Saturday, April 15

Nothing Yet

I woke up suddenly out of a sound sleep this morning. All because I thought I heard the phone ringing. Knowing you could get a phone call at any time saying the kids are on the way to the hospital, I have been like this for the past few nights. But as of right now, it hasn't happened. My Granddaughter just isn't ready to come into the world, I guess.

It's been a week since the Wife left to go down to Morenci and "help" out with things at the Daughter's place. The Boys have been good, and the Oldest Son has helped out a lot with getting the other two to school.

Other than that, not much going on. Hope to hear good news soon though.


Monday, April 10

When It Is Out of My Control

Man.... The Daughter's due date is the 13th. The Wife left me on Sunday to go down there to be with her for the next two weeks. It is day Two, and I am already freaking out.

Things started out good. Got the college-aged Son, helping get the younger ones to school in the mornings, since I go to work before they even awake. First evening, I get to Grandma's house, where the kids go after school, and picked them up. Life is good.

Then I find out that Grandma's gate was hacked. The wooden gate entry to the backyard. Happened a couple months ago and the "vandals" stole some bikes (random bikes they had for parts for people that really needed them). This time, they seemingly stole nothing, that she noticed, but cut the combination lock she had on a hasp on the gate. So, as I heard it tonight, I said I would take care of it tomorrow night... evaluate the damage, find a better hasp, install, and asked her preference for a lock. I got her answer, and that's the plan for tomorrow after work.

Called the Wife, who is is down with the Daughter for the next two weeks.... Grand-daughter is due Thursday, and from  text from the Wife, the whole dilation/blah blah blah... she seems to be on track. Cool. If so, she'll have the baby before the weekend, and as I try to book a hotel somewhere within 50 miles of where they live, it could be good, but I have to wait until tomorrow night, according to the phone call I just had with my Wife, who was mad because they were watching"Finding Dory" and was pissed I called. Inconsiderates. Even after I reminded her, I don't handle things well with her not here... like my sleeping. I got maybe 3 hours last night. Two weeks to go. Yee Fucking Haw.

I'm excited about my first Grandchild. I know it to be a girl. Doesn't matter to me. Can't wait to hold her in my arms....

Until then, I work. Adjust schedules with the boys, picking up/dropping off for events (if any), grocery shopping for Grandma, and anything else she is not able to do. More work than my usual weekly.

But, it is all good. Busy as Hell, but all for a Good reason.


Tuesday, March 28

Some Weeks Just Suck

I had barely started work when Sis texted me that my Grandpa had passed that morning. Great start to a Monday. I am mixed with emotions even now as to what I should be feeling. Sad, obviously as a bit of grieving is in order. Happy, because he has moved on to be with Dad, Grandma, and Uncle Earl, plus the stress the uncles were under in with him at the retirement manor, managing things, etc. Needless to say, I was not planning on flying back to Indiana for the funeral, which is this weekend. Sis and Stuman are going.

Of course, today is Tuesday, and let's throw another zinger my way! Tonight on the way home from work, my check engine light came on, flashing. Felt a stuttering-type through the car (I was on the highway doing 60'ish). For a few miles I debated pulling over and shutting it off, but was worried if I did, I would not be able to re-start the car. So, may not have been the brightest thing, but I exited the freeway and took surface streets headed to my area of town. At red lights I had to shift into neutral due to some rough idling. Plus every time I accelerated, the flashing engine light would pop back on, but go off when decelerating, or at a stop. I took it ton the local Pep Boys, as they did the last work I had done (water pump). Their mechanics had just left for the day (yeah... just left) and they couldn't/wouldn't look at it until 7am tomorrow. So I had to leave it. Good thing Oldest son was able to pick me up and get me home.

Once home, I probably did another not so smart thing. I looked up on the internet what could be some possible issues with the flashing check engine light... and I was amazed at the array of issues. From carbon build-up in the cylinders, to mis-firing cylinders, catalytic issues, O2 sensor issues, lose connections in the injectors/wire/plugs, bad plugs, and of course stories about having to remove the heads and .... Now I feel more worried. And I have to take a personal day as I have no way to work tomorrow....

Here's an update with some good .... Boss just called me. He can get me to work, and either get me home, or can catch a ride with the parts driver (my old job). So now I don't have to waste a day not going to work.

Now if I could quit worrying about the car, ease the grief of losing a buddy and a Grandpa, and just chill tonight... that would be great


Sunday, March 26

Adjusting Just Fine

I've been in my new position at work now for nearly a month now. Things are going well. I think I have adjusted pretty well to the earlier hours. Enough that at least when I can sleep in, I still wake up around 5am without the alarm. This last week was seemingly long due to the parts driver (my previous position) was out two days, and the other gal I work with also was out two days. But I think I handled things pretty good even have to do more than my job position.

Was out last night to a pub I had not been to in awhile. Found out one of the guys I played softball with many years ago had committed suicide just the other day. He was one heck of a nice guy, and loved his twin boys very much. Still hard to believe he just walked out in the parking lot and put a bullet in his head. I'm a bit baffled by it all. Another friend was saying that there were some depression issues going on, but I had not seen the him for at least a couple years.... so would have had no clue about that.

Another friend of mine has been diagnosed with ALS, and given a remainder of life time of 3-6 months. My buddy Jan flew out last weekend to Illinois to be with Bill, the one with ALS. Together they were going to travel to the Football Hall of Fame in Ohio for a one last road trip together.

Received a phone call Thursday I think it was.... or maybe Friday, morning. Seems my Grandpa is not doing well. Grandma had passed away back in January. Seems he isn't eating and has caught some sort of virus. Doctors say it is similar to the symptoms he had a couple years ago with a bout of pneumonia. Only this time they are not sure if he will be able to fight it off. Without Grandma there, he may just lose the will to continue on.

On the plus side, the Daughter is due in just over three weeks. The Wife is going down to their place for two weeks nearer the due date. Thank goodness I have the Older Son to help get the boys to school. I imagine several days of eating out during those two weeks. Or several Ramen noodle nights....


Saturday, March 18

Learning How to Feel Old

I have transitioned into the new job pretty well. Getting up at 4:30 in the morning, well before the sun rises was a big change from the previous 10 am awakenings. Makes me feel a bit like some old, retired person going to bed at 9-10pm so I can get enough sleep though. And it feels so weird getting home by 4pm....

Life in general hasn't been bad. The Daughter is still due mid-April, and will be up in the Valley next weekend for her baby shower. The Boys are behaving and doing fine in school. Leaves me sitting here thinking I really don't have much to write about. I guess I'm going to have to get opinionated on political topics just to have content (probably not good) to post about here.....

But not today.... I;m off to watch a movie.


Friday, February 24

Is He Any Good?

Tonight, the new guy said he was ready to go solo - meaning, I was riding along. Personally I was happy. Though I checked in with him via text/calls as needed. A couple mish-mashes... but easily corrected,

I have a weekend ahead of me, one where the very pregnant daughter is in town. I see them spending more money. Mostly, I don't care, but want more things saying "Grandpa", or, as I choose because of how I was raised, "Papaw". Kid is due in mid-April, and I dunno what to do. They live like 4 hour drive from us.

I'm done tonight. This transition to day-shift, and time.... Give me a week or two.


Third Day of New Guy

I hate training people!

I'm ready to kill myself. Aside from the fact I have to hold myself from jumping in and doing the job quicker, he is REALLY slow. The supposed 'transistion' of reading information, and marking it on a sheet, is his slowest work. Reading anything, he admits, is bad for him because he has a hard time transposing it, into either a check mark, or to just confirmed he looked at it (like scratching a name off a list).

Tonight, I let him take the 16 foot box truck home. Meaning I got home about an hour before he did, because he dropped me off. Tomorrow, since I don't have to pick him up, I am going in early, not to maybe start training a bit about my new position, but to talk to my boss. I KNOW I am not the best judge of who can do this job.....I'm more worried about how this guy may not be the best one hired for it.

Feel somewhat bad for the kid, but, gotta have someone competent to do the job, and I don't think he is. Which could bring it all back to me doing that job until the company finds some one. Sigh. I don't want that. Deal with stupid shit, and then be asked to go back when he can't do the job? Fuck.

Right now I hate Life.