next few days as much as possible. Do a few of the PT exercises for my back that were beneficial when I was injured. I figure that is about all I can do at this point.

I hate feeling like I have the past week plus. I'm used to "little" aches and pains, that go away after a few days. Not these things that make you want to cut the hurt out with a knife and stab it to death. I'm sure it is just age and the body falling apart on me, since I have not been the best caretaker of this flesh. I know, I know ... I sound like a whiny baby, and I am sure I am being one. Just so tired of this.

Speaking of tired, my sleep schedule is all messed up again. Trying to rest as much as possible has led to extra naps, so sleeping all night has been off the table for at least the last three nights. Today I was in bed before ten, now just after one I am up again. Hopefully in a couple hours I will be able to lay down and get a few more short hours in.

Right now my life is pretty boring, so don't be surprised if I don't write much.

PeacE

Monday, August 23

Is Something Wrong, or Am I Just Broken?

 So, the ER trip a week ago. Each day since, the "stabs" of pain in my side, especially when taking breaths, has gradually subsided to almost non-existent. This morning as I draw a deep breath, as much as I can, I still feel some twinges, but not painful. It's almost like it never happened. But new things crop up to take the place of that pain.

My knees have ever been a problem for me. With the stress I have put them through playing ball, and the numerous bicycle accidents as a kid, it's amazing it isn't just scar tissue that holds them together. Being overweight doesn't help them either. I get around using a cane most days, mostly to keep myself stabilized, as my left knee likes to "fold" without notice sometimes. But in the past three days, my right knee has been showing some pain. Feels like I have "banged" the inside of the knee against something and bruised it. Yet I haven't hit my knee. There is no discoloration, but when walking now, it makes me wonder which side should I use the cane for. With just a little bit of walking around the house this morning, it feels better than yesterday, and again today I will be off my feet as much as possible.

Also noticed yesterday was my right side again. I favor to lay on my right side to sleep, and most of this last week I have not been able to, due to the pain I was having. Yesterday morning, as I woke and sort of laid in bed, I felt like something was being 'pulled apart' just behind where the previous pain had been. It decreased as I rolled to my back, and disappeared when rolled on over to my left side. IT wasn't painful, just very uncomfortable. Add to that that I felt fuzzy headed most of the day, and took frequent naps. This morning I woke way early due to all that sleeping, and still having the new side issue. 

So that's where I am today. Nothing heard about a new project for work. Side pain. Knee pain. I think I may be spending much of the day in bed again, resting and napping.

PeacE

Friday, August 20

A Memory That Came Up

 My First Time at a Bar

Let's preface this a bit. I would have been about 10'ish in age. Parents were separated, if not divorced by this time. I lived with my Father. Dad worked about 30-45 minutes away from where we lived. I was alone  many times: before/after school, school breaks, etc. I had things to keep me busy during those times. I had chores. I also raised rabbits in the 4-H program. Household stuff, too, since it was just Dad and I. I got an allowance, as well.

So, I think it was during the summer of my 10th year. I'm guessing, but it 'rings right' in mymemory, which somehow showed up today.

I had finished the chores of the day I needed to do. School was not in session, so I was pretty much free to do whatever. Kirklin is a small farm community, or at least that is the way I remember it. People know everyone, blah, blah. I had saved up my allowance and probably had about $20 in ones and change. I decided to "go out on the town".

Now Kirklin then was small. Had the one blinker in town, flashed green for 421 (the Michigan Road) and yellow for State Routes 38/39 (combined through town). That was a 24/7 light. One of those 'blink you missed it' type towns. But they had a few amenities.

That day I walked the few short blocks up to the Rexall Drugstore (on the corner - and they used to do the shakes there too) bought some penny candies, and stepped back outside. I was about 10 (stated before) and was pretty familiar with the layout of town, but maybe not all businesses. The General Store (Hanson's) held nothing for me. Though, I remember back in the day getting butcher cuts (I think?). Coming out of the Rexall, I decided, I was old enough, and a man, like my dad, I was going to the bar. Yes, there was one there in that small town.

I don't recall the name of the place, yet I can probably point it out where it would have been if we drove through town today. The building is long gone. It was one of them old ones, from years before my time, that had to be taken down to either make room for something new, or just to keep from hurting anyone, I'm sure.

I walked in and with the confidence of my 10-year-old self, climbed up on a barstool in the middle of the bar. There were a couple "old farmers" down the way from me, but I didn't care. The female bartender, with a smile on her face, asks me "What will it be?".

"I need a beer. My Dad has one to relax every now and then, and I think I been doing a good day's work, that I could use one about now," I replied.

"Do you have a preference?" she asked.

I had no clue, so I said "Whatever the special is."

She walked away, to get my 'special' and I looked over at the two older guys at the end of the bar, who were giggling. No idea why they were, but they weren't making me look bad. The bartender comes back with a brown bottle, pops the top, and sets in it front of me. I nod.

"That'll be a buck," she says. I lean to my side, pull my "wad" out of my pocket, pull a dollar off, stuff the rest back in, and slap in on the counter. She smiles at me, and takes it, ringing it up as a sale. I take a sip, and ohhhhh... that's some good root beer! No wonder Dad likes to have one every now and then. This one tastes colder than any we bought and put in the fridge!

The bartender comes back and start talking to me. "So, who's your daddy? Do I know him?"

"I'm sure you do. His name is *** and he was a cop here in town til not too long ago." I say as I take another drink.

She doesn't say anything, and gets a weird look on her face. Them two older gents quiet down, their laughter going away.

"Oh, really," she says. "And does he know you are up here?"

I looked her dead in the eye, and said, "No, Ma'am. In our house we raise men that don't blab about stuff that don't need to be talked about. I'm taking a break having this beer. What's that got to do about my Dad?"

She guffawed. Might have been the first guffaw I ever known about. And them two older men, they was damn spittin' up their own drinks. By this time I was pretty close to finishing the bottle, and was scowling, because I didn't understand the humor that everyone else was having, at my expense. I drank down the last it that was left, and jumped down from the barstool.

"Ya know, most people leave a tip for the server," the bartender said to me. So I reached into my pocket, feeling the prolly $2.50 in pennies I had in there, and grabbed a small handful. I pulled it out and put it on the bar. 

"There ya go. Have a good 'un," I said and walked out the door. I dunno I gave her fifty cents, or more. I know it weren't a dollar, because I didn't use a full handful. And I heard laughter from all three as I walked out the door.

Later that evening, after Dad and I had fixed dinner and were eating, Dad asks, "How was your first beer?"

I froze. How'd he know I was at the bar? How'd he know I ordered a beer? HOW???

"Tasted like a good A&W. No wonder you like to have one every now and then," I said. Dad was smiling. He chewed his bite of food, then set his fork down.

"Don't ever go to the bar again without me," he said. "And whatever you do, never ask for the special. If you want a beer, you can ask me anytime."

That truly was the last time I was in a bar, until my teenage years. But by then, I was more 'world-wise' and wasn't there for a drink, but to collect on a newspaper delivery tab. I never got to 'share' a beer with my Dad, as he passed away enough years before I was of age. But I think back to that small-town community thinking...where everyone knows everybody, and every says whatever. I know that is how my dad knew about that day, and when I mentioned his name, they knew if they did something wrong, he'd hear about it too. Least, that's what I figure.

** That memory popped up tonight while I was out with a buddy at the pub. I don't know what triggered it, but I was glad it did. It is one I am saving back in notes, but I felt like sharing.

PeacE